#messagesforyou

[patsliftedgifts]

Daily poetry reading 🙏🕯❤️

[wearethefickleminded]

Erm, no, we can't talk, But how about you say what you want to say and I'll see if I fancy responding? Note to Self: Have I entered the angry phase?

[wearethefickleminded]

I'm just going to advise that perhaps keeping to written communication at the moment to be the best option.

[wearethefickleminded]

I feel you attitude to our the security of our relationship was quite 'bipolar'...

One week you would spout how I was The One, and how you though that a cute name for our daughter would be Alabama and that you wanted me to come to New York with you after uni and how we should get a house in Hampstead when we're older and how you couldn't see your future with anyone else by your side.

And the next you were scared. So scared that you were going to loose me and no matter how I tried nothing could convince you otherwise. You said 'okay' in the end but I know you weren't okay. You repeatedly questioned; 'Is it worth it?'

You also said that if we were to ever breakup it would be me doing it and not you, because you've always been so much more invested in your previous relationships than your partner.

Funny how things work out, hey?

[wearethefickleminded]

I have a miniature bottle of Lipton Ice Tea that I had kept forgetting to give you.

It's sitting on my desk so I'd remember for the weekend.

[wearethefickleminded]

I was looking forward to showing you.

God I fucking miss you.

[wearethefickleminded]

I'd like to think you'd have been proud of me today;

I've just gotten home from spending about an hour and a half in a computer cluster doing my part for my group assessment.

And then I found out my provisional mark for my Colour Science module is 68/100.

And now, as opposed to checking if I can call or Skype you and telling you how much I would be looking forward to seeing you on Friday,

Well, I just don't know.

[wearethefickleminded]