I need to see a neurologist soon, need to request an MRI on my back and legs. Need to see a orthopedic for my knees. I don't know what's going on with my body. I just know I'm always in pain and its draining me. I just hate that neurofibromatosis can literally cause anything other kind of disease/disorder. I have a strong feeling that I either have a tumor on my spine or nerves or I have MS. If it's a Tumor at least it'll be non cancerous. I have done my research and the doctor was reading her notes and slightly mentioned MS but said I have to go to a neurologist and talk to him. No matter what tho I'll always have something wrong that's what my disease does. I try to stay positive and remind myself others have it worse. It's hard to always to that tho because I'm terrified. I'm terrified because I feel like it's going to be never ending. Never ending because there is no cure for what I have and only some treatment. I'm always going to be prone to more diseases. My mind has been running for days now because all I can think about is the fact that I have no idea what's going on and it's just doctor after Doctor. I've been thinking about my future as well and as bad as I want a kid of my own one day I can't do that to a kid. Knowing if I bring a child into this world they can have what i have but they can have the cancer form of it. I can't do that. That's not fair and it breaks my heart because I've always wanted kids of my own. I'm going to adopt and that's perfect.
