THE ART FROM THE TAG GAME IS SO PRETTY WHY HAVEN’T YOU SHOWN IT BEFORE >:[
Awwww TYTYTY!!! That's Rosabelle de Fleurmont! She's my oldest, most developed and favourite twst oc! She was made when I was like 13 so her backstory is a bit cringy but I'll keep it anyway because I think it has a sort of charm? Idk bro 😔
Here's some more Rosa content! (Unrelated but I counted a couple days ago and I have 47 twst ocs at the moment)
17 people live in her house, including her mother Dahlia de Fleurmont who is here (old art btw so don't flame me)
Ok the reason why I don't show my art is a little venty? Idk but it's under the cut
Ok so the big question: why haven't I shown it before? (For those that don't know the image mootie is the non rendered version of the first image I showed
Ok so the reason is a little pathetic but in summary I've grown to hate showing things I'm emotionally attached to.
Throughout my life I've been bullied and criticised for my traits or attributes. Whether it was things I couldn't change like my race, gender identity, sexuality, beliefs, adhd or my teeth (I got retainers now so less people comment on that now but i still get a few). Or it was things I had more control over like the things I enjoyed or my maximalist style.
I was a very emotional kid growing up, comments from others did and still do effect me deeply. So to survive day to day without getting too overwhelmed by the constant noise of negativity (when i mean constant i mean EVERY DAY 24/7 honestly teenage boys are the worst) I made a vow to hide those things the best I can.
I stopped telling people my pronouns, I stoped correcting them when they dead-named me, I stopped venting, sharing the things I like, I never wore decora, I wouldn't draw attention to my non-white features. I started masking my Adhd more, I hid my face in hallways, I stopped doing whatever I was doing when I felt prying eyes, I stopped singing then I stopped laughing and then I stopped talking all together.
Anyway the point is, even years later when there's significantly less comments, even showing my interests to randos online can feel insanely daunting.
I'm trying to put myself out there but everytime I do that one small step can feel like a giant leap, one I don't feel prepared to take
I will be posting my art more though. Does doing so make me a little nervous? Yeah but I also remember how excited I used to get to show my art to people! And sometimes I still do! I really wanna feel that excitement again and I feel like the only way I can achieve that is if I start sharing again!
I've also started healing in other ways like showing my locs on full display, continuing theatre, being loud and actually talking to people, correcting people when they dead-name me, etc. And all of the really bad racism was years ago so overall, life is looking better!
Happy Medusssa = more motivation to post and make things I enjoy so expect more!
(This will be one of, if not my only vent post BTW srry for the downer bro)
