Being a closeted yan is so scary...... What if they don't match my freak...... :(
It definitely is scary >.< I've done some...pretty bad things when my thoughts got bad. I dont blame my ex for leaving me when he did, I definitely strained our relationship when my mental health acted up.
He knew I was obsessed, but he just loved me, he wasnt obsessed like I wanted, which is okay!
Its been since February, so almost 5 months now, and i can say I wish the best for him. He hurt me bad, but I understand why, and in a way, I deserved it.
Even if they dont match your freak, I highly suggest finding someone to talk to when yan thoughts get bad. I'm always open to talk!
I try to be there for people since I had nobody to talk to when my yan thoughts got out of hand, and I'd act out really bad and it just made the situation worse.
I hope you'll find someone some day that'll match your energy, Mikan! I hope that for me as well! ^-^