there was no chance at alleviation . not like this , not the way he needed it – and william had grown too realistic to think he’d be lucky enough for that . still , he had hoped for something to change . anything . 𝚂𝙼𝙰𝙻𝙻 𝙰𝙳𝙹𝚄𝚂𝚃𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 , brief modification to the void that lingered around his heart , shadowed his soul in its most precious parts . the part that was his youth , his childhood , years that he now wished , aimed , tried to forget – to pretend it wasn’t there . never happened , never to be acknowledged . but it had happened . no matter how many decades passed . . . it was still THERE within him .
“ you want a drink or something , pal ? “ voice like a rough cloud of thunder where it leaves his lips , already grabbing a glass for himself as if it would be less nerve wracking to avoid the obvious topic between the two of them if only he distracted himself enough . if only he 𝙿𝚁𝙴𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙳𝙴𝙳 𝙴𝙽𝙾𝚄𝙶𝙷 that they were just friends , two guys who had found each other during teen years and got each other through the type of obstacles any young man would face eventually . IF ONLY . . . but that was not their truth . @metalhorror