#mi lyfe

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all i can say is, thank god i have eldest daughter dean winchester to project my family issues onto

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truly cannot believe that from ages 14-19 i spent every moment of every single day on tumblr and NEVER got into spn but watched the fandom from the sidelines and then when the show was ending i said to myself “if destiel goes canon i will watch” and now i have the strongest hyperfixation on spn and im watching it through for the first time ever and i can’t stop reading and writing destiel fic and im losing my absolute goddamn mind. i have not had a single thought that is not destiel for MONTHS. MONTHS. i am an ADULT with a JOB and i sit in meetings thinking about dean winchester. my brain is rotting. but i am having so much fun.

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anyway now it’s dec. 31, 2019 and im 22 and sad but not in the same way i used to be. things are different. more has happened in the past decade than i could have ever imagined.

i always thought i’d be long dead before 22. and i still kinda feel like i’m gonna die young. but i’m graduating from college in may and i still have the same best friend that i had a decade ago when i was starting middle school.

don’t know what else to say. don’t really care to be honest. depression is different when ur 15 and 22. it’s different when you’ve had so much shit in ur life that you don’t really know what’s going on anymore.

i guess i’m happy i’ve lived this long. got to experience some amazing things. also experienced terrible pain. but whatever.

happy 2020.

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tfw your professor misspells your name in your recommendation letter like ok thx pal if i dont get accepted into my top school’s it’s on you

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i got new paper towels yesterday and they’re so nice and soft and i’m just so happy about it

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i have a dangerous habit of buying too many mugs

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think i’m gonna try going vegan starting on new years

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i never stop thinking. i’m always thinking. my mind doesn’t stop.