It stung more than a bit, Oliver couldn’t lie about it if he tried. Not to himself, and not to Percy, who noted his slight pause as they walked into the pub. A pause that happened mid-sentence as soon as he saw Hermione. And who she was here with.
“Oli, take a breath, mate...”
He swallowed thickly, nodding at Percy. He really was a good mate. What with Ron being his younger brother and all.
“I’m fine, Perce. I’m just going to run back to the loo for a moment, order my usual.”
Percy looked torn. Torn between following him into the loo and doing as Oliver had asked, but he acquiesced and agreed. “I’ll try to grab the booth in the back.”
“Thanks.”
Oliver felt his face getting hotter and hotter as he walked towards the loo in the back of the pub. His movements felt stiff and automatic. As if he’d been charmed to move, rather than moving of his own accord.
He pushed open the door, not realizing he’d been holding his breath until he let it out.
Luck was on his side in this at least, because the entire washroom was empty, and he was able to lock himself in a stall, turning to lean against the door and give himself ten seconds to feel sorry for himself. Perhaps a few more than ten.
This had always been a possibility. He knew that in the back of his head.
Hermione and Ron never stayed split up for long. It was on him for getting attached to her when he knew damn well she would never stay with him. Not with that damn Weasley ducking in and out of her life.
That git didn’t deserve a moment of her time.
It was a bitter thought, and Oliver knew he didn’t have anything against Ron, not really. Other than this.
But Hermione was so fuckin’ smart. And so pretty. She had this way she smiled when she talked about something she was passionate about. It didn’t matter that it was a breeding license for one of Luna Lovegood’s new discoveries. Some kind of tadpole or something.
It wasn’t that Oliver wasn’t paying attention, it was just that when Hermione was passionate, she talked quickly. Rapidly forming words as if she were in a race with herself to reveal the most information in the shortest time possible. But he couldn’t bear to stop her to ask for clarification. It took her so long to open up, there was no way he was about to ever try and stop her from talking.
Oliver had nothing against Ron, but he just didn’t seem to appreciate Hermione’s passion. Which was likely why they kept up this on-again, off-again thing, and had ever since Hogwarts. Ron would do something to get her all miffed at him, and they’d break up, he’d leave town, she’d start to move on, and he’d come right back.
Never mind that this time, she was moving on with Oliver. And it was lovely. Had been lovely.
He’d only just worked up the nerve to kiss her a few nights ago. And now he never would again.
Or he wouldn’t until she broke things off with Ron again.
The smart thing to do would be to try to move on.
But it was so fresh. Why, just fifteen minutes ago, he’d been giddy about her. About their future together.
And then he walked into the pub to see her there with Ron. Sitting close in a booth and sipping on butterbeers with Potter and Longbottom.
He pressed his hands to his face and rubbed at his eyes, willing them to stop welling up. He wasn’t about to burst into tears at the pub. Not about this. Every other time he’d cried in a pub was about a Quidditch match.
But it felt like a knife in his gut every time he thought about them. Ron getting to drape his arm over her shoulders, and kiss her, and...
He pressed the heels of his palms harder against his eyes and took a deep breath again. It was time to pull himself back together. He had to go out there and make it out to be not a big deal. He had to be the bigger person here. It’d do no good to act foolishly and lose even her friendship along with everything else.
If Ron made her happy, then Oliver would have to get used to the idea. Hermione was too wonderful not to have in his life.
The door to the loo opened and he inhaled, reaching for and tugging on the chain to flush the commode. He pulled out his wand to do a quick refreshing charm on his face. He wasn’t the best at them, but it’d hold until he had a few pints and could feasibly leave for the night. No one would be any the wiser.
“Oliver?”
The hairs stood up on the back of his neck when he heard her.
Fuck it all.
He wasn’t going to be able to make it through one of these talks. Not here. Not now. He’d at least like to do it later. In private so he wouldn’t be under any pressure to perform well. Also after he’d had time to come to grips with what was happening.
“Oliver?” she repeated. “I know you’re in here, Percy told me where to find you. I need to talk to you.”
Well, here it was. The talk he’d been dreading.
He took another breath to steady himself before opening the door to the stall. She was standing in front of the sinks, her hands behind her.
She was wearing an oversized sweater. Navy blue, with a pair of jeans, her curls pulled back from her face save one, framing her cheekbone on the left and drawing his attention to her lovely eyes.
She was going to be so hard to get over.
“Hullo,” he said, careful to keep his voice steady.
“I didn’t know you’d be here tonight...” she said, no preamble.
“It’s really no matter, we’re not... it’s fine, Mione.”
“It’s not, Oliver. Because you’ve clearly misunderstood what’s going on here, and I can’t have that.”
He frowned, glancing up at her. “What do you mean?”
“I’m not back together with Ron. I told him I’d moved on. That I haven’t really felt anything but safety with him for a while now...”
Oliver wasn’t sure what he could say. Or even If he wanted to say anything at all because he didn’t want to spook her out of what she was saying, it was so surreal.
“And I told him that I’ve been seeing you,” she said softly, taking a step forward and reaching out for his hand. “Tonight was just supposed to be a night for drinks with Harry and Neville. And really it’s only because I was working with Neville on some phytosanitary certificates for some foreign plants today, and he invited me. I was going to finish my butterbeer and owl you to see if you were free.”
“Looks like I did all the leg work for you.”
She smiled and squeezed his hand.
Oliver squeezed back. “So, you’re not with Ron?”
She shook her head. “I’m sorry that you thought I was. I never meant for...”
“I’m the one who jumped to the worst conclusion,” Oliver reminded her. “I should have trusted you...”
“Well, to be fair, we’ve sort of been taking things slowly... mostly due to me dragging my feet...” she stepped a bit closer, tugging on his hand. “I think I’m ready to take some full steps.”
Oliver grinned and allowed her to pull him close, her other hand sliding into his hair on the back of his head as she pulled him closer. When his lips met hers, it occurred to him that they were in the men’s loo in a pub and he pulled back. “You’re in the men’s, Hermione.”
She shrugged, flicked her wand. “I might have locked everyone else out... but they’re sure to figure it out sooner or later.”
“So we should probably leave, then?” Oliver asked.
“What, you don’t want to snog me in the men’s loo?”
“Not particularly, although I’d snog you anywhere you’d like...”
“Where shall we go, then? My place?”
Oliver’s eyebrows shot up in surprise and he nodded. “If that’s... yes please, we could. I should tell Percy that...”
“He already knows,” Hermione smirked. “But I understand if you’d like to go back out and---“
Oliver tugged her towards the door and out through the crowded pub, waving a quick goodbye to Percy, who was chuckling into his pint in Hermione’s spot with Potter, Ron, and Longbottom.
Once outside, they apparated to the square outside Hermione’s apartment since Oliver knew that place pretty well. From there, she led him up to her flat, stopping outside her door to kiss him softly on the lips. “Mind Crookshanks, he likes to wind about your legs.”
Happy birthday @mcgregorswench! I’m hoping you had an excellent day. Here’s a tiny little ficlet with just a hint of schmoopy spookiness in there that I hope you enjoy. This is actually a part of a larger, greater fic idea that @typhoidmeri and I have been tossing around lately, and as the spooky season as well as the birthday season are finally upon us, I figured I’d set at least a little bit of it to paper. Hopefully, it makes you smile. :)
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“I’d say it’s a pretty successful bonfire.” Darcy wraps the flannel blanket more tightly around her shoulders. The blanket and the bonfire does a pretty good job at keeping the chilly, autumn night at bay, but the log she’s propped up against is seeping cold right into her skin. “Not too bad for a city kid.”
Across the fire, Steve gives her a look and tosses another dry branch onto the crackling flames. “I have been camping before, you know.”
“Mmm, I don’t know if sleeping rough during covert operations hunting Hydra assholes quite counts as camping for pleasure. This here?” Darcy waves a hand at their little campground in the middle of the woods beneath the starry sky, with its snappy bonfire and the small trailer Steve had managed to acquire from...somewhere. She wasn’t going to ask questions about it, but given that the trailer is beyond tricked out, she has her suspicions. “This is the perfect type of camping.”
