#melissa fic

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Do You Feel Bad?

Death affected people differently. Some people went through the 5 stages of grief. Some people went completely numb and ignored everything and everyone. Some people tried to find the joy in the death. Say things like "well they in a better place."

Then there was Lainey, Melissa, and Cameron. Lainey and Melissa were emotional beings always crying. Cameron was somewhat emotional, he had to really care about you for him to shed any kind of tears. When Mama first got diagnosed with breast cancer, every night he would cry himself to sleep.

When Benny got stabbed and ended up in the hospital despite how mean he is to Benny, he cried. When Lainey got hurt, he cried. When Candace died neither sibling shed any tears. They heard Mama and Benny crying at night and they check on them. Other than that they did not feel any emotional.

They were relieved she was dead. That was the only emotion they felt when she died. They felt relieved and that was a sad thing especially since she was their sister. Was it heartless of them? Was it cold of them? To feel bad for Mama and Benny but not feel bad that the cause of their pain is dead? Probably was.

It was bothering Melissa if she was being honest. No matter how much she hated Candace, she felt bad that Benny and Mama was in so much pain. Some nights Benny would toss and turn and some nights Benny wouldn't sleep. He would sleep during the day most of the time same as Mama.

Feeling herself about to break down Melissa headed down stairs to where Cameron and Lainey were talking. They noticed her behavior and knew she was going feel bad.

"Is it natural, to feel bad then not feel bad?"

Melissa asked as she sat on the stool.

"Depends on the situation."

Cameron answred honestly.

"Candace dying. I feel bad that Mama and Benny is affected by it but I don't feel bad that she died."

Melissa spoke softly.

"It's okay to feel like that. But Candace was given one chance by all of us except Benny. She should have took us seriously."

Lainey spoke with attitude in her voice.

"I love Mama and Benny but they let too much shit slide. We all knew once Pop got involved it was game over. Did she feel bad when she got Benny hurt?"

Both Lainey and Melissa said no.

"So that same consideration she gave us, we going to give it to her. I don't feel bad at all. You shouldn't either because she was willing to leave Brooklyn without a father."

The three siblings sat in a comfortable silence only sound to be heard was the clock ticking.

"Now that you say it, you right. I want Mama and Benny to feel better, but her being dead is what's best for this family."

Melissa replied as she got up to go back upstairs with a sleeping Benny and Brooklyn. Cameron and Lainey knew Melissa be the one to start to feel bad and that was okay.

"Go check on Mama. I'm go buy her some flowers."

Cameron spoke as he got up from the table as well. Nodding her head Lainey headed upstairs to check on their sleeping Mother. She just hoped Benny and Mama didn't grieve too long for the bitch.

AN: Angst. Sucks. Sorry. Melissa the one with the heart lol

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AN: Mama Hanna isn't dead

It has been 3 months since the death of his mother. Everyday was a struggle for him. Somedays he wanted to wake up. Somedays he just wanted to stay sleep. He had to get up and take care of Melissa and their son.

Mrs. Cryer had told him he could keep the she had given Mama Hanna. She also wrote him a check for $1,000,000 and with that money he had put half down on the tow yard he had lost.

Melissa had given birth to their son who they named Brooklyn MitchYoung. He was the spitting image of Benny and that pissed Melissa off. Only thing he had of Melissa's was her dimple other than that he was the spitting image of Benny.

Things were still tense between them, but he was keeping his word and not fucking up. He kept away from Candace even though she kept calling him and wanted to meet Brooklyn.

He had just gotten home from work and was tired but he couldn't wait to see his little man. Father hood changed him as well. Usually after work he go somewhere with Mitch, but now he just wanted to lay shirtless with Brooklyn on his chest and watch TV. He walked inside the house and heard laughter coming from the living room. It was his mother's laugh.

He knew her laugh she had that deep belly laugh. He knew he wasn't dreaming. He walked further in the house and peeked inside the living room. What he saw almost caused him to faint. His mother sitting on the couch next to Melissa holding Brooklyn. Brooklyn had a smile on his chubby cheeks as he looked at his grandmother who was singing to him.

"Mommy?"

Hanna looked up to see her son standing their his big brown eyes staring at her.

"Hello Benjamin."

"I'm not dreaming?"

"Nope. I'm alive. I faked my death."

