#mentalupdate159

[zoecas159]

August 14, 2019

Everything is better now, still need some time but I'm finally on my way to freedom

[ayozo159]

8-1/8-7/2019

Went Cold Turkey. The first week will probably be the hardest. Haven't been sleeping. I have no peace in my head and my heart. Never felt so weak. Never felt so lost. Haven't found myself yet.

Trying to take care of myself. Never done it before. Trying to be happy but it's hard. Self - Care is difficult when you've never really cared for yourself. I'm trying.

I know I'm on the right path though. I feel myself hurting but I also feel myself growing. It hurts so much but I know it's pain I have to feel. I'm trying to take care of myself. 1 week since I last smoked, been on social media, and cut off everything. Learning to be alone. Treated myself this week. God opened my eyes to new paths leading to a better future. Found myself a mentor and I'm not going to let this stagnancy continue.

In the end, I hope I find myself better. God's doing His thing in my life. This too shall pass. Don't know how long this will take but I find comfort in the fact that it's not my timing. It's His timing.

I'm not okay but I hope I will be soon.

I miss my friends but this isolation helps.

I'll be back when I'm better.