I’m holding a knife up to my ADHD medication and anti depressant asking where the executive functioning is
seen from China

seen from Mexico
seen from United States
seen from Australia

seen from Australia

seen from Mexico
seen from United Kingdom
seen from Australia
seen from United States
seen from Switzerland

seen from Australia
seen from United States
seen from Yemen
seen from United States
seen from Canada
seen from T1

seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from China

seen from Hong Kong SAR China
I’m holding a knife up to my ADHD medication and anti depressant asking where the executive functioning is
The majority of the Chicago Med fandom is a joke and very anti woman(the writers are full of crap and very sexist). I was going through the Chicago med subreddit and a account made a post stating that they did not like Ethan’s character because he’s very judgemental and etc. I looked through the comments and guess what?? You had people saying “he’s hot so I’ll give him a pass”, the same sentiment was stated when another user also complained about Will. What’s funny is that you’ll have multiple posts stating that they hate Natalie and April, at the same time calling them b*tch and also stating that you feel like physically harming them. As you’ve mentioned before the writers have groomed/prepared the audience to be very antagonist and use very antagonistic language towards the female characters in Chicago Med. It’s very concerning but not surprising that in this day and age you’ve male writers that are still writing female characters like this🤢
The One Chicago Universe is very conservative. It's why there are virtually no LGBTQ+ characters, almost no story lines for the POC and shallow stories for the women. They try and pretend that they are left leaning but often their stories feel very hollow and they don't really say anything, if a character supposedly learns something about a life they didn't know about then there's an assumption that they've grown or changed especially if the character is shown to have cried at the end of the episode because they were so moved by their case or patient only to behave or say something episodes later as though nothing in them was affected at all.
All is almost always forgiven as long as the character is male. They can get on some fans nerves but overall most fandom rally around white male leads first then surrogate women second who are usually white. Everyone else is paid dust.
It would be annoying if it were just fandoms but the show in itself reaffirms the viewpoint of these fans. Usually the most conservative ones. It's why there was no real reasons given for why the women do what they do. Sarah's PTSD NEVER made sense and they worked overtime to desexualize her and make her look irrational and emotional. Natalie's grief was given very little room and she is actually the most interesting when she's just working and keeping her head down. She's a good doctor the first season and then...she never works a case alone again and becomes the worst with zero explanation. The same can be said of April, watch how she delivers her lines in the beginning of the show versus the end. There is zero reason given for why she developed feelings for Marcel or Ethan tbh and more and more I believe the whole thing with Marcel was written so she could be a punching bag for the fandom. Although there were aspects of Ava's story that made sense even up to the shocking way she exited the show it NEVER made sense for her to reject Connor with ZERO explanation after she finally hooked up with him. Once again, she was a character used as a punching bag, we were supposed to hate her. In the end Ava's story was just an exercise in misogyny. We have no idea why Ava was so obsessed with Connor, we are given no history, family, or friends to even collect her body. If a coworker murdered a prominent board member and was sleeping with someone they all claimed to be friends with and then KILLED herself all at work your office would be talking about it for at least a week. It would probably hit the paper considering how famous Connor's family is Chicago.
But nothing was given to it. You really know the show is garbage because for 5 seasons we watched almost all the female characters do wild shit, say wild shit, and behave in a way the writers knew would make the fans throw vitriol their way. When the men screwed up, they were allowed to apologize and state why they behaved the way they did, or come to their senses WITH WORDS! The women were never given that grace. The writers CHOSE to NEVER let them explain any of their actions and then they would air the episode and watch as the women were dragged on Twitter and all of it was done in the guise of getting "strong" opinions. But it was just hate-fishing every week and I think both Torrey and Yaya got really fed up with it. Rachel was the first. I have theories about why she left and hasn't worked since.
Med falls into the traps of a lot of isms. The racism and sexism is so baked in it behaves like a terrible microstudy into why things are the way they are. The show goes against natural chemistry, the flow feels off and confusing because racism and sexism are irrational and they go against nature. It's the reason why so much of the show feels "off." Cause it is. I think that the writers pull together pretty solid scripts and then the producers and show runners get their hands on it and make edits which is why the conclusions feel so hollow, empty, and at times make little to no sense.
They looked like they were trying something new this season but they've fallen back into old habits fairly quickly.
But sadly yeah you're right. It's 2022 and the gatekeepers to our television screens continue to be garbage.
holy crap my hand is shaking so violently right now it's hard to write wtf
Well, I am off the Latuda, thank God. My doctor kind of flipped out that I didn't call sooner, especially since it was causing me to have neurological problems, but gets that I am willing to put up with some side effects if my mental state is improving. What tipped me over the edge was neurological issues with my face, it being nearly equal odds that if I ate something I would throw up or not, and horrible panic attacks, including two at work (and I normally love my job, and know that there is really no rational threat there, and I know how to handle the threats I might possibly experience there--heck, I worked at one location where we had a minor tornado), and this horrible jitteriness that was more irritating than any of it. I didn't take it today, and the withdrawals were, so far, nowhere near as bad as the medication was. I had this restless energy that almost drove my mother crazy, and I threw up once tonight, and I'm still a little jittery, but it is still far better than when I was taking the medicine. And they refilled the medicine that is actually helping me. Unfortunately, the list of meds I can't take only got longer. I can't take or are ineffective: Latuda, Lamictal, Seroquel, Zyprexa, Vibryyd, citalopram, trazadone, amitryptaline, Geodon, and probably more that I can't recall right now. And that's just the psychiatric meds. I am also allergic to Augmentin (I have a fairly rare psychiatric reaction--psychotic episodes--if I take it. Which, considering that both of my parents have psychiatric reactions, is probably not a surprise), Clindamyicin, and, oddly enough, the skin test for TB (I am allergic to whatever preservative they use. Anaphylaxis is NOT fun.). I am a mess, but hopefully I am doing better. I have a doctor's appointment Wednesday, and maybe they will try me on something else, who knows. If you've gotten through this rambling mess, thank you for listening to this lonely girl and her adventures in mental illness. (Thank God tumblr didn't exist when I was diagnosed at 19.)
Writing in a script on the medication record every month except the handwriting is messy cursive and the med name slowly changes one letter at a time like a game of written telephone until it’s an entirely different chemical name that will now kill the patient instantly
Damn...October is not my month at all 😔
The worst part about moving my meds to the morning is waiting for them to kick in.
Morning Meds: Now that you've gotten into the routine of taking your meds when you wake up and your med tray stays on the bedside table we're gonna start making you sick. And we're not gonna tell you which one of us it is.
Me: Well I can pop out the individual days and take you with food it'll be fine.
ADHD Gremlin: *enters the chat* I hear we're changing a routine
Me: No. Just no.
ADHD Gremlin: So if we just forget to take the meds with us it'll be fine right?
Me:...
Me: I hate you...