Benny wiped his face as he looked at his Mother holding his son. The image still didnt seem real to him. He kept blinking afraid he was going to jump up out his sleep and this was a trick.

"Why? Why would you do that?"

"Because you needed to know what it is like without me. I'm not going to be here always Benjamin. You see how you lost me?"

"Yes ma'am."

"And you felt lost didn't you?"

"Yes ma'am."

"This is your second chance Benjamin because the next time I go I cant come back. So do right by me now."

Benny walked over to the couch and sat down. He grabbed Mama Hanna by her face and gave her a big kiss on the cheek. He could touch his Mother again. He could give her kisses again. His spirit felt so much lighter. Melissa looked at the scene in front of her and smiled.

"I guess since Mama is alive. You want me and Brooklyn out the house?"

Melissa spoke up. Benny took his attention away from his mother to look at Melissa. His mother was alive so why would he want Melissa and Brooklyn there? He thought about it he knows how it feels to grow up without a father and he didnt want that for Brooklyn.

"I still want you guys here. As a man which I am learning it is important for me to keep my word. So you guys stay here. Plus I can't wait to see him start doing small stuff like crawling and him grow into his looks.

Melissa and Mama Hanna let out chuckles.

"Benny this baby look just like you. Melissa must have hated yo ass."

"I did. I truly did. Couldn't stand him."

"They say the person you hate the most while pregnant is who the baby ends up looking like."

"I wish I was told that before. I'm glad Brooklyn is related to you guys. I rather him be in this family than in Veronica's family."

"We all thankful for that. What have you guys been eating?"

"Takeout."

Benny spoke up as he put his attention towards Brooklyn who was looking at him curious brown eyes.

"Yall want me to cook for y'all?"

"Please? Yes!"

Melissa and Benny spoke at the same time.

Mama Hanna let out a chuckle as she put Brooklyn in Benjamin's arms and got up. Benjamin held Brooklyn in his arms mesmerized by the little bundle.

"Benny call Mitchell and I'm call Derrick and Katheryn and this can be a family dinner."

"Sounds good Mama. Gives me enough time to take a nap and shower."

Melissa spoke up as she got up and placed a kiss on Mama Hanna's face and headed upstairs.

"Yea sounds good Mommy. Good to have you back."

Benny spoke up.

"It's good to be back. I love you Benjamin."

"Love you to Mommy."

Mama Hanna spirits were lifted as she left to go get food to cook. Benny laid across the couch and laid Brooklyn on his chest as he started to watch television.

An: Sorry it sucks

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An: Melissa and Benny talk

Melissa was now 7 months pregnant and glowing. She wasnt sad no more. She had a job. She had mother figures in Mama Hanna and Mama Katheryn. Veronica was dead. God really did love her despite what she used to believe.

Melissa was in the kitchen heating her some curry chicken and rice up. She had asked Mama Hanna to make it for her and the sweet older woman did. She placed the plate in the microwave and closed the door and put it on two minutes. She went to the refrigerator and took out the pitcher that had the peach lemonade in it.

She poured herself a glass and placed the pitcher back in the refrigerator. This is the happiest Melissa has ever been. Even though Benny was a complete dumbass him bringing her to his mothers house was the best decision ever. Mama Hanna didnt judge her. She didnt treat her like a burden.

She treated her like a daughter. She took her to the doctor. She even had it as to where Melissa could work for Mama Kathryn as well. She would be internally grateful to Mama Hanna. She heard the microwave beeps and opened the door and took her plate out.

She placed some rice and chicken on her fork and placed it in her mouth and it was hot enough for her. She grabbed her plate and juice and went to the table and said grace before eating. Benny walked in his mothers house and sighed as he closed and locked the door.

He went to Mitch's house to see if they could be friends again and Mitch told him no. That weighed on Benny, because Mitch was a good friend to him. He mad his way towards the kitchen, only thing he wanted to do was drink a beer and eat.

Melissa heard footsteps and looked up to see Benny. She rolled her eyes as she got up from her seat to go upstairs. Benny seen Melissa about to head upstairs and he needed to stop her.

"No need to leave Melissa. I was just getting something to eat."

"I rather not be in your company. I already know how you feel about me."

"Hey, look. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have treated you the way I did."

"Its whatever Benny. I'm used to people treating me wrong. First Jeffrey, Veronica, my Mom, and you. Only person I truly have is your mother."

