#meds t

[deadgrantaires]

as im still. figureing out ritalin and how it should slot into my life im undecided if it should be soemthign i take early in the morning as soon as i first wake up or more once ive gone back to bed a million times as normal... like i COULDVE take it at 7:30 a this morning and had more hours to do stuff but i was worried about my sleep debt and was quite tired so i kept going back to bed despite knwing that if i took the ritalin it would wake me up enough to get up? not sure. what the right course of action is tbh lol. just taking notes and collecting data i suppose!

[ambiguousimage]

how i feel when my adderall kicks in

[alounuitte]

me: huh wow I’m kind of crazy and don’t feel great today. what’s up with that

Lucy, the neuroscientist: you took your meds

me: ya I’m supposed to do that

Lucy: mmhm. you haven’t for two weeks

[giraffic0rns]

Almost done nailing down these shapes. I'm working upside down but flipped it for a pic

[deadgrantaires]

i can feel myself running out of ritalin juice i need my roommate to cut my hair before it stops im afraid it might crash which logically?? probabaly wont?? but its my first day I DONT actually know fully how itll react in my body. jsut wanna get soem shit done before i am back in The Fatigue Zone U_U👍

[deadgrantaires]

this is the most alert ive been in weeks is ritalin magic?? was it this easy to cure my chronic fatigue all along?? i feel like i could do anything

[deadgrantaires]

when i was picking up my ritalin earlier and asking the pharmacist about it he said that i might have more anger/irritability and i was laughing and said ‘oh like prednisone?’ mostly as kind of a joke for me and roommate bc i havent been really ““feeling the effects”“ of the prednisone ive been on for months and i think its because?? its not actually like irritability thats happening. like i dont think that ““irritability”“ is a real side effect i think its how a side effect may be showing up in a lot of ppl but i think its reductive to say that this medication CAUSES irritability bc i straight up thought i wasnt having any side effect of my prednisone bc nothign was “showing up” they way eveyr single doctor i spoke to had told me it would im just. im less inclined to believe that irritability IS a side effect for anything really. like i think there is some sort of chemical balance being changed but (and maybe im wrong) i dont think taking a medication is gonna pump my brain full of ““angry chemical.”“ this is all just talking from my experiences with many MANY prescription drugs that ive tried over the years and just. my endless annoyance at doctors/psychiatrists/pharmacists telling me the quickest answer as opposed to the truest/most helpful answer. but also im not a scientist/psychiatrist/etc so MAYBE i am wrong. im willing to take the L on that if i am beacuse im tired and annoyed enough to make a tumblr post but not enough to do some serious research so forgive me that at least lol. allow me the grace to make observations about medications and effects ive experienced on the privacy of my own blog etc

[deadgrantaires]

anyway [physically pushing everything to the side] JUST THREW the biriyani in the oven 🥰🎉 thatll be ready in an hour, then i can head out to pick up my ✨ritalin✨ lol and with any luck thatll make tomorrow easier! or ill have an extremely bad reaction and be a nervous wreck all day tomorrow its ANYONES GUESS! ill report my findings o7