This time Steve smiles at her, shuffling around to settle down next to her. Darcy holds out an arm so that Steve can crawl under the flannel blanket. It’s a ratty old thing that she’s had since college, but it’s warm and familiar and carries a perpetual smell of pine around in its fibers. Reminds her of home, really. “Well, I had to give my girl the birthday that she wanted.” He drops his arm around her shoulders and pulls her in close, cuddling her into his side.
“Oh, yes. Happy birthday to me.” She hums happily under her breath, stretching upwards so she can press her lips to his, indulging in the long and leisurely slide of skin against skin. Her hands land on Steve’s sides, feeling the warmth of him through his sweater, soothing her down to her bones.
His free hand strokes some of Darcy’s loose hair away from her face, and he pulls back slowly. He drops a lingering kiss on her forehead, and she curls into him even further. “Didn’t you say that a couple of others were coming tonight, too?” he murmurs.
Darcy nods, pulling away just enough so that she can get a glimpse of the moon in the sky, seeing it peek through the tree branches. It’s still a few days off from full, but it gives enough light for Darcy to find it easily.
Really, though, she’d be able to find the moon anywhere.
“I did...but I know them well enough to know that they also run on relative time rather than exact time.” She shrugs, and twines her arms around Steve’s waist. “I know how we can pass some time while we wait for them, though.”
Before they can make any more moves, a branch creaks and cracks loudly, very close to their campsite. Darcy can feel Steve tense up, but she pats his stomach to try and calm him. She knows that cadence, all too well.
At the edge of the campsite, strolling towards them with the utmost confidence and grace, is a great grey and white wolf, standing tall. The white patches of fur reflect the moonlight back with a gleam as it walks slowly towards the fire, eyes running over them with a knowing look in its pale blue eyes.
Darcy twists in Steve’s arms and smiles at the wolf. Because, really, this is exactly what she was hoping for for her birthday.
-There's only one hotel room left and it's a blizzard outside and There Is Only One Bed.
-Either at a Mall or an Airport during the busy holiday season, a villain is trying to steal/ruin the holidays and Steve and Darcy, who are both there for Reasons, team up to foil the dastardly plot.
-When Darcy wore her new, risqué Captain America xmas/holiday sweater to work that day, she didn't expect that he would actually...y'know...SEE it.
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So, it’s been a while since I wrote. Hi, friends!!! :) But I adore ShieldShock still and will always adore @mcgregorswench and the ShieldShock Holiday Fic Exchange. I tried to capture the feel of your prompts, @ava-rosier . I’ve done holiday in the airport before but can NEVAH get too much of THERE IS ONLY ONE BED. Hope you’re having a wonderful holiday, enjoying seeing 2020 finally end, and that you’ll enjoy your ShieldShock holiday fic gift!!! :)
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Snowbound Christmas
Darcy startled as the car door scraped open over deep snow and a gust of wind blew in to steal her breath. It was even colder than the previous times. Steve could move fast, but not faster than the blizzard winds. He shook his head as he slammed the door closed behind him, sealing them in the relative calm. The only sound at first was the rustle of her shivering. He turned the car on again and they both savored relief as the air around them warmed.
She shifted position in her seat. “Steve, my friend! No room in the Inn?” Darcy tried to sound upbeat rather than weary. “I’d so hoped the eleventh try would be the charm. I mean, those two were raved over in Google as ‘simple’ and ‘budget’. You wouldn’t think that would draw a crowd.” She continued to watch the snow fall, eyes going out of focus.
Steve shook his head and pushed his snow-damp hair back. “I tried all five places in the village. Cut across town on foot rather than wasting gas.” He frowned. “I’m too stubborn. Should ‘a stopped twenty miles back where there were more possibilities. I’m sorry, Darcy.” He kept his eyes on the road as he started slowly moving. The snow was falling hard, gusting winds whipping it around them with abandon. Even with four-wheel drive, good snow tires, and perfect reflexes- Steve didn’t dare go more than fifteen miles per hour. Driving was hazardous, more by the minute.
Darcy shrugged her shoulders. “The forecast was off. I thought we had more time before it got bad, too. I swear! I only closed my eyes for like twenty seconds. When I opened them again it looked like I’d missed seeing three inches fall. You must be freezing. The other motels are two miles away, aren’t they?” She shivered, both sympathetically and because the car was still warming up.
“I’ll be fine.” Steve sighed again and glanced at Darcy’s phone before staring ahead of them again. “Any other ideas?”
Darcy squinched up her features, “well…” She was glad Steve focused his attention on the road. She worried that her idea wouldn’t be well received. “We could ask the others for suggestions? Surely Tony owns something between here and the City.” Darcy held her breath. She’d seen Steve and Tony clash at the Avengers Upstate Base enough to know that he didn’t want to ask Tony’s help.
Steve reached in his jacket pocket and handed his phone to Darcy, groaning in resignation. “Had the same thought. See if he’s replied?” He steeled himself.
Darcy laughed merrily as she read his incoming texts.
“That bad?” Steve’s frown lines deepened.
Darcy’s lips twitched. “Nah, buddy-o. Tony’s busting your chops about being a damsel in distress. He reminds you that he’s been away from Pepper for a week and has injuries to rest up from. Says to cool your heels at a summer lake cabin of hers. Coordinates and key code provided. And to resist the urge to crash dramatically into the lake as it wouldn’t be very festive of you. Cabin can be drafty, but was cleaned recently. Which, yay! They were going to come up last week for a dating anniversary celebration before the weather changed and he took that mission.”
Steve nodded and blew out an impatient breath. He glanced at Darcy again, “does anyone other than Jane know you’re with me?” His tone sounded wary.
Again, Darcy shrugged and avoided his gaze. “I dunno. If the local mechanic didn’t have sick kids at home, I’d be driving myself through this like I planned. Probably would’ve crashed in a snow drift by now or be caught in the sadly-parked madness on the interstate you were smart enough to skip. Why? I’m sorry that coming for me put you behind schedule. You’re too kind, putting yourself out for little ole me. You probably have plans with close friends, or something.” She trailed off, uncertain if that was a fair assumption regarding Steve. As much time as they’d spent together since they met over a year before, he seemed to always be working.
Darcy frowned, sad for Steve. And for herself. She’d tried in vain to shake the crush she had on the loneliest Avenger. He seemed determined to stay lonely and fill his time almost entirely with work. Whenever he came to Jane’s lab, she struggled not to let her extreme thirst for him show. She ended up babbling most times, griping about stuff and talking nonsense. He came by the lab a lot, so she had many embarrassing memories to cringe about.
“Not really. And don’t apologize, Darcy. I wanted to help you. I’m glad you’re with me rather than stuck, or worse.” Steve chose to ignore part of her question for the moment. “I was just going by Tony and Pepper’s party at the Tower to keep some peace between us. Then I figured I might go to Brooklyn to see the crazy lights they put up there these days, and then maybe head down to D.C. to see Sam. Nothing firm. No big deal.” He turned into a skid and eased up on the gas. Anyone else would have registered alarm at the need to maneuver like that. The majority of drivers would have wrecked. Sleet mixed in with the precipitation.
Darcy nodded, silent. She clicked on the coordinates Tony had sent and turned up the volume on the phone directions. When there was a pause, she spoke up, “still sorry to keep you from your party, lights, and Sam. I’m relieved that you weren’t just planning to ignore the holiday at the Upstate Base again this year, though. No offense, but hearing you did that last year made me mad at you.” She let out an indignant huff and blinked back tears.
He raised his brows, but didn’t reply at first. Finally, not wanting to seem rude, Steve asked, “mad? Why?” He fought against both flickers of hope and melancholy.
Steve tried not to wish for what he believed he couldn’t have. He’d found that Darcy won friends easily, but rarely let anyone get close enough to know her the way he’d like to know her. She kept things light and funny, using her humor as a shield against intimacy. He admired her ability to deflect when she used it with others, lamented it when she used it with him.
The first day they met, Steve fell hard for the brash, strong-willed, funny, gorgeous dame. And then he met her boyfriend, Ian. Even after that relationship ended, Darcy made it crystal clear that she saw Steve only as a friend. Her emotional shield pushed him back like the strongest of force fields. She bristled if he held a door or pulled out a chair for her. She acted like it was weird if he did anything for her- like bringing her coffee when he was getting some for himself in Jane’s lab.