Benny sighed heavily as he continued to look at Melissa. Every word stung. His mother didnt raise him like that.

"We have a baby coming into the world. So I mean we have to come to a common ground."

"You dont even come to the doctors appointments. I rather have your mother help me raise this baby. I refuse to have your mindset infused into my child."

Benny felt like he had been stabbed in the heart. He thought he would have made a good dad. Maybe not.

"Look you always trying to avoid me like I did something to you so dont try act like you care now."

Benny watched as Melissa made her way upstairs leaving him by himself. Today was a horrible day for him first Mitch and now Melissa. He really needed to start treating people better. An hour later Melissa came back downstairs to wash her dishes and Benny was sitting down nursing a beer.

Benny gave a small smile and Melissa just rolled her eyes as she made her way to the sink. She turned on the hot water and got the dish rag out and started washing her plate. Benny stood up and walked up behind her placing his hands on her stomach.

Melissa rolled her eyes as she tried to move from his grasp but he wouldn't let her. Melissa continued her task ignoring the big man currently standing behind her.

"I'm sorry Melissa I really am."

Benny felt movements against his hand and felt his heart best a little it faster. This was the first time he felt the baby kick and it was a surreal feeling.

"Benny. Move."

Benny didnt let go he just laid his head on her shoulder while the baby continued to kick.

"Please give me another chance. I can be a better man. I can be a good dad. I can find a job and everything. Just don't push me away."

Melissa rolled her eyes as she put her washed dishes away. Were all men stupid? She has come to the conclusion yes they were. She sighed as Benny started to rub circles on her belly.

"I really dont want you around the baby. You're too fickle minded especially when your sister comes in the picture."

"I know but I want to do better. Everybody has been laying into my ass and I want to show you guys that I can be a good dad."

"You first need to be a good son. Your mother dont deserve have the shit you give her."

Benny felt his heart sank as Melissa finally removed herself from his grasp and went upstairs. The brown eyed man felt tears well up in his eyes and before he could stop them they came falling down on his cheeks.

Melissa came back down with a black and white sonogram and handed it to Benny. Benny traced the sonogram with his big hand as more tears came on his cheek. Benny looked up at Melissa and seen her stone expression.

"That's your son. I dont really want you around him but whatever. Now you can leave me the hell alone."

With that Melissa went upstairs leaving Benny with the sonogram picture. Benny had a lot to prove to a lot of people. The first two people being his mother and Melissa. The third one being Mitch.

An: Angst. Benny with sense. Sucks. Sorry

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An: Melissa leaves....

Melissa had been thinking about this for a while. Just leaving and being at peace. It didnt help that her baby daddy was dumber than 2 bricks. Only thing she wanted was a peaceful pregnancy, but she couldn't get that not with Benny hanging around Mitch.

She rubbed her stomach and sighed she needed to do this. Luckily she had some money in the bank so she could stay at a hotel. She was sitting in the kitchen waiting on her parents to come downstairs so she could talk to them. She was eating a fruit salad and had a glass off Peach Mango Juice.

She was going to talk to her parents first about her decision and then to Cameron and Lainey. She couldn't be around it. All the drama. She hated it and Benny was going back to being a dumbass.

His decision making and who he hung with was going to cause her and their child to get hurt. She sighed as she picked up a piece of watermelon and popped it in her mouth. She heard footsteps and looked to see her Mama and Pops coming in the house with take out. She adored their relationship.

The way he looked at her. The way he was willing to protect her with everything in him. The way he adored her. He would go out his way to move hell for her just so she can be happy.

Melissa wanted that with Benny but he was dumb as hell and never listened. Hanna and Caleb walked in the kitchen with bags in their hands and smiling and laughing.

"Hey Mama. Hey Pops."

Melissa greeted her parents.

Caleb put the bags down on the counter and went to give Melissa a kiss on the cheek. He also a stole a piece of fruit from her bowl which caused her to scowl at him.

"Hey Princess. How are you and my grandbaby."

"We good. I actually need to talk to you and Mama about something."

Mama Hanna stopped taking the food out the bag to give her daughter her attention. Caleb stood back with his arms folded and waited for Melissa to start talking.

"I am going to find another place and move out. I need to get away from the drama and Benny he's not helping much. I need for me and the baby to be safe."

Caleb and Hanna looked at each other than at their daughter again. Mama Hanna's heart breaking.

