congrats on 700 my love you so so so deserve it! i’m gonna request artrick x girl so confusing (ft.lorde). any thoughts you may have on the subject?
i love you so so so so so so so so so much. like, so much. i love mel psa i love mel. okay
now, i've thought about this even prior to receiving this request. let's go chunk by chunk.
Yeah, I don't know if you like me Sometimes I think you might hate me Sometimes I think I might hate you Maybe you just wanna be me
this is from patrick's pov. especially post-fallout, but definitely leading up to it as well. art and patrick's friendship was on the rocks due to art's jealousy of patrick's tennis skills and because of tashi. fairly self explanatory.
People say we're alike They say we've got the same hair We talk about making music But I don't know if it's honest Can't tell if you wanna see me Falling over and failing And you can't tell what you're feeling I think I know how you feel
they've both lived the life of media pressure that comes from being a pro athlete. i imagine there was a period once art got into the pro circuit post-stanford where patrick was constantly brought up in interviews and things like that. art hated it. patrick would watch them, and it was so hard to tell whether the frown on art's face was because he wanted patrick to be there and he missed him, or because every time patrick was mentioned it put a bad taste in his mouth. but either way, patrick understands. he doesn't exactly know how to feel about art right now, either.
Well, honestly, I was speechless When I woke up to your voice note You told me how you'd been feelin' Let's work it out on the remix
is it crazy of me to say that i have this hc that patrick listens to voicemails from art when he can't sleep but one night there's a new one and it's because art drunk called patrick sobbing about issues with tashi and tennis and life and everything and then patrick ends up crying listening to it because he knows art probably won't remember it but he's also mad at himself for missing the call in the first place ummmmm
You'd always say: "Let's go out" But then I'd cancel last minute I was so lost in my head And scared to be in the pictures
thinking about how after patrick won the juniors open he probably just wanted to go out and celebrate with art and art said yes but then cancelled last second because he was 'sick' just because he couldn't handle the fact that once again, patrick beat him and the press would be taking his pictures etc. so patrick (after art violently tells him not to stay back with him) ends up going out with tashi. seed planted. uh oh.
'Cause for the last couple years I've been at war in my body I tried to starve myself thinner And then I gained all the weight back I was trapped in the hatred And your life seemed so awesome I never thought for a second My voice was in your head
this could literally be either of them but i'm leaning patrick with 'starve myself thinner' being both literal and also a metaphor for him trying to shake off the tennis slump post fallout. from his point of view, art has the career, the girl, the money, the life, everything. little does he know all art wants is him. childhood. simplicity. he just wants to be able to wake up and not feel the weight of the world on his shoulders anymore.
And it's just self-defense Until you're buildin' a weapon She believed my projection And now I totally get it Forgot that inside that icon There's still a young girl from Essex
'self-defense' is the buildup... art being a snake... patrick thinking it's cute... until the 'weapon' is built and art is actually picking tashi over patrick. fuck that. but still, patrick knows art. so once the anger dissipates, once he realizes how miserable art is, he remembers. inside of art donaldson, one of the best, most famous tennis players in the world, there's his best friend: 16 year old art who picked at his toes and wrinkled his nose every time he laughed and who would blink twice when he was confused and who would give the best hugs and say 'my grandma taught me how'. that art.
People say we're alike They say we've got the same hair It's you and me on the coin The industry loves to spend And when we put this to bed The internet will go crazy I'm glad I know how you feel 'Cause I ride for you, Charli
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