Also, there was Darcy’s apparent dislike of soldiers. She cursed agents and soldiers as ‘jack-booted thugs’ every time a piece Jane’s equipment misbehaved. He’d overheard Darcy rant to Jane about her sister’s hard life with a military guy Darcy disdained as ‘Soldier Boy’. Steve was a soldier. He'd never regretted it until it came between him and the only 21st century woman he’d met who captivated him.
Her tone as she spoke next brought Steve out of his reverie. “I know that those you love from your time were more like family to you… that you still mourn all you lost.” Darcy avoided looking at Steve, “But, I consider you a friend and I don’t like for anyone to treat my friends bad… especially, themselves. Thinking of you doing busy work and walking echoing halls alone. Imagining you eating frozen dinners and training alone while the rest of the world celebrated? Too sad. Awful. I wish you would’ve let me, I mean, someone, anyone, know that you didn’t have plans.” Darcy swallowed hard around the lump in her throat. She’d held that in for the better part of a year and was terrified that she’d overstepped enough to anger Steve. If her voice sounded brittle, she couldn’t help it. Her feelings for Steve ran deep. She’d taken one look at Steve Rogers and lost her heart irrevocably.
Steve shook his head and joked to offer one correction, “I hardly ever eat frozen dinners.” He cleared his throat. “What did you do for Christmas last year?” Steve’s tone was mild, unreadable. He’d spent a lot of the previous year’s holiday week reliving the pain of seeing Darcy being kissed by Ian under mistletoe. It was a harsh blow since he’d heard rumors that they’d broken up and dared hope for a chance with her. Thinking of that terrible moment still filled Steve with potent jealousy.
Darcy cut a glance Steve’s way. “I went to the usual lame lab holiday party, complete with joke gifts and too much mistletoe. Then, un-fun family time. As soon as I could escape my dumb sister Beth and ‘Soldier Boy’, I got back to Jane’s. I made Thor watch Christmas cartoons while I struggled to explain the pop nuances of them to him. We drank eggnog. I exchanged joke gifts with him and Jane and Erik. Then we all helped serve Christmas dinner at homeless shelter. And I ate too much and fell asleep on the couch at Jane’s place that night. I ‘peopled’.” She glared at Steve and repeated in an accusing tone, “’Peo-ple-d!’”
Darcy frowned as she also remembered Ian cornering her under mistletoe before Christmas. He tried to get back together with her until she threatened to tase him. It had cast a pall over Darcy’s entire holiday. That was one interaction with people she did NOT look back on fondly.
Steve chuckled weakly, “and you’re mad at me for not ‘people-ing?’”
“You never want anyone to pity you in any way, but then you do stupid stuff like that! I mean, I was drunk when Thor told me, but it made me CRY.” Darcy shook her head and looked away, frowning, angry. “Sorry. Said too much. Not my business. I know. Sorry.” She hunched her shoulders as though concerned he might offer a rebuke.
Steve's face fell into a sad grin. “No need to… It’s nice that you worry about me, Darcy. Thanks for that.” He resisted the urge to cover her hand with his. “I’m sorry I made you cry.” Genuine distress filled him, that she’d cried and that he had no right to offer comfort. Something in her reaction brought out his deepest protective instincts.
Careful to avoid distracting Steve from driving, Darcy poked his rock-hard bicep. “Pfft. Silly. You’re not alone, even if you try. You have friends. I’m your friend. You know that. Right?”
“Friends.” Steve nodded, grim. “Yeah. Thank you for being my friend, Darcy.” He sighed, long and low.
Darcy nodded, unable to speak around the lump in her throat.
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Soon, they arrived at the coordinates. A tiny cabin nestled in the deepening snow. It was dark, but for a dim light visible through its large windows.
Darcy moaned, “finally.”
“I could carry…” Steve’s voice trailed off as Darcy threw her door open and jumped out into the knee-deep snow. She almost fell, but righted herself. The winds swirled snow and sleet all around her.
“Shit! Cold!” Darcy trudged with purpose towards the cabin. “So cold! And, eww, wet. Oh!” She input the code Tony had sent for the front door lock and shoved inside. Darcy kicked off her snow-covered boots and dropped her coat inside the front door. She scurried to the bathroom. “Some of us don’t have super bladder capacity!” Her brief view of the cabin interior was minimal. Dark shapes stood out against the eerie snow light through the windows.
Steve slammed his car door and followed. He shook his head and yelled back, “nobody has that” as he picked up Darcy’s coat, shook snow off, and hung it on a hook. He toed off his boots and set them and Darcy’s boots near the fireplace. Then, he peeled off his snow pants and hung them on a hook near the door. They’d kept his jeans dry.
“Don’t get your tights in a twist. I’m hurrying!” Darcy called from the bathroom.
Brows raised; Steve surveyed the cabin. He flicked light switches and swore under his breath as low, golden light bathed the tight space. The room was dominated by a low bed and floor to ceiling windows. A Christmas tree decorated with lights stood by the bed. There were at least a dozen pillows and a sheer hanging canopy laced with warm string lights over the bed. There was no sofa, only two reading chairs and a small table in front of the fireplace. A kitchenette took space along one wall. It had a well-stocked wine rack.
Mostly, there was the ridiculously romantic-looking bed. Face prickling with heated anxiety, Steve found a thermostat and started the heater. Then, he began to build a fire in the brick fireplace. The cabin was cold and the windows were more suited to airiness than warmth. The back walls were brick, attractive but cold in winter weather.
“Uh, Steve?” Darcy sounded sheepish; voice muffled by the bathroom door. “Can you hand me a blanket or look for a robe or something? I’m sorry to trouble you. My pants are soaked up to the knees and I can’t put them back on. They’re freezing. Wet with snow.”
Steve closed his eyes, still for several seconds. He looked around for a closet and saw instead a wardrobe. He grabbed a black silk robe, frowning at the sheer and gauzy red alternative hanging beside it. The top shelves held baskets of swimsuits, shorts, and other summer clothes. He took the black robe off the hangar and walked to the bathroom. He knocked and held out the robe, eyes averted. Then, he went back to work on the fire.
“Thanks, I didn’t think. Just ran to the bathroom. I…” Darcy stopped as she got a good look at the cabin. “Oh, holy… uh, night.” She cut a careful glance Steve’s way.
Steve shook his head and chuckled. “Something like that. Don’t worry. I can sleep on the floor. I’ve done worse.” He arranged another log in the growing flames and warmed his hands.
“You can NOT! Don’t be stupid. I won’t attack you. Promise. We both need to sleep and there’s room for two if we remove a few hundred pillows.” Darcy’s tone sounded more certain and stubborn as she talked. She rolled her eyes at him. “Make a line of pillows down the middle of the bed as a dividing line if you want to keep me away. Or, I can do it.” She frowned at him, set her jeans near the fire to dry, and moved to the kitchenette. Darcy opened the refrigerator, freezer, and cabinets to see what they had to work with. “Sorry about my coat and boots. I was gonna get them, I swear.”
Steve frowned, disliking her urgent anxiety. “No problem.”
Darcy opened a bottle of water and drank it. “I didn’t dare drink much water while we were stuck in the car, but I still needed a bathroom for at least the past hour.” She offered him a bottle, which he accepted and downed before returning his attention to his work. Darcy moved food from the freezer to the refrigerator to thaw. She opened a couple of cans of soup and put them on to simmer, and sat in a reading chair. “I checked the weather forecast while I was in the bathroom. We’re not getting out of here on our own power before tomorrow night at the earliest.” She tightened the belt on the robe and leaned towards the fire, hands outstretched. “Nice. Getting a little warmth there. Thanks.”
Steve excused himself to the restroom. On his return, he sat in the other chair. He watched the fire’s progress, then turned his attention to the deepening snow visible through the windows all around them. “Quieter now. Slowing down, or a lull before more blizzard.”
“Lull, according to radar. Fresh snow absorbs sound. Something about air between the flakes dampening vibrations.” When Steve gave her an impressed look, Darcy grinned, “I saw it in a meme on the Internet. Must be true.” She winked at him.
