#maz-stuff

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Every single time I take a personality test I always get ISTP. 

There's some truth in it, but I think the description of ISFP sounds more like me. ISTP sounds alarmingly like Sherlock Holmes! I am not that logical! But, maybe I'm just a mentally lazy ISTP who wishes she were more of an artist. Maybe I'm just fighting against my nature. 

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My heart wants Moriarty to be back because he's a great character but my head wants him dead because to have him live through that would stretch the bounds of believability.

My head wants Mary to stick around because in ep 1&2 she was AMAZING and her turn in ep 3 was badass but my heart wants her gone because I feel the audience was not given enough time to adequately forgive her and while she is a great addition to the show I draw the line at a baby. 

I can't decide if the ambivalence & emotional whiplash re: Mary is intentional (=keep her ambiguous) or ineffective writing (=the plot was rushed along too quickly.)

A theory I love involves addressing how ACD gave Moriarty and his brother the same name, and by somehow closing that canon plothole it is a way to bring him back. 

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Denizens of tumblr, I love you all.

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Please don't call any queer people you know "[your] gays", in the future. It's objectifying and it makes me personally feel like I'm seen as a dog in someone's purse rather than an adult man. I spend a lot of energy on dealing with homophobia, both internalized and from straight people around me, including my family, and it is pretty much only on tumblr that I feel free to speak out. And now you know who I am and what flavor of shit day I'm having.

I could be wrong but honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever uttered or typed that phrase. Perhaps it showed up in something I reblogged? However, I understand completely. My only friend in the world is a gay man and I never ever talk about him as if he is some Gay Friend stereotype or as if because of him I’m “allowed” to use dismissive language. It makes my skin crawl to see one of the few people on this planet who loves and understands me reduced like that. I’m getting emotional just thinking about it now and how I’d want to claw the eyes out of the people who would demean him. I take these issues extremely seriously in my personal life and in the workplace. If I am EVER doing something shitty or being a bad ally I absolutely want to be told so I can reconsider my words/actions and change. I promise.  

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Sorry, that was absolutely uncalled for. I'm in a terrible mood and I took it out on you because you were there and pissed me off once in the past. I immediately regretted it, and I apologize.

All is well, anon. As far as pissing people off, some of my favorite people on tumblr are those who sometimes frustrate me &/or I disagree with. I like to see what they post because often it gets me thinking about something in a totally different way. (And when I say my ask box is open for anyone & anything, frustration towards me is fair game, after all.)

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I think you are interesting, and probably worth knowing, but I have met your kind before. I will never trust someone like you again, and I also discourage others of my kind from doing so, with pragmatism in mind and no hard feelings.

I can count on one hand the amount of people I have spoken to here on a personal level and still have fingers left over, so I’m not quite sure how you are summing me up. I make an effort towards always treating others with kindness and empathy. If I have hurt anyone in any way I would like to know in order to learn from it. In any case, take care.

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Take it how you will. I find the cast of characters in BBC Sherlock, and in particular the dynamic between Sherlock and John, to be some of the most personally recognizable and relatable fictional characters in recent memory.

It seems that a lot of what parts of fandom dislikes is precisely what I like.

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If you ever find yourself getting too worked up —for good or ill— over fandom things just watch a documentary about the fan culture around something you’re not very interested in. I promise you, it will give you your needed perspective.