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[nicaffeinated]

I’ll be starting my internship soon, and I am terrified.

I’m not exactly book smart or even skill smart. I’m quite a mixture of both if I may say so myself, but despite countless reassurance and advice from friends, family and even my instructors, I can’t seem to shake this fear.

I’m afraid of change. There I said it. 

I don’t know why exactly. I’m scared of going through doors to get to something unknown to me. I guess I’m just a sucker to sticking to my routines even if I always complain of them being boring. 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited that I’ll get to be immersed into the field that I’ve been learning about these past three and a half years, but the fear just takes the spotlight now that we’ll start going to duty in a week’s time. This ambivalence is driving me crazy because I know that I should be happy about it. Not a lot of my classmates passed and I’m one of the select few who got into the internship program. 

I guess we’ll just see how it goes? 

[nicaffeinated]

A MID YEAR ACKNOWLEDGMENT

Yes, I know, it has been a while and it is now nearly the end of August. Not exactly what people see as “mid-year” as it is just days away from what we call in the Philippines as “-ber months”, but you get my point, right?

Anyway, 2018 has proved to be quite a journey. I am now done with my internship, I passed all of my subjects and I am officially a graduate of Medical Laboratory Science! Although I still won’t be taking the upcoming September Licensure exams as I feel I am still not ready. I don’t think anyone ever really is, to be honest. 

Nowadays, I am faced with quite a few months before review actually starts. I know I should already start revising, but it’s just not in my system yet. I really am one those procrastinators who will not move if the pressure is not suffocating enough.Maybe it’s because I feel that I deserve this break. You see, for the past thirteen months, all I did was study, drink some coffee, go to duty, sleep for a few hours if possible and the cycle repeats itself. It’s not healthy, but unbelievably I got through. 

It has indeed been a wild ride, and although I cried, I suffered and I felt like giving up for the most part, I still enjoyed every bit of the past months and I know I would not have it any other way. 

[andrea-gaile]

The Most Wanted “Kawani” 

~ The Jose R. Reyes Memorial Medical Center, Medical Technology Interns, First Rotation (Batch 2015) Album

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