Steve returned her grin. “Internet. So helpful.”
“Except when it’s REALLY not.” She made a face, both sad and angry. “Beth met ‘Soldier Boy’ online. And, of course his worst notions get amplified there. Bleurgh.”
Careful, Steve dared, “what branch of the Military is your brother-in-law with?”
Darcy choked on water. “Br... Whaa?” She shook her head, hard. “God, no! Don’t say that. It might come true if you say it. Eww! Grandma Esther'd roll right out of her grave to beat the ever-living sh… heck… pardon me, out of Beth if she marries that Nazi wannabe.” Darcy shuddered dramatically. “Crud. They’ve been dating more than a year. And, Christmas… You may be right. Ugh.” She spoke as she texted into her phone, “‘If you marry him, I’ll give you kitty litter as a wedding present, used kitty litter. Dumbass. BTW I hate him. He’s awful.’ Ugh. Delete. Delete. Delete.”
Steve digested all this and stayed quiet. He noted with interest that Darcy’s cheeks reddened as though with embarrassment. In his experience she didn’t embarrass easily. Her plush lower lip jutted out in a pout. “Beth’s dating a racist faux-militia-type lunatic. She’s decided she’s Sub to his Dom and overlooks his politics and crazy behavior. It’s nauseating.” Darcy frowned, sad, “I don’t see the attraction. Mom says the sex must be great, cuz she doesn’t understand the attraction, either.” Darcy twirled a piece of her hair nervously on one finger. “Mom thought she had the worst taste in men in the family, but Beth’s making her wonder.” She shook her head. “Sorry. Nothing to you. You don’t know them. Crazy family of a sorta friend.”
“I know you… some. I care more than you think.” Now Steve’s cheeks reddened. He hadn’t meant to say that aloud.
Darcy gestured as though to bump shoulders with him. “Nice.” She arranged the robe over her legs, both from cold and modesty.
Hesitant, Steve ventured, “you never mention your father.”
Darcy’s gaze turned his way. “Nope. Long gone.” Her expression hardened. “Thank goodness.”
After an awkward silence fell between them, Steve went to the stove and spooned soup into two bowls. He returned to his place by the fire. He handed Darcy her soup, noting her mild surprise at being served. They ate without speaking. When they were done, they both took their bowls and rinsed them in the sink.
Darcy walked over to the bed and started moving pillows. “Do you want a dividing line?” She didn’t try to meet his gaze.
“Not necessary. Let’s put the pillows by the windows. They’ll block some of the cold that’s coming in and making it hard for this place to warm up.” Steve pressed pillows along the bottom edge of one window. He glanced back as Darcy slid beneath the covers, still wearing the black robe. The warm light brought out red and light brown highlights in her long hair. She looked even prettier than usual in the golden glow. And he thought she was always beautiful.
Darcy shivered hard. “Sheets are freezing!”
Swallowing hard, Steve sat on the far side of the bed from her. “Want the decorative lights off?”
“N…n..not unless you do. They’re p..pretty. Make me think warmer thoughts.” Her shivers shook the bed.
Steve shifted so that he could lift the covers and lay underneath them. They were icy cold against his pants. He imagined the chill was worse against Darcy’s bare legs. He lay back and closed his eyes, feeling the motion of the bed from Darcy’s shaking. The winds began to wail again, harder than before. He opened his eyes and turned to look out at the raging blizzard. “Wanna lay back-to-back? I run warm.” As she shifted so that she faced away from him, he rolled to his side and moved back against her. He cursed himself as a masochist.
“Ohhh. Fuck, yes!” Darcy swore under her breath and whispered, “sorry. So sorry!”
“I know what you mean and you don’t have to avoid cursing around me. We’re not on a mission communicator in an official capacity. That ‘language’ thing they joke me about is nonsense. I don’t give a damn about how people want to talk in regular life.” Steve closed his eyes again, trying to keep his tone even as Darcy wriggled against his back. He heard her mutter thanks a few times. Making her feel good pleased him.
Five minutes later, Darcy rolled over and pressed her cold nose against his shoulder. She spent several minutes trying to figure out where to put her hands. She ended up crossing her arms over her chest and tucking her hands under her chin. Within minutes, she was asleep.
Listening to the sound of Darcy’s breathing as it evened out and deepened lulled Steve to sleep soon after. His face settled into a small smile.
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Steve supposed it was a slight change in the blizzard-muted light of day that woke him next. Languorous, sensual dreams dissipated through his hazy thoughts. Dream images of Darcy, kiss-swollen lips and bared creamy skin, heated his blood.
Then, awareness hit him hard. He and Darcy clenched in a lover’s embrace. Their legs entwined and her head was on his chest. Her sweet, feminine scent filled his senses. Her amazing breasts pressed against one side of his chest. One of her hands was against his arm and the other warmed the skin of his stomach, inside his shirt. It all felt so good and right that it stole his breath. His body’s natural response to his dreams, to her, and to waking was extreme. He was afraid to move lest any friction push him past sanity. A small, low moan sounded in her throat as she shifted against him. He tensed.
Her voice was raspy with sleep. “I know it’s awkward, but I’m way too comfy to regret it. You feel good, Steve.”
“Right back atcha’, Doll,” he whispered. Wishing himself back in his dreams, he kissed her forehead and squeezed her even closer. He wanted her so much he could hardly stand it.
Darcy made another small sound in her throat as she wriggled against him. The realization that he was aroused sparked her passions, but she didn’t dare to presume too much. Maybe it was only an impressive sign of morning. She followed his example and placed a chaste kiss below his jaw. She felt his heart pounding more quickly and closed her eyes again. She flexed her fingers against his ridiculously-cut abdomen and felt him jolt. She debated if any of his reactions had anything to do with her in particular. She wished they did.
Both of them were awake, but neither admitted it. Each of them savored the embrace and the feel of the other’s body. They each fantasized about the other. They fantasized about passionate first moves, expressing affection and desire. Want. They became lost in imagining more and more. Time passed. Their emotions swirled like the blizzard winds that trapped them together.
They lay cuddled and simmering with unspoken desires until Steve’s phone rang. It broke the spell. He moved away from Darcy and answered the phone.
She watched the play of muscles under the back of his shirt and struggled to stifle her lust. Darcy closed her eyes. It was futile. Her lust for Steve had been growing for over a year. In this circumstance, lust was inevitable.
While Steve talked with Sam, assuring him that he was fine though the storm prevented him reaching the City, Darcy left the bed and went to the bathroom. She snagged her dry jeans on her way there. She took a shower and did what she could with toothpaste she found in the medicine cabinet and her finger. When she came back out, she hung the robe in the wardrobe and put on her Christmas cardigan. She looked through the wardrobe and giggled at the sheer red robe. Then, Darcy took a step back. She buttoned and straightened her sweater by her reflection in the wardrobe mirror.
Steve paused in his conversation, a gob-smacked look on his face, “what…?!”
“Oh! Yeah. I know. Gaudy, isn’t it? Well, last year Tony gifted the ‘ugliest sweater at his party’ winner $10,000. I know what he can be like, so I thought I’d stand a better chance of catching his wallet’s attention if I went a little on the sexy side. And I sewed in lights.” Darcy twirled and turned on the LED lights that adorned the sweater. Her dark green Christmas cardigan had bauble Avenger emblem buttons. A Captain America Shield button strained to hold the sweater together over Darcy's breasts. Silver and gold trim around the hem resembled tinsel. Red and gold lighted and embroidered ornaments dotted the sweater at random. It was a bit gaudy rather than ugly, but sexy most of all since the fabric hugged Darcy’s ample curves. She wore it over a tight red top and skinny black jeans. The ensemble played up her natural assets.
Steve could only nod in reply. He tried to turn his full attention back to his conversation, but didn’t do well.
By the time Steve was off the phone and had made the bed, Darcy found waffles in the freezer and syrup in the pantry. She had coffee brewing and was downing another bottle of water when Steve began stoking the fire embers and adding wood. They shared a quiet breakfast. Steve tried not to look at Darcy’s figure and failed again and again. He tried not to fantasize as Darcy licked syrup from her lips. He failed.
As they finished breakfast, Darcy looked around the cabin. “Aw, man. No TV?”
