I hear a small knock on my bedroom door, stirring me awake. it opens and it's my lil sister, holding her bunny, sniffling. she's been crying.
"hey sis, nightmare again?" i say. she sniffles again and nods, words too much. "cmere"
she pads over to my bed as i lift up the covers for her to crawl in. she's trembling as i pull her into my chest.
"breathe, sis; 'sokay, im here" she takes a few deep breaths, relaxing a little more each time. "that's it, sweet girl"
we stay like that for a while, her taking big breaths, me kissing her head, running my fingers through her hair.
i notice she's chewing on her thumb, missing her paci. "umm, sis?"
"mm?"
"you don't have your paci and i don't want you to hurt your thumb, so, if you're okay with it, do you want to nurse? i think it would be nice, only if you want it"
she's quiet for a moment, before nodding. "mm-hmm"
I lift up my pajama shirt, her eyes grow a little wider, bushing lightly. we've seen each-other plenty of times while changing, so it's nothing new, but the context makes it seem so. "here, sis, it's ok"
she takes my breast into her mouth, sucking gently, it feels nice.
she looks so sweet, the action relaxing her fully, her trembling stopped
i find myself also wanting something in my mouth, so i grab my own paci
i love her, my precious little sister
i kiss her head again
this moment is perfect, her gentle breath on my chest, the warm pinkish lighting from my salt lamp, my fairy mobile spinning gently above us, gentle piano playing softly; comfy, cozy, warm,
Safe.
