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I miss my twitter acc so much, I have friends there and It doesn't feel the same

I just miss my life

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I feel lighter today

I don't miss him

I'm not so depressed

And I don't want to die, for the first time in a long time

I feel hopeful somehow

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How can i make friends here 🥺

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Waiting for the sedative to kick in feels like forever

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I feel lost and lonely

I'm so anxious

I can't eat or sleep

I just hope someone can hold me tight and tell me that it's okay that one day I'll be fine

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I wonder if the sad I'd be without you would be less than the sad I get from being with you

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Ppl should I break up

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Hi I'm escaping from twitter

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Can someone please introduce me to new music, also open for making new friends

[scottbaiowulf]

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Why does it seem like we are in an endless loop of pointlessness

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Some days are easy, so easy that you forget you're hurting, you're broken, others remind you how shattered you are

How paralyzed and incapable of helping yourself

You go through the hard ones hoping they'll end as quick as possible, fantasizing about the good ones, where your heart stop aching for a few hours, where you enjoy the breakfast like you used to, the music kicks in so good, you love the guitarist, and hope you'll see them play live one more time,

But sometimes, the hard ones are so hard, harder than you though, harder than what you can take, so you just lay there, the only thing soothing you is suicidal thoughts, and how this can be the end of every pain you feel, you just won't exist no more, you won't have to deal with anything

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Lately, all I want is just a calm morning, have some pancakes, coffee, and music that triggers nothing inside of me.

I don't know if I'm gonna pass this, or if I'll just keep on going down, I really don't.

I hate my suicidal thoughts, and I hate that they bring me comfort, I hate that's what makes me sleep at night. But maybe, I'll get over this, maybe not, But I'm fighting.

I lost faith in everything, and I was never a believer, I'm trying to reconnect with myself, but it seems that I can't get a grip on me.

I'm faded, I see me, but every time I try to reach out, a shadow is all is there. Heavy hearted and my chest is crashed, and all I once knew is gone.

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I don't really know what is it about coffee, does it make me feel better? Does it help?, I don't know, but it tastes perfect and gives me that warm and cozy feeling I used to have before the mid. of last march.