“Actually, there’s one over the bed.” Steve swallowed the last of his coffee.
“Over?” Darcy gave him a disbelieving look and went over to look up inside the bed canopy. “You’re not kidding.”
He chuckled and shook his head, “at first I thought it was a mirror.”
Darcy lay on the bed, on her back. She looked around for a remote control, finally finding one in the nearby window sill. “Icy remote.” She pointed it up and sighed, “but it works!” Channel flipping and streaming services browsing occupied her for some time.
She hoped rather than believed that Steve was looking at her with lusty interest.
Steve was. The intimacy of their situation and Darcy’s sensual appearance were a potent combination. He could hardly speak. He excused himself to go get a quick shower. He came back out a few minutes later, dressed again but still toweling his hair dry.
Darcy didn’t meet Steve’s eye as she offered, “you’re welcome to join me. Just friends watching television, ya know. I’m watching a silly Christmas movie. ’Scrooged.’ Okay?”
Steve shrugged as he made his way back to the bed. He shuffled, awkward, as he drew nearer.
Darcy shifted towards one edge of the bed, not meeting his gaze. “Plenty of room. Don’t mind me.”
He smiled as he sat on the other edge of the bed and forced himself to speak up. “Sam said that they’re busy helping first responders deal with stranded motorists. Hundreds of them all across the state. A lot of people didn’t have our luck and find shelter. I had to agree with him that it’s more important that they help them than us. I’m sorry you won’t have the chance to win the sweater contest.” He eased onto his back beside her, folding a pillow behind his head.
“Of course, they need to help people who’re stuck!” Darcy shuddered. “It’s super cold out there and the storm got out of hand so fast. I can only imagine. We’re fine here.” She grinned and turned to him. “You really think I’d win?”
Steve was struck by how pretty her green eyes were. He blushed. Her look turned quizzical. He nodded and spoke a thick reply, “yeah. Definitely.” Steve forced his gaze up to the television mounted above them. “I assume that ‘Scrooged’ refers to the Dickens novella?”
“Yup.” Darcy shifted further to the edge and lifted the covers so that she could get under the blankets. Once under there, she groused, “darned lights and ornaments are poking me.” She frowned, and unbuttoned the sweater again and lay it aside. Buttons and lights made a clicking sound on the floor by the bed.
After debating for what felt like an endless time, Steve got under the covers and shifted closer to her. “Can’t let you freeze.”
Darcy rolled up on her side and looked him in the eye. “It would be rude to let me freeze. I’m glad you’ve seen the light.” She winked at him, trying to seem playful. She thought that he was looking at her lips, but dismissed it as wishful thinking.
Steve assured her, “I’ll do my best to keep you from freezing. Wouldn’t want to be rude.” He put one arm around her, hand spanning the middle of her back. “I’m a polite guy.”
“You’re the nicest soldier I’ve ever met. Have I ever mentioned that?” Darcy ducked her head as a blush filled her cheeks. The way his hand covered her whole back made her feel tiny. Did things to her. Made her want his hands on her in other places. The fire she tried to play with was backfiring spectacularly, leaving Darcy breathless with desire.
“No. But I’m glad to hear it.” Steve gave her a squeeze.
There was a loud noise onscreen. Darcy rolled onto her back so that she could see the television again. She hoped Steve wouldn’t notice that her breath was racing.
After a few minutes, Steve nudged her. “Tell me about other soldiers you’ve met? There are good and bad apples in any group, you know.” He felt Darcy tense.
Though she didn’t look at Steve, Darcy decided to answer. She told him about Puente Antiguo and the SHIELD agents and soldiers who took Jane’s research- and their computers and even Darcy’s personal iPod. SHIELD ran a strange, temporary military base near the town and Erik worried about their absolute power. She told him about the shifts in those soldiers’ attitudes after Thor returned to Asgard. First, they were obsequious, but gradually more restrictive. They coveted Jane’s research and tried to control them all. After a long pause, Darcy shared, “some of them reminded me of my dad. He was military, Marine. Not a nice guy, especially to our mom.”
Steve rubbed Darcy’s arm as she talked. He felt that it was a privilege that Darcy was telling him something so personal. He didn’t want to break the spell, rather hoped that she might open up to him more.
Darcy blinked back tears. “He found fault with everything she did. She couldn’t do enough fast enough to avoid setting off his temper. Then he… well, you know.” Darcy ducked her head.
Realization dawned on Steve. “So, he never served her a dish or coffee even if he was getting something? He never held doors for her or pulled out a chair? You never saw him treat her with respect?”
Steve stilled as Darcy sat up on one elbow and stared at him, eyes wide. “Respect? No. No respect.” She grabbed the remote again. “Let’s look for something else. I saw…” Darcy glanced at Steve. “’White Christmas’ is about to start on this channel. I remember liking the dancing and pretty outfits and thinking it’s sweet. The story starts in your time, though. Do you mind? Will that make you too sad?”
Steve shook his head. “I’ve heard good things about it. I’ll be okay.” He wanted to say that he was more than okay with Darcy next to him, but was too tongue tied.
As the classic channel announcer talked, Darcy shifted closer to Steve again. “I want you to be okay. The 21st century’s not all bad, ya know.”
Again, Steve kissed Darcy’s forehead. “Yeah. Thanks, Doll.” He stroked her hair as they began watching the movie. “This okay?”
Darcy nodded, wondering if he was only being nice because he felt sorry for her or if there was another reason. “Yes. Very okay. Feels nice.” As his fingers trailed down her back, she shivered with pleasure. She wondered if he had any idea what his touch did to her. She savored the feelings, the want and heat, for a long time. Other thoughts ran through the back of her mind while she tried to ignore them.
Most of the way through the movie, the 'pretend-engagement' conspirators confessed to Bing Crosby’s character. Steve commented, approving, “at least they fessed up and set him straight. Too many times in romantic comedies the people avoid saying what’s on their mind until it’s too late. It's silly.” He stilled as Darcy pushed back from him and stared at him again. “What? You okay?”
Darcy nodded. “I… yeah. Sorry.” She sat up on the edge of the bed, paused the movie, and grasped her phone. After a moment, she nodded. “I’m gonna do this. I’m gonna make this call before I chicken out. Wish me luck.” She grabbed the green sweater from the floor and slipped it on over her red top again.
“Luck.” Steve got up and walked around the bed so he could sit next to Darcy. She looked up at him with a grateful warmth that transfixed him. He nudged her shoulder to offer comfort as someone answered her call.
“Beth? Hi. It’s Darcy. Merry something or other.” Darcy’s knee bounced, betraying her restlessness. Steve could feel tension fill her frame. After a moment, she continued, “yeah. Fine. I found a place to stay. I’m with a friend. And, Beth?” She took a deep breath, “He treats me with respect. Caring and respect. Even if he were…” Darcy paused. She rushed the next words out all at once, “well, if he was my Dom? He wouldn’t embarrass me or push away you or Mom by making me say ‘Meow’ and only ‘Meow’ to you at his whim. He wouldn’t think that's funny. He wouldn’t call me a ‘dimwit’ or a ‘bimbo’. He… Beth? I’m sorry to criticize your choices. But you deserve better than that kind of stuff. I hate the way Chad treats you, the way he talks down to you and tries to change you. You don’t need changing. I don’t know if it’s just me that Chad can’t stand. But, if it’s not? If he treats you like that in front of other people? I mean, would he demean you in front of your kids like Dad did Mom? Would he hurt you? How much like Dad…? Scratch that. Sorry. He’s not Dad. I’m not trying to be an unfair bitch to Chad, whatever he says. I worry that…” Darcy gasped, “don’t cry! I’m sorry! No! You… what? He what? He didn’t… What?!?” She shook, both in her body and voice. There was a long silence on Darcy’s end as her sister talked and cried. Darcy only interrupted the flow of words to utter sounds of disgust and disbelief.
Steve went to the kitchenette and got more water. He opened a bottle of wine and made thawed meat into fried burgers and baked French fries in the oven. He took Darcy water and returned to work on their lunch. The smell of good food soon filled the tiny cabin. He stayed busy, but most of his attention was on Darcy and her conversation.
