#mimzrambles

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im reading the apothecary diaries wiki and the former emperor and I are going to fight in the inner court parking lot

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we're so close with Full Moon. i haven't really been enjoying season 2 that much because the Blitz/Stolas plot was always weighed down/ damaged by awful the Deal (specifically the context in was made in. It wasn't proper consent from Blitzo, he was under pressure by both wanting to keep his business as well as literally in a life or death situation with no time to think and Stolas was aware of that fact).

i think this episode does an okay job at opening that conversation

HOWEVER

imo when Blitzo goes to apologize to Stolas, Stolas has to apologize again, especially for how the context behind the Deal and acknowledge the class difference and struggles that Blitzo has, cos Blitzo is extremely valid in his feelings

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I think part of the reason why i never went far with any of my toh aus is that whenever it came to trying to write a relationship with belos and another character it always came out as something wildly OOC for him (belos). It was really hard to justify him having a good relationship with Luz or Luz forgiving him for his past actions and hard for me to write a friendship between the two humans because if they're gonna be friends forgiveness for what he did in the past and lying to Luz about it would have to be earned and it would be impossible to earn it.

Also kinda struggling with the massive mischaracterization that a portion of the fandom had of belos and how it kinda ruined the finale for me in a way. Like no Caleb wasn't going to appear, that much was obvious from the trailer and i don't think he should have because he wouldnt have done anything for Luz's, Eda's, or King's story. Id see alot of fans pull any argument as to why the Collector should have been dropped in order to get screen time for Caleb, someone who was essentially a plot (or narrative) device, instead the Collector someone who mirrored Luz in season 1. That's what TOH was about, a story about a group of ppl who think differently navigating the world together. Not to mention the takes about the crew, the production timeline and Dana were really fucking gross? Like yeah seeing Evelyn and Caleb woulda been cool had Disney not shot down the show but by the time EWEW passed and HM rolled around there would have been no reason for Luz to give a shit about Philip's past. Not only was belos an objectively terrible person because looking at what the show gave us there's reasons to believe that he woulda killed Caleb had the people Gravesfield decided he (Caleb) was a witch and when belos had his beliefs challenged by his brother and the isles he decided to double down and kill his brother. But he also hurt Eda and King the two people (barring her mom and dad) that Luz cared most about. Plus you also have the personal betrayal in EWEW.

This ramble kinda stems from an inner debate about whether or not im gonna delete the Eclipse Fam AU cause when i was doing that, i started to get a grasp on my art style and where i wanted it to go as well as helping with art milestones like overcoming sketchbook fear and upping drawing stamina. As for Isles Escape AU, i dunno, i understand there is a nurture aspect to who Philip would grow up to be and the what-if Caleb pulled him outta the fucked up environment of gravesfields was an interesting brainworm. Finally the Swap AU was half of what it was in title what if Philip was in Luz’s place but also i don’t want to turn any of the main cast into belos cause wholeheartedly fuck that guy, drawing longing hair on boy is fun and awesome but I can just make an oc, i have a story on the back burner the needs a lot more designs.

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ok so i see the balance on the tri color stage but omigod you cannot play any long range weapon

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Someone put the song of healing (clock tower theme) and something has never made so much sense and tickled my brain so much

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feel like im getting my art groove back!!!

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my constant internal debate is do i scream on tumblr (and post art here and other places) about this silly lil project I'm working on (but I'm very proud of and take very professionally (?)) or do I develop it on the back burner

like it is a side thing, a side thing id like to turn into an animated show one day (when I'm done with school and have experience)

i wanna scream about it but like at the same i dunnnooo

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WAIT

The Undertale 5th ani concert has its own version of "Let's All Go to the Lobby"