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ok i knowww im supposed to be gone from here but Ive been watching 007 First Light and WHYYY IS THERE NO GREENWAY/RHYS BECKETT STUFF its like the most OBVIOUS thing. Doomed old man yaoi guys cmon!! middle-aged man yaoi?? idk but COME ONNN (massive spoilers for the game in the tags btw do not look if you wanna play/watch)

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Today was a really nice birthday. I even got a new blorbo out of it :]

nut rly, for those who wished upon my wellbeing, i thank you <3 this day was lovely, and im glad to have lived it

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Do you like Twin Peaks?

Ive never watched an episode of Twin Peaks in my life. is it good? Does it have lesbians?

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"you know ball" is so funny to me as a phrase. Ball!? You know too??? You're aware??? Humble ball?????

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yall have no fucking idea how much i DONT PLAY ABOUT YURRYCANON/TSUKUYOMI godddddd MY YURI (theyre the one single reason i wish i could post song covers online but alas. no mic)

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Jhariah-heads, we GOTTA talk about this Reverse performance at the Vanguard. like, imperatively so. i cant be the only one, out of less than 200 people who have watched this, that isnt being balls-to-the-wall mental about this

Ik ive already made a post about this, but god. it makes me crazy. i need to ramble or else i'lll lose it

It's the fact that it's Reverse - (explained by the man himself as) a song representing those thoughts of "what if things couldve been different?" or maybe, What if things could've been better?. It's a song of begging to turn back, to change things; a song of regretting the life you have now, regretting the very person you've become. A song of silently waiting for entropy to claim you.

And the fact that it's Needed A Change of Pace right after - a song about breaking free from the chains of the past, dying and being reborn, about taking life back into your own hands with no regard for the tired, old threats that once shackled you still. A song of changing yourself so drastically nobody but yourself can recognize you. Of taking pride in the betrayal of the old, and of taking respnsibility & making things better yourself.

It feels so much like a before and an after; an evolution. Being so trapped inside yourself, you cannot fathom a life after what is destined for you. the thought kills you, it debilitates you. It breaks you. You tire of this. You want a life, you want your Own life, you want to leave everyone - everything - that dares doubt you, behind.

I could go on, but ive looked at these blue curtains long enough. im not okay. jhariah claire save me

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Weh – and I can't emphasise this enough, – heh

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There is so much more to this life than pain. Sometimes that doesn't make sense to you. Sometimes you have to make the decision to go out and look for it. It's hard to believe it, you've believed yourself broken and misshapen and too weak for it for so long. But you will. You'll believe it too. You're more than all that.