"Where you going to go?"

Mama Hanna asked as she took a deep breath.

"I don't know yet. I just don't want me or my child in harm's way because Benny can't think worth shit."

Mama Hanna would usually say watch your mouth but she let it slide.

"How you feel about this?"

Caleb asked Mama Hanna.

"I don't want her to go and miss important things involving my grandbaby, but I respect her decision. I'm talk to Katheryn and see if she has any available places."

"I don't want you to do that Mama."

"Well it's already settled. I'm call her after dinner. When you plan on leaving?"

"Trying to be out of here in 2 weeks."

"Okay. Go get washed up for dinner and tell Lainey and Cam to come downstairs."

"Yes ma'am."

Melissa got up and took her juice and fruit salad and headed upstairs leaving her parents alone. Caleb walked over to Hanna and placed his hands on her hips.

"Hey, no sadness. We knew this was going to happen because of that dumbass child of ours."

"I know I just ugh I wish he would think and start listening."

"He has to realize that his decision making has consequences. This is consequence number 1 he no longer has his girlfriend or child at hands reach. Consequence number 2 he can no longer live here. Because I refuse for you to be in harm's way. You come first. Your happiness comes first. Your peace of mind comes first."

"I know that I just. I am already to blame for how Candace turned out and he blames me for that I don't want nothing to happen to him and that is blamed on me."

"Listen how Candace turned out. It happened. Benny is not a child. He is a grown ass man. He can't continue to try to blame you for his decision making and how it slaps him in the face."

"I know."

"I make sure to take Melissa food and clothes shopping the day she moves in. I also make sure she is protection around her."

"Thank you for everything."

"No need to thank me. I told you when we first met you will always be my priority and that is not changing."

Caleb placed a kiss on Mama Hanna's forehead and took his hands off her hips and wrapped his arms around her body. He rocked them back and forth as she started to cry.

An: Angst? Fluff? Sucks. Sorry

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After Melissa left, Benny sat on his Mother's bed thinking. He was really a fuck up as a man. It wasn’t his Mother's fault. It was his fault. His fault. He was a shitty ass son and he was an even worse man. His mothers death weighing on him. Then when he jumped up out his sleep and saw a pregnant Melissa. His mind went back to his Mother and how she wouldn't be here to see her grandson. As Benny sat there he made a decision to do something for his mother he couldn't do in life. That's make her proud.

He was going to become a better man. He was going to be a better father to his son than Tony was to him. He was going to do better by Melissa. He made up his mind he was going to be there for Melissa whether she liked it or not. He got up from the bed and went to go get in the shower. While in the shower he cried. The one person who believed in him. The one person who never failed him. The one person who gave him the strength to believe in himself. She was gone. She was in the morgue. His mind went to Melissa.

How he treated her. How he allowed Veronica to treat her. How he treated her even when his Mother bought her into the home. He remembered the conversation he and Melissa had in the kitchen when she told him she didn’t want nothing from him. She just wanted to be treated like a person. She didn’t want to be treated the way Jeffrey treated her like she had a disease. Benny didn’t listen to her though and continued to bad mouth her. A sob left his mouth as his mother's words echoed through his head. He needed to do right. He had to do right.

After his shower he decided to throw his bloody clothes in the garbage. He couldn't look at those clothes the same knowing they had his Mother's blood on it. He walked into his room and changed into a white tee shirt and ripped washed blue jeans. He put on the sterling silver cross his mother had gotten him for his 18th birthday. Something he hasn't worn in years. He put on his sneakers and grabbed his phone and car keys and left.

The ride to the hospital was spent with him praying Melissa gave him another chance. When he got there luckily Melissa hadn't gotten called yet and he sat next to her. Melissa looked at Benny and rolled her eyes as she started to count to 50. Before Benny could speak the nurse came and called Melissa's name. Benny tried to help Melissa up but she just glared at him.

Benny held his hands up and watched as she got up and wobbled her way over to the nurse. Benny followed behind her. The nurse took her weight, pressure, and temperature. Once done the nurse left Melissa and Benny in the room to go get the doctor. The silence between them two was thick. Melissa didn't want him there and Benny was just trying to do better.

"Where’s Ms. Hanna?”

“She died.”

“Sorry to hear that. I find someplace else to live.”

“No, you don’t have to I want you and my baby with me.”