Finally, Darcy rasped, “Well, that’s… What?! You’re thanking me? No. What? I thought you’d tell me to go to Hell, not take my call as a divine sign that you should say no and leave him. Oh, thank Baby Jesus!” Darcy laughed through tears. “Yes! I know I’m a bitch and I’m causing you to throw yourself on Mom’s mercy at Christmas. Enjoy her cookies for me. If it makes you feel better, I don’t have baking ingredients. Oh, fine! Hm? My friend? Awesome like you wouldn’t believe. Uh, I don’t know. It’s… pffft. I need to talk straight to him, too. Wish me luck?” Darcy wiped tears from her eyes. “Yes! I love you, too. Now, go. Text me when you’re safe at Mom’s and tell her I’m safe and I’ll call later. Merry Christmas.” Darcy hung up from the call and stared at the phone, rocking in place until she received a text. Then, she collapsed backwards onto the bed and stared up, unseeing.
Steve stayed quiet, letting Darcy calm from her talk with her sister. When the food was ready, Steve returned to her side and offered her a hand up, leading her towards the fire.
Darcy stumbled to a chair. “Thanks. You’re the best.” She drank more water.
“So, did he propose?” Steve began eating again and gave Darcy time to answer.
Darcy ate a bite of hamburger with a few fries and shook her head, “nope. TOLD her she was gonna marry him. Told her!” She closed her eyes and shook her head. “Jackass! Good riddance.”
Wry, Steve shook his head. “Not very romantic. Not that I’m an expert in that department, but…”
Darcy only nodded as she devoured the rest of her food and sipped wine. “I had no idea how hungry I was.” She looked at Steve, thinking how lucky she was to be trapped with a good person who exuded calm and kindness. She especially appreciated that after the intensity of her conversation with her sister. Darcy sipped the wine as she focused on Steve. Being with him settled her, made her feel safe. And looking at him was always a delight. Steve Rogers was handsome, to be sure. He’d rolled up the sleeves on his green and blue flannel shirt. Unfair of him to subject her to sexy forearms on top of all the rest. Like every shirt she’d ever seen him wear, this one struggled to cover his muscles. She’d given up trying to think of adjectives that could convey how attractive Steve was. And nice. He didn’t call her out for staring at him like a weirdo, mooning after him. He didn’t even press her to speak up now, when she was sure he must be curious about the ‘straight talk’ she’d mentioned. He gave her the space she needed to regain her equilibrium.
Respect. Steve treated her with respect. She had a wonderful friend who treated her with respect. She ought to be forever grateful rather than daring to wish for more.
Steve finished his glass of wine and poured himself another.
Darcy held her glass out for him to top off, then sipped it again. “This is good stuff. I never spend more than $10 on a bottle. I’d bet the cork on this stuff costs that much,” she giggled, “or even the label.”
“I’ll give Tony money to cover it when we get back to the Tower.” Steve shrugged.
Darcy glanced outside. Snow and sleet fell still. “That’ll be a bit yet.”
Steve nodded, not sure what to say. He felt happy trapped with Darcy, to have a chance to talk with her and hold her close. Even if she only saw him as a friend who kept her from getting too cold. Silence fell between them again.
“Wanna finish the movie? Sorry I shut it off without asking.” Darcy needed more time to gather courage.
Steve nodded, “no problem. Yeah. I’d like to see the ending.”
They took their dishes to the sink and then returned to the bed. There, Darcy took off her Christmas sweater. She threw back the covers and snuggled next to Steve under the blankets. He put his arms around her while she used the remote to restart the movie. Finally, the lovers in the movie sorted out their misunderstanding, kissed, and made plans for their future. Fierce longing overwhelmed both Steve and Darcy. Unconsciously, he stroked her back.
There was no one and nothing to distract them or come between them. Nothing except for their own emotional shields. But it was a day for dropping those.
Cheers and strains of the song ‘White Christmas’ sounded behind the words ‘The End’. Darcy ducked her head so that she didn’t have to look Steve in the eye. “I wish…”
Steve interrupted, “I wish that you didn’t dislike soldiers so much, Darcy. I’m a soldier and I can’t change that, never could.”
Darcy pushed back from him, “what? Change? You? No! I don’t… Oh! No. I only dislike the bad ones. I don’t like jack-booted thugs who steal Jane’s research and my personal stuff. I don't like Nazi wanna-be’s or, well, mean soldiers. I like… I like you, Steve.” She swallowed hard and jutted her chin out. “I wish that your work didn’t take pretty much all your time and that you didn’t miss your good old days so much. I wish…” She blinked back unshed tears. “I really wish you wanted to be here- in this time- with me, Steve. I’m sorry. I know you only want to be friends. And I won’t say anything more to make you uncomfortable, friend.” She smiled a small, watery smile. “Friend. I’ve done that for you all this time. I can keep doing it. I want any relationship we can have, even just friends.”
Confusion filled Steve’s expression. “Is that why you say ‘friend’ to me so much? Because you think that’s all I want?”
“Uh huh.” Darcy nodded miserably.
He inched closer. “And you like me even though I’m a soldier? And you want to be more than friends with me? Darce?” He whispered, “do you… want?”
Darcy looked up at him, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry to make things so awkward when you’re stuck here with me. Yes. I want! I wish that you wanted to be more than fr…Mmph!”
Steve kissed her.
He pulled back and stared at her as he cupped her cheek with one hand. “Sorry. I should ‘a- May I kiss you? I’m crazy about you, Darcy. I’ve wanted you for months and months. Want you so much I can hardly stand it. Not just friends, please. More, Doll.” His eyes gleamed with fervor.
Darcy nodded, stunned.
Steve chuckled, kissed her forehead and kissed her cheek again, with reverence. “Darcy, Doll… can I get a ‘yes’ to me kissing you?” He shifted so that his lips were a hair’s breadth away from her lips. Charged air shook the space yet between the two of them. He waited.
“Yes!” Darcy closed the distance between them and met his kiss with her own. They both trembled into it, a feather-light exploration. They each absorbed the idea that they’d misread what the other wanted. She murmured again, “oh, yes, Steve.”
He grinned as he kissed her again, deepening the kiss. He nibbled at her plush lower lip as he’d fantasized and dreamed so many times. Reality was a million times better. Darcy shuddered against him and groaned with pleasure. Steve stilled and closed his eyes. “Oh, Doll.” Darcy teased at his lower lip and he groaned, “gonna be hard as hell to be a gentleman with you doin’ that.”
Darcy chuckled, “who says you have to be a gentleman?” She shifted her leg to brush against his hardness. “Mmm. You were saying?” She nibbled at his lip again and played with the top button of his shirt.
Steve jolted and cursed under his breath. He kissed her quiet, again deepening the kiss and learning how they fit together. Steve savored Darcy's lips and tongue and throat while also exploring what she liked best. Sensitive spots. Sweetness. Eagerness. It was pure bliss. Darcy was becoming short of breath. Steve lay back and looked up at the next movie that had started while his Christmas dreams began to come true.
Darcy glanced at the Santa onscreen and panted. “I no longer have anything to ask Santa for.” She undid Steve’s top shirt button and kissed at the base of Steve’s throat. “I can think of a few things I’d like to ask you for, though.”
Steve grinned down at her, “same, Doll.”
“Oh?” Darcy undid another button on his shirt and kissed the exposed skin. She looked up at him and held his gaze as she undid the next few buttons.
Steve pulled her up for a long, slow kiss that set Darcy’s every nerve ending afire. She undid another few buttons on his shirt. When he shrugged it off, Darcy stilled, staring at his naked chest. “Holy…”
“Night?” he suggested. She snorted a giggle. He shifted her so that she sat astride him. He asked with his eyes if he could lift her shirt.
She nodded. “I may freeze, but yes. Please do.” She lifted her arms.
He shook his head. “Not gonna freeze. Haven’t you heard? I’m the man with a plan.” His voice tightened as he pulled her shirt up over her head. He shifted another pillow behind him and sat up some, pulling her towards him. He kissed her breasts as he reached around and undid her lacy red bra. “Damn, Doll. You’re a fantasy come true.” As he began to tease at her breasts with his lips and tongue, Darcy shivered and moved on him. He groaned, “here.” He pulled his shirt out from beneath him and helped her put it on, open at the front but warming her arms and back. "Looks much better on you than Tony's robe."
