#middaycoffee

[everydayitgirldiary]

How is it that with just one look

I can make you feel wanted,

Make you feel loved,

Make you feel missed,

Make you feel adored.

Yet you can’t even return my call,

Return my glances,

Return my love,

Return my admiration.

I need to stop giving so much,

Stop loving so hard,

Stop putting in what I’m not receiving,

Stop falling when you can’t even catch me.

[everydayitgirldiary]

Yet again I have woken up feeling empty,

Yet again I get out of bed,

Yet again I drag my feet at work,

And yet again I’m still missing you.

I know I need to heal,

It’s been over for weeks,

What am I to do when all I want is you.

[everydayitgirldiary]

Today I still feel empty,

I no longer feel lonely,

Only emptiness,

I want to feel joy,

I want to feel love,

But for now I feel empty.

For now I will slowly love myself again,

For now I will enjoy my own company

[everydayitgirldiary]

Today I woke up feeling less empty,

I still feel empty,

But I have managed to do some chores,

I still feel empty,

Just now in a tidy place,

I still feel empty,

As I lay in my clean sheet,

I still feel empty,

Yet I am slowly healing.

[everydayitgirldiary]

I drown myself in work,

To suppress my thoughts and feelings

For you,

I drown myself in work,

To get lost in the chaos

That isn’t you,

I drown myself in work,

To do anything

To not have you on my mind.

But every night I lay in bed,

It’s you that I’m dreaming of.

[everydayitgirldiary]

Another day I wake up empty,

I want to cry

But again my tears are dry,

I lay here knowing

Things will never be the same,

Yet I want them to go back

To how we were,

To when you wanted me.

Why do I torture myself wanting you,

When I know you don’t want me.

[everydayitgirldiary]

As I lay in bed

You race through my mind,

It’s a vicious cycle,

Wanting to forget you,

Your touch,

Your smell,

Your voice,

And yet I want to keep those memories,

Close to my heart,

So when I close my eyes

I can feel you,

Smell you,

Hear you.

The memories of you will live in my heart.



[sensitive-cgi]

I don't really know what is it about coffee, does it make me feel better? Does it help?, I don't know, but it tastes perfect and gives me that warm and cozy feeling I used to have before the mid. of last march.