I have a lot of stuff going well in my life. Though I can't help how I react to things..I do still have a lot of depression. It was worse before, but I'm pretty sure it'll never really go away. The suckish part of it all is I used to cut when I got nervous. I had done it for so long it became, quite bluntly, an addiction. And I get nervous about change. I can't look in the mirror without noticing things becoming different. My mind wants me to hold out, though I want to cut so bad I physically ache when I hold a knife and don't harm. It's not for pain anymore, but for habit. I do enjoy being cut. I can't do it anymore because it's not good and I'd get locked away for slicing myself.
I should be starting to be at least a little bit happy..And my mind continuously kills me for no real reason. I don't have supports to just fuckin' go hang out with. I have my mind, my partner, and video games. No, I don't have friends. No, I don't want a million of them to make up for what I never had. At least I have a few people I'm close to..Even though no one knows who they really are. This is why I love Ryo and Adrian so much. No one knows them, but no matter what, I know them and will always be close to someone. Ah, I'm such a lunatic. I guess this is what I get for depending on my mind for so long.
Congratulations, you have more than one inner soul and are one of the few people who believe this is something that is able to happen and isn't always due to a mental illness and/or defect!
Oh, lucky me. Do I get a crappy stuffed animal, or..? No..? I just get called crazy again..? Aw, man, I already have a shit ton of Crazy Cards. Eh, I guess I'll take my prize and shove it somewhere.