#mellologue

[dragonfireandice]

A day late, but

~31~

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Lost my job and lost my cat. Might open commissions soon. Not doing great.

[dragonfireandice]

New name reveal was a success!

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Once again it's that time and I'm very hype for this one.

~30~

[dragonfireandice]

why does everything have to go from really good to completely shit all the time

why does my voice get dismissed as frivolous and overreacting at the drop of a hat while being told to speak up and stand up for myself

I'm so tired

Things were so fucking good and now I'm getting a soft version of silent treatment and zero physical contact while he "resets" because I didn't bring up something bothering me "correctly"

Why

I'm tired

I thought I'd finally spent my tears but I'm sitting in a coffee shop pretending I'm successfully stealth crying at the counter right in front of the barista

I'm just

Fuck

It was so good

Why am I the asshole every time

Why do I try to communicate

Why do I get left with the feeling I shouldn't say anything

Why

Why

[dragonfireandice]

Okay, so, coworkers continue to be great and the exceptions to that are on their way out. Manager is also great, love that. Only hiccup continues to be the owner, but I still have yet to actually interact with her, so. Yeah! Doing okay.

Also bought my first pack of boxers today and I am experiencing a SLEW of giddy emotions. They're in the wash as I type.

[dragonfireandice]

New job is. Fine. Got a better idea of the behind the scenes and drama and I can't be bothered to care. Incredibly low volume shop so days are going to generally be boring, but I can live with that. Coworkers are fine. Store owner is a control freak but the store manager is the one who deals with her most. Mainly concerned whether the migraine that kicked off on my shift is from something in the store itself or just my body thinking it's funny.

[dragonfireandice]

Still in a state of disbelief, but I have acquired a job.