Dec 7, 2017
I could use some cheering up right about now
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I could use some cheering up right about now
I'm so confused right now. Someone is being the person that I currently don't want them to be. This is probably because I'm jealous, but fuck. She's doing what I'm supposed to be doing. But the fact that she and the director disregarded everything that came before is bullshit
I know that I have changed. I know that I'm not fit for the position anymore, but it makes me sad. I'm sad within myself. I think a chunk of it is just being replaced. I don't feel secure with the choices I've made anymore. I want to hurl. I feel sick to my stomach. I i don't want to do this anymore. I need a friend.
I had my teammate do my hair a while back. I felt bad-ass
I am in hate with myself
I just really really hate myself
I have changed and I am scared. I am crying because I have changed. I am crying. I need time for myself and I don't have it. I need it. I crave it.
I feel like I'm being held back by him. I feel like I won't reach my potential with my boyfriend. I'm going to break his heart. He cries more than I do about so many things