Dean, Is it wrong that I just want to be put into an institution already? I just feel crazy, & I don't want to be around anyone that I know.. Bc they don't get why I lash out or why I don't go outside often/hangout with "friends" & make plans. - Del
Some people feel like that will be the best thing for them, it's not wrong to think that way kiddo. If you feel that it's what will help you most, you should talk to your family or a counsellor and see what they can do about it.
I'm glad you want to try and get better and not hurt anyone, but I'd recommend talking to your friends or family and explaining how you feel so they understand why you sometimes lash out and not take this to heart.
We're going to get through this craziness together, that's my speciality.
-Dean