#memembering

[mumblelard]

sunflowers are sprouting under my windows in the place where i throw seed for the birds and squirrels and chipmunks

last night, i dreamt of carrying food into a smoky cave. i dreamt of a house made only out of the bedrooms that were mine in all the places i've lived

when i was waking up this morning, i had a feeling of remembering every person who's passed through my life. i was remembering them all at once and missing them, even the bad ones, the ones who'd hurt me. i missed them all, and the missing was overwhelming. then i sat up, the feeling went away and all the people too, all of them but three that i hadn't thought of in a long time

i read by the river at lunch time. it's warm today and meant to be warmer tomorrow