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Hey followers
Just want to let everyone know we are still here and still active. We would love more interaction from you guys and I'll try and have more "events" that we used to like selfie monday and such. I feel like tumblr as a whole is less active these days, especially the milso community. I have honestly been having a hard time finding things to share because there is barely anything being posted in the milso tag. Remember we are always here for questions and support. Let me know what you would like to see happen with this blog! - Ally
Feeling Creative
If I made a YouTube channel with vlogs and stuff about being a Milso would anybody actually want to watch that?
When I find out that I don't get to see you soon anymore.
When I'm on the phone with you, there is so much I don't say.
I say it but you don't hear it.
It's not that you're not listening, I know you adore me and can't wait to next see my face.
It's that I don't quite say it, but part of me still expects you to understand.
So here is a glossary of all my words translated for you:
Hello.
How I start every phone call. This means "tell me you're ok right now or I'll come immediately to you and look after you".
I miss you.
My heart is lost. It's so used to pointing itself in your direction that when you're not here...
It's like...
It doesn't know what to do.
What am I supposed to feel without you there to hold my hand through it.
Do you need to go now?
Please don't go.
I know you need to but sometimes all I need is five more minutes of your voice to make the next 5 hours in bed a little more comfortable.
I love you.
I could not love you more yet somehow every single second I fall further for you.
Goodnight.
I promise to tell you that to your face someday as we cuddle down in our bed, at the end of a long day, and help you feel safe.
All I want to do is love you right here.
SFAS Update
I said I was gonna do updates throughout this process, but unfortunately there isn’t much to report from my end. For those who don’t know, SFAS stands for Special Forces Assessment and Selection, which is what my boyfriend is currently participating in. In layman’s terms it’s basically like ‘trying out’ for Special Forces. Of course, SF is a very elite group and they want the best of the best. From my understanding, SFAS consists of various assessments/tests, all of which are mentally/physically intense and extremely challenging. In this way, they aim to ‘weed out’ participants, and at any point you cannot complete a task successfully/to their standard, you are considered to have failed selection.
My bf told me that if he failed within the first few days of selection, he would be sent home (aka back to his base) on the 4th or so day. If not, however, they will keep you on hand to complete various details/jobs while the other participants carry on with the process. He said if he made it past the first few days, but failed one of the events after that, he would probably be sent home within two weeks.
I’m not quite sure what the next steps are if you manage to pass all of the events and get selected, but if my bf is able to do that I will definitely make a post about it. Unfortunately, the fail rate for SFAS is high, and before leaving he was doubtful that he would make it very far. Regardless, it’s an honor to even have the opportunity to participate in SFAS, and I’m sure he will have many stories to tell from it. I’m super proud of him no matter what happens ❤️
As for me, I’m holding up alright since he left. I’m torn between wanting to hear from him ASAP and wanting him to succeed and be able to stay for the whole 3 weeks. As I’ve said in my previous posts, the worst part is just not knowing how he’s doing, if he’s injured, or if anything has happened. Honestly it’s pretty much like a condensed version of basic training lol. I’m currently in the process of finding an internship for the summer so thankfully that has kept me fairly busy and distracted. He’s definitely still on my mind every second though. Anxiously awaiting that text or call whenever he’s done!
This post is suuuuper behind, but better late than never! Matts graduation was so fun, and I'm so happy that I got to be there for it! It was a tearful goodbye at the airport, but this trip has made me feel like we can get through anything. He's now at Fort Sam Houston for his AIT. He's training to become a Physical Therapy Specialist and I'm super excited for him. I'm still in school, and we are working towards our careers. I'm blessed to have a best friend who's driven and passionate about his new career! We have a life plan and I'm super excited about it! In 2019 I'll be moving to the states! Ah! So exciting! I just wanted to share some photos from Graduation and Family Day 👨🏻🎓⭐️💚