#metalinker rant

[metalinker]

I haven't written my diary in a month.

It has been an insanely exhausting month, I have to try and avoid everyone for a while.

[metalinker]

Only after meditating do I see the world in front of me, and that really sucks.

[metalinker]

If you smell a little like cigarettes that's kinda ok for me, but if you smell like heated tobacco, like iQOS and stuff I just don't want to be around you.

Three people in my life smelled like that and all three were kinda nuts.

Funny thing is that those three are not the only ones who smoked like heated tobacco, however they are the ones that smelled like a mix of rotten fruit and mud all the time.

[metalinker]

Everything that's exclusively online will die, it will disappear.

Therefore I will start buying storage before the price hikes. RAM and SSDs are ridiculous, and HDDs are next, I'll probably buy a 4TB WD RED HDD soon, maybe another one in a month or two if the prices aren't astronomical by then.

I may sound insane, but the prices aren't going to stabilize for years because of the insane datacentre demand, and the internet will suffer for it. I am predicting the internet getting more hostile and every website trying to monetize as much as possible because of the increased datacentre costs.

[metalinker]

I have to stop saying "real" and "pakao".

Packing a lot of differing emotions into two words makes me communicate my emotions horribly, and I am probably being misunderstood or come across as uncaring because of that.

[metalinker]

I disappeared again mentally, but I'm trying to claw myself back.

[metalinker]

Thinking of starting to hang out by myself (good linkin park song).

Just walking to interesting places, having tea by myself (again).

People just wanna go out and eat or drink beer, I want to go and drink tea or walk in a more wooded area. I wanna take my digicam and go hiking or exploring. I'm tired of beer.