YOUR WEIGHT IS PERFECT YOU DONT NEED TO CHANGE A THING YOU ARE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!!!!
That’s very sweet of you to say. =w= But well, I’ve been overweight for quite literally 15-16 years, and I am well aware of it. It’s been maybe 2 years since I weighed around 115-120 kilos or so, and I’m still somewhere just under 100 when I should be somewhere between 70-80 kilos.
I don’t have any issues with how my body looks, precisely - I’ve the same build as my dad, which is kind of stocky, and I’ll never be able to get as thin as my mom due to how wide I am over both ribcage and hips. Clothes are not really an issue either, because I generally keep using clothes until I am either sick of them (at which point I put them in a bag and donate them) or until they break (at which point I either fix what’s broken or torn, or accept defeat and throw them away).
The problem is that I have a few physical issues because of my weight. It’s started to affect my knees and ankles, and the sooner I get a bit lighter the better. I’m also fairly flat-footed as a result of both my weight and the wrong type of shoes, but being lighter is definitely going to make it easier to fix that.
That I suffer from seasonal depression doesn’t help me either, as it makes me freak out more easily about random pains in my legs and how big of a gut I have. During the good 5 or so months of the year that I have, I generally don’t give a shit about that gut and I can shrug it off when my knees hurt if I’ve crouched down and then get up. But about October-April, I really do need some sort of help to combat that thinking, and exercise helps me a lot even if I have to struggle to motivate myself to actually do some exercise.
Since I met my fiancé, we’ve actually motivated each other to exercise and be healthy. Which is an incredible help, and I know I would never in my life have found the motivation to do this on my own. I owe her so much.We went for long walks together on a regular basis, and then we started going swimming as often as we could - which is an excellent way of starting if you don’t really have the muscle strength for more arduous exercise. And then we started going to the gym.
See, my problems were these. I had (and still have, working on this) a massive sugar-addiction and had difficulties stopping myself from buying sweets. I didn’t move enough - I much preferred to stay at home and sit by the computer, which I still do although I at least move nowadays. Food-wise, I didn’t eat often enough and would instead take massive portions when I did eat, although I actually didn’t eat overly unhealthy food that often. But all this combined? Leads to overweight. And considering that I started getting very overweight around when I was somewhere between 11 and 13, I’m genuinely impressed that I never weighed more than 120 kilos. Because yes, I did keep that unhealthy pattern up until I was well into my twenties. I am 27 now, and I am healthier and stronger than I’ve been since before I was 13 years old.
So don’t worry! This doesn’t come from social pressure or thinking I’m too big - just from wanting to be stronger and less in danger of ruining my knees and ankles. I wouldn’t say I’m perfect the way I am, and I am certainly not striving for perfection either.
It’s simply that it’s a huge confidence-boost to see that I am making progress and that I would theoretically be able to take someone in a fight.
