you don't sting. every morning you are my favorite sunrise and you know this and you are angry sometimes because in what world is my own ending something i hold so dearly, what fairness is that. [this is not a fairness.] some mornings i leave the moon hanging in the sky as a love note on a scrap of paper, the kind where the graphite wears off so you can't read what it says anymore, craters that once held braille. it's not about the words on the note, love, it's not about what it says. i just like pinning reminders of myself to your sky.
i wouldn't give up on you. you see me when i slip off every morning, weary, and i always wait for you to edge across the horizon before i fall back again. you know how it goes, how it always is. i will live for the mornings when my stars postmark your skies.
i haven't reached your point of exhaustion; i hold fondness for this world, the hollow nights, the empty and wanting small hours, the streets half-full of early, sleepy sun. i am so tired but i am still in love. it's the far-fetched love, slipping apart a bit, but still there, still graphite on my fingertips where i have written you letters on the pavement, in the destruction of what you shine on first. [you told me i was getting messy, too lenient with it all, and i told you this graphite was smudged constellations. you reminded me the sun was a star.]
of course, it's your choice, all of this is your choice. there's only one dusk after dawn leaves, and after that, i would be very forever, always leaking over nothing that would ever be lit-up again. so i would follow you, and i would follow you anyway, i love you more than, i love you most. we don't have to stay here.
but can we stay for a while, anyway? i'm so sorry, i know you're so tired. but please, i haven't given up on this world. i love it in spite. i love it in kindness. i love the alleys and the crooked streets and the orchards and the forests and the honeysuckle and the dark places that nobody knows, not even you, places light doesn't touch. i love the bottom of the oceans. i love where there are always fires burning. i love where nobody has seen the night, i love where you are always alive.
you don't sting. they don't know it yet, but i promise they hold an affection. you don't have to reciprocate, i know you're so tired. i will follow you anywhere. i love you more than, i love you most.