“No, you don’t. You forget I heard every conversation with your Mother and how I needed to leave. How I wasn’t welcomed there?”

Benny rubbed his beard as his words slapped him in the face. He was about to open his mouth to speak when the doctor walked in the room.

“Hey Melissa. Where’s Ms. Hanna at?”

“She couldn’t make it. This is her son Benjamin.”

The doctor held her hand out for Benjamin to shake and Benjamin shook her hand.

“A friend of yours Melissa?”

“I’m the father of the baby.”

Benny spoke up looking between the doctor and Melissa.

“Wow. Nice to finally meet you. I guess better late than never. Okay Melissa how is the little one treating you?”

“Between hungry, pissed off, and too many other emotions.”

The doctor laughed as she got some gloves and put them on her hands. Benny watched the doctor lift Melissa’s shirt and he seen little feet moving. Benny got up and placed his big hands on Melissa’s stomach and he almost fainted. A small chuckle escaped his lips as he moved his hands around Melissa’s stomach.

“He always does this?”

Benny asked his eyes trained on Melissa’s stomach.

“Only when your ass comes around.”

Melissa hissed as she removed Benny’s hands from her stomach. Benny was hurt but sat back in his chair. The doctor felt the tension and didn’t say anything as she got the gel to put on Melissa’s stomach. Benny watched as the doctor moved the wand around Melissa’s stomach and looked from their to the machine. Then he seen his baby on the machine. His eyes got watery. This was the first time he had seen his baby.

“Wow. This is a first for us.”

The doctor spoke up. Benny and Melissa looked at each other then at the doctor.

“It’s nothing bad. Your baby is smiling.”

Melissa and Benny looked at the machine and sure enough the baby was smiling.

“Looks like this baby might be a daddy's boy."

"Please don't say that. I want him far away from me and my son."

The doctor looked at Melissa and Benny and could feel the tension.

"How about I leave and have you guys talk?"

"Can you please?"

Benny spoke up. The doctor nodded her head and wiped the gel off and left the room. Benny rubbed his beard and looked at Melissa who just kept looking at the machine.

"Melissa can we talk please?"

"The only person to ever show me any kind of was your mother and now she is gone."

"I'm still here. I want to be here for you and my baby. I know you hate me. You have every right to but please don't keep me from my baby."

"I have to think about both me and my son. You. You are stupid. Whenever your sister comes around you become even more stupid. So no I won't have you around him. I refuse for my child to die because you wanted to fuck with your sister again."

"I know and my mom always said dealing with my sister be my downfall but I am asking you. Give me a chance just a chance. I lost my mom, I cant lose you and I cant lose my baby. My mom told me to do better by you and I'm trying."

"You're trying to get on my nerves which is working. Why do you want to do right? Cause your mom is dead? Cause you feel the need to want to be a better man? You already told me what you thought of me and my baby. So no."

Benny looked at Melissa and realized that second chances are not easy. He has been given too many chances to do right and he never did.

"Do you know what is sad? I did like you. I did like you. Yea I wanted to fuck you, but you took me to your mom's house when Veronica threw me out. You could have taken me to a hotel and that meant a lot to me."

"I'm sorry for being a dumbass. My mom always told me I didnt have a lot of sense but I want to do better. Did you have your father?"

"Yea, until he got sick and I met Veronica and he died."

"I'm sorry I didn't know that. Is that why you wanted her to die?"

"Yes."

"Look, I'm not the best. I make dumbass decisions on a daily basis. I do want to do better by you. I want to be a dad. I know I have a lot to prove. First thing I'll do is cut ties with my sister. I'll ask Mrs. Cryer to help me find a house for us and I'll get a job. I just want a chance."

Melissa finally looked at Benny and seen the sincerity in his brown eyes.

"I shouldn't believe you or give you another chance but you have one chance."

A smile over took Benny's face. As he got up and placed his big hands on her stomach. The baby was kicking up a storm against Benny's hands. A chuckle escaped his lips as he seen the foot imprint against Melissa's stomach. The doctor walked back in the room and smiled seeing the scene in front of her.

"Are we good now Mommy and Daddy?"

Benny was too entranced by his child's movement that he didnt answer. He bent down and placed a kiss on Melissa's stomach. This is what his mother wanted. She wanted him to man up. She wanted him to do better. This was his chance to do better.

An: Angst. Fluff. Sucks. Sorry

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