[ death ] (angst you asked)
꒰ non-verbal angst prompts ┆ accepting ꒱
[ death ] sender just died, receiver finds out
izuku's continued work as a hero despite the loss of one for all has always left katsuki with mixed feelings. on one hand, it's what he realized he always wanted. katsuki wanted to work alongside the other as pro-heroes. it was always both of their dreams, and while the path was rocky for katsuki to come to this realization, once he realized it, he never wanted to let it go. it's why he was so devastated hearing that izuku lost one for all, clinging only to the embers like all might had. katsuki even told him as much.
katsuki was so certain, his mind so made up of what their future would be like that he could only weep from the apparent loss of that future and izuku's own dream. izuku assured him, however, that he could use those embers to keep going still. katsuki was glad about that. it lasted a lot longer than anyone could've possibly expected. at times, katsuki even forgot that izuku had even lost one for all in the first place. still, he remained worried at the same time, because what would come to pass if izuku was out fighting a strong villain with his embers finally burned out? they usually worked together, but sometimes hero duties had their agency spread thin. knowing how self-sacrificing izuku was…
❝ dynamight? it's deku — izuku — he's… ❞ ochako said, but she didn't even need to finish her sentence. katsuki knew immediately from her frantic tone and and the sobs interrupting her speech of exactly what happened. immediately, he felt his heart drop into his stomach. he was weirdly numb. denial, he wrote it off as. it wasn't real until he saw izuku. until then, his best friend, his partner, was still alive and kicking and saving everyone with a smile as he always did. he's too fucking young, dammit. there was still so much katsuki needed to tell him. so much more they had to do.
for the rest of our lives…
the rest of the world is a dull blur, seeming to move in slow motion while katsuki rushes to the hospital. his hands hurt from how fast the explosions are crackling out of them, trying to move him faster. slowly, his composure is steadily slipping away from him. all sorts of memories, those that came to pass and those he wanted to make, flash in his mind like some tragic film. he startles uraraka, shouto, and tenya from how loudly he bursts into the room. if all three leave the room or not, he doesn't recall. his gaze is zeroed in on izuku.
❝ izuku? ❞ he asks, eyes wide and instantly filling with tears. perhaps in the past he would've reacted with frustrated anger, but katsuki's far beyond that. the pain he feels stabs at his heart. it hurts far worse than the time he died. “izuku,” he repeats, grabbing the others hand and squeezing it. izuku makes no sort of move. he can see the wound and profuse blood staining the other's green uniform. his hand still feels warm, but there's no color in his cheeks. it's not some sick joke. izuku's really gone.
❝ this isn't funny, you stupid fucking nerd! wake the hell up, ❞ katsuki bellows, and he tries to sound angry, but he sounds more sad than anything. he can't cover up the pain in his voice at all. he is angry, but more at himself for not appreciating and treating izuku better. he doesn't think a lifetime of apologies could ever make up for what he'd done. he never even deserved izuku's forgiveness or friendship, he knows that, and still he took it for granted. now look at izuku. his partner.
what about the plans we made?
❝ please… ❞ it's said so softly, pleading. begging. katsuki can hardly even see.