“Ahhh.” Darcy tried to talk, but Steve returned to tormenting her with his insistent lips. “G...good plan. Ohhh.” She squirmed in his lap, grinding against his erection with abandon. He let out a lusty groan that made her proud.
Steve pulled her chest against him for warmth as he moved up to kiss her lips and face again. “You’re shaking.” He looked concerned, but couldn’t resist kissing Darcy again. And again. He plucked and teased at her with his dexterous fingers. He loved the frantic sounds she made in the back of her throat.
“Not cold.” Darcy pulled back, then kissed him again and again. “Just want. Want you. Want so much.”
Steve shifted, rolling Darcy down onto her back. “Good thing, Doll.” He kissed her. Long, slow, passionate kisses that she met with a fervor that lit him up more every second. He palmed her breast and continued his exquisite torment. Darcy arched up against him, writhing. He lowered his lips to her breasts again. First one, then the other. Kissing and nibbling and sucking. She cried out and bucked as he swirled his tongue, hard. Darcy wasn’t sure if she would be embarrassed to come just from his attention to her breasts or impressed. Possibly both. Likely both.
He resumed teasing her nipples with his fingers. He placed open-mouthed kisses all along her belly. Steve took his time. “Beautiful.”
Darcy whimpered and began to shove her pants down. Steve stilled her hands. “I got you.” He undid the snap on her black jeans and kissed the exposed skin. Then he lowered her zipper and kissed her more. Darcy held the covers up with one hand and ran the other covetously along Steve’s shoulder. Steve pulled her pants and panties off and then moved back up her body to kiss her cheek and lips again.
“Pants!” Darcy begged him between kisses.
Steve huffed a laugh and unbuttoned his jeans. Darcy pressed against him, skin to skin. She wore only his shirt and warm red socks. Finally, he pushed down his pants so that he wore nothing.
Darcy’s eyes went even wider. “Oh, my. You go commando?”
He shrugged. “Habit. The uniform requires special briefs.”
She reached for him eagerly and wrapped her fingers around his shaft.
“Fuck,” Steve hissed.
Darcy's grin had a wicked glint. “Something like that.” She kissed down his chest and abdomen until she finally took him in her mouth. Then, Darcy delighted in taking Steve completely apart.
When he’d caught his breath again, Steve gave Darcy a smile unlike anything she’d ever seen from him before. It was both delighted and full of mischief that caused her pulse to race. He again pulled her astride his legs so he could taste and tease at her breasts. He left lingering kisses along the column of her throat and over her wrists. He disappeared under the covers and kissed her thighs and the backs of her knees. Darcy squirmed and unseeingly stared up at the movie. Steve didn’t tire, didn’t cramp- only focused on Darcy's pleasure with single-minded, super-strong drive. He had her writhing with pleasure long before he let her come. Another Christmas movie was playing onscreen and halfway over before Steve came up for air.
Finally, when Darcy begged, Steve slowly slid home. She realized that he’d been prepping her so long because of his size. She felt stretched wide as he twisted to hit her G-spot just right. She came quickly and felt as though she continued coming again and again as Steve pounded into her. He twisted her around so that he could plunge in from behind while rolling her swollen clit between his calloused fingers. After he came, he laid his fingers flat, soothing. He cradled her body tight back against his. Aftershocks left her spasming with pleasure. Steve kissed Darcy’s head again and again, murmuring, “sweet Darcy. Crazy about you.” She dozed in his arms, warm and loved and completely satisfied.
Dinner that night was steak and vegetables from the freezer, paired with an exquisite red wine. As they lay in bed afterwards, cuddling and teasing each other, Darcy felt Steve’s arms tighten around her. He buttoned a few buttons on his shirt to cover her and murmured, “company.” Soon, Darcy heard the sound of Iron Man landing outside the front door of the cabin.
Tony threw the door open and sauntered in, “I’m here to rescue you.” He stared, looked around and saw the open wine bottle and two pairs of pants on the floor by the bed, and shook his head. “Or, not. I guess Pep can stop crying about you being lonely on Christmas again this year, Cap. And I can stop wondering why you’re not answering texts. Nice shirt, Lewis.” Tony was blinking hard, slack-jawed with surprise.
Darcy laughed, “you should see the sweater I was gonna wear to your party. It’s around here someplace.”
“Lights up, sparkles, and hugs her curves to perfection. I’m sure she would ‘a won your contest,” Steve grinned, enjoying Tony’s shocked expression.
Tony smiled, “I bet. Well, Mazel Tov! Thanks for popping Cap’s cherry, Lewis. ‘bout time.” He pretended to wipe away a tear of pride.
Darcy snorted, “no way was that his first time. Orgasm hall of fame. All my Christmas dreams have come true.”
Steve ducked his head against her hair. “Good to hear, Doll. Right back atcha’.”
Tony shook his head. “Good reviews all around then. Well, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays kids. I’d guess you’re all set here ‘til it’s safe to drive again?”
Steve looked down at Darcy and she looked up at him. They both nodded emphatically and turned to Tony, “we’re good.” Tony laughed.
“Merry Christmas, Tony,” Steve beamed. “We’ll see you in a day or two.” He repressed a shiver as Darcy began teasing him under the covers again.
Darcy called out, “Merry Christmas! Thanks for dropping in.”
Tony shook his head and waved back at them as he went out the door of the cabin.
Steve pinned Darcy on her back and began ravishing her again, mock joking, “naughty girl!” He pushed into her again and set a slow pace as he rained kisses over her breasts.
Darcy looked up at him and batted her eyelashes. “Your naughty girl.”
Steve kissed her hard. “And my nice girl. Merry Christmas, Darcy.”
Gasping with pleasure, Darcy answered him, “Merry Christmas, Steve.”
ShieldShock - “Am I your lockscreen?” “You weren’t supposed to see that.”
Anonymous said: Steve/Darcy - “Am I your lockscreen?” “You weren’t supposed to see that.”
“There something wrong with your phone?” Steve wondered, watching Bucky fiddle around with his phone, tapping at the screen, brow furrowed.
“Huh?” Bucky glanced at him. “No. Just fixing something.”
Steve snorted. “Wasn’t aware there was something wrong with my phone. Care to share?”
“You remember last week, you dug a sketch pad out for the first time in months…”
Steve did remember. He’d spent a good hour capturing Darcy’s smile, gap-toothed and full of laughter. It was the first time in a long time that his fingers had felt that familiar twitch, wanting to get something down before his muse fled. If he paged through the book to the last time he’d drawn anything, that just so happened to be of Darcy too. The way the sun hit her at just the right angle while she sat on the couch, one leg tucked under her, a book in her lap and a mug of tea on the table in front of her.
Darcy had been an unexpectedly important friend these last few years. She and Jane had arrived after Thanos and the snap. They’d stayed at HQ, working on a way to reverse things. At first, Steve had kept his distance, unwilling to get attached to anyone. But over time, he found himself gravitating toward her, toward the happiness she shared freely when he felt so overwhelmed with grief and loss. She’d made him laugh when he thought he never would again, made him feel like he wasn’t a complete and total failure. She held him on the days when it was all just too much and never wavered in her faith that they could fix it, they would fix it. He wasn’t sure he would’ve made it without her there.
And after, when everything had been put right again, he still gravitated toward her. He just had no idea how to tell her that.
“There.” Bucky tossed the phone toward him and, startled, Steve caught it. “You’re welcome.”
Steve stared down at the blank screen of his phone and thumbed the power button. It lit up with the time and… Darcy, dark hair spilling around round cheeks as she smiled, mid-laugh. He stared at it until the screen dimmed and then he looked up, searching the common room for his best friend.
Bucky had wandered over to the kitchen, pouring himself a mug of coffee. No cream or sugar, straight black.
Shaking his head, Steve said, “Point made. How do I turn it back?”
“Why would you wanna do a dumb thing like that?” Bucky raised an eyebrow. “We both know you prefer looking at her than anything else. Could do a lot more than stare if you’d pull your head outta your–”
“All right, I get it.” Steve tapped his phone against his hand and shuffled his feet. “I thought about it. A lot, actually. When you and Sam and everyone was… gone.”
