Jun 1, 2019
It’s funny how a systemic unhappiness can manifest in life.
Like I am feeling burned out at work, and I want a cat but my building doesn’t allow pets, and that is manifesting in unhappiness with the color of the walls and the urge to redecorate. I can’t fix the things that are actually making me unhappy right now, so my brain is like “here is this superficial thing to focus on because if you can find a way to change this it will make everything better”.
In light of this, even though I have no interest in actual home ownership, I find myself daydreaming about buying a home and making it over just the way I want it. I think it is because I want to have some control over something.