“And?” Bucky shook his head. “Too busy blaming yourself for something you couldn’t stop? Had to martyr yourself off instead of finding a little happiness?”
Steve pressed his lips flat. “I wasn’t…”
“Had a few years over there to do some thinkin’, punk. Came to a few conclusions.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. And one of them is that we’ve spent too much time on ice already. Smartest thing either of us could do is find something good, find someone who’ll put up with a life like ours, and make something of it. I don’t know who that is for me. But I have a pretty good feeling you already found who you need to.”
Steve let out a heavy sigh. “Think I might’ve missed my chance, Buck.”
“Says who?” Bucky pushed away from the kitchen island and walked toward him. He gripped Steve’s shoulder and gave it a shake. “Only thing holding you back is you. Go get your girl, Stevie.” With that, he left.
Steve lingered, lost in thought. This wasn’t the first time someone had told him to get his shit together and ask Darcy out. Natasha had been giving him the impatient eyebrow of judgement for years now. But it wasn’t the right time. And after, when everything settled, it felt like too much time had passed for him to act. They were friends, close friends, and he told himself he needed that, couldn’t risk losing it. But...
Lighting up the screen once more, he stared down at her, in vivid detail, smiling back at him.
“Am I your lockscreen?”
Startled, Steve whipped around to stare, wide-eyed, at Darcy. “You weren’t supposed to see that.”
Darcy raised an eyebrow. “That seems a little unfair considering I’m top billing on said lockscreen.”
“I… Bucky…” He motioned toward the door. “He…”
“Uh-huh. Any particular reason why?”
Steve blinked at her. “Well… He thinks… That is, he, uh, had an idea that maybe I should… And he’s not wrong, exactly, I just…” He reached up, scrubbing a hand over his hair. “The thing is…”
Darcy smiled, slow and knowing.
Steve sighed. “I’m screwing this up. This wasn’t how I was expecting to tell you. Or ask you? I’m not sure I…”
Darcy held her hand out.
Steve glanced from it to the phone before passing it to her.
She stared down at the screen. “Not a bad likeness… You kind of make the gap look cute.”
“It is cute.”
She smiled, her cheeks flushing a pretty pink.
Steve planed his feet and tilted his chin up, gathering his courage. “Buck thinks I should’ve done something sooner. That I’m wasting an opportunity.”
Humming, she looked up at him. “What do you think?”
“I think…” He swallowed tightly. “I think I should’ve said something a long time ago. That I wish I had. That maybe if I hadn’t been so angry and… focused, I might’ve realized that I hadn’t lost everything.”
“I don’t know. That angry focus did some pretty amazing things.” She handed his phone back. “Anyway, time is a funny thing. There’s always more of it.”
“Yeah, I guess there is.” He stared at her searchingly. “How would like to spend some of it with me? A significant amount probably.”
“How significant?”
“Well, why don’t we start with a date and see where it takes us.”
2018 ShieldShock Christmas Fic Exchange story for @aenariasbookshelf
I’d Like You for Christmas
ShieldShock Holiday Fanfiction from McGregorsWench at Ao3 / @mcgregorswench
Summary: Darcy’s overbearing family will be at Christmas festivities. After blurting out that she was dating a guy named Steve from work, she realizes that they don’t believe her. Can she get the real Steve, the object of all her day and night fantasies, to pretend to be her boyfriend who might just propose to her in front of them all? Or will she have to pretend to be sick, and stay home by herself?
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies), Thor (Movies)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Darcy Lewis/Steve Rogers
Characters: Darcy Lewis, Steve Rogers, Jane Foster, Bucky Barnes, Sarah Rogers, Tony Stark, Colleen O'Brien
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Alternate Universe - Time Travel, Darcy in the 1940s, BAMF Sarah Rogers, Pre-Serum Steve Rogers, Tony Stark Is Not Helping, Soulmarks
Summary:
Darcy told Jane not to do science. Did she listen? No, of course not, so now here she is, stuck in 1941 with no way to get home. Thank you, Jane.
for @mcgregorswench
321 words
Rated T
Doppelganger AU
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“Ouch!” Steve brought his hand up to his face and rubbed it slightly against his cheek, watching as the angry woman stomped off without her coffee that she’d just ordered.
Darcy’s eyes widened. “Are you sure you didn’t deserve that?”
“No! I’d be the first to admit if I did!” he said. “I promise, Darcy... I don’t know any of these women!”
“They certainly seem to know you,” she countered, raising her eyebrows as she went to pull out her phone.
“I was with you last night, remember?”
“Yes,” she said. “I never said I thought you actually one-night-stood these women, I just think it’s too many for it to be a coincidence. You know?”
“Darcy...”
“I believe you, Steve,” she reached out to squeeze his hand just as another woman yelped and moved quickly to their table.
“Don’t believe him,” she hissed in Darcy’s direction. “He’s got a woman for every day of the week!”
Darcy’s eyebrows shot up. “Yeah, and her name is me.”
“Johnny Storm is a piece of garbage,” the other woman hissed.
Laughing out loud, Darcy nodded. “Yeah, okay. I gotta agree with you there. Johnny’s a dumpster fire if I ever saw one.”
The woman shot Steve a nasty look and it suddenly dawned on Darcy.
“You went on a date with Johnny Storm,” she exclaimed.
“Well, yeah... and then he’s apparently got a different woman for---“
“This isn’t Johnny. This is Steve Rogers... you know... Captain America?”
The woman’s eyebrows raised high. “Oh my... oh my god, I’m so sorry! You look just like Johnny!”
Steve sighed. “That’s not the first time someone’s said that. Although, it’s the first time so many people have mistaken me for him...”
“It’s the haircut,” Darcy muttered under her breath.
Steve rolled his eyes in a very over-exaggerated way. “I’ll let it grow out again,” he grumbled. “Anything to keep me from getting smacked multiple times a day.”
The date had gone really well. Steve gave her his jacket at the parade and she was even okay with leaving a little early to beat the traffic. The Christmas parade was the highlight of the holiday season in their minuscule town, and that meant every single citizen came out to watch it.
“You want some coffee or something?” he asked as they reached his truck.
“Won’t we have to leave town for that?” Darcy asked. She was right. Everything was closed. For the parade.
“Oh right,” he said, laughing a little as they reached his truck.
Back in high school, his vehicle had been his entire life. But his priorities had shifted sometime in the last few years. And that was likely why Darcy had agreed to go on this date in the first place. He’d been surprised as hell when she’d said yes. He thought for sure he’d blown his chance with her by being a little asshole in school, but with two years of university under her belt, she suddenly didn’t think he was so bad.
Steve wasn’t sure what that said about all the guys at her college, but he wasn’t about to look a gift horse in the mouth.
Not that Darcy was a horse.
Darcy was...
Fuck, Darcy was beautiful.
He opened the door for her and she climbed into the cab. He closed it after her and went around to the driver’s seat.
“You know what I’d like to do?” she asked as he started the truck.
“No, what?”
“Go park somewhere,” she said with a smirk.
“And... talk?” he offered.
She smirked. “If you want.”
The drive wasn’t anything to write home about. They were both nervous. Or at least he was.
Talking wasn’t exactly on the menu. Neither of them thought that as she climbed into his lap the second he parked.
Her lips were insistent, and her teeth sunk into his bottom lip as Steve let his hands encircle her waist, holding her in place.
He groaned when her tongue slid into his mouth, playing with his a little.
Steve would have been struck dumb by that in and of itself, but then her hips started rocking against him. He was very aware of how stiff he’d gone the second she’s straddled him. And she didn’t seem bothered by it.
Or at least, not in a bad way.
He could feel how warm she was. Could feel it down there where they were touching.
She released his lips and placed one hand on the back of his, tugging it until it was up under her sweater. “Touch me, Steve.”
He groaned and obliged her, his hand cupping her breast in her lacy bra as his belly swooped at the thought that he was actually touching someone that he’d spent most of his adolescence daydreaming about.
And the awesome thing was that it was even better than he’d imagined it. She was better.
Darcy was amazing.
He tugged the cup of her bra down and rolled her nipple under his thumb, noting how she sucked air through her teeth.