Being alone with me is my way to heal myself
my mind
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Being alone with me is my way to heal myself
my mind
I can't seem to find the stillness I long for. This morning at church Bob talked about God breathing into us. How when we are feeling empty and thirsty we need to get in His word. I read bible studies and books about prayer every single day, but I rarely open my bible. As a church, we've been going through the Blue Book, a daily devotion, together. I don't read the daily prompts, but will do that this week. I'm a person who wants to be in control, I "guide" things to work the way I think they should work. I'm learning to tell myself that I'm not in charge and then to thank God that He's in charge. These dominoes represent anxiety for me right now. I'm worried knowing one might fall and everything else will fall too soon. I know that if I let go, they will all fall in place just as they should and create magic. #alwaysmoving #chasinglucy #mindspinning
How do we know if we’re in control? That we’re not just making the best of what comes at us, and that’s it. Trying to constantly pick between two options. Like your two paintings in the waiting room. Or Coke and Pepsi. McDonald’s or Burger King? Hyundai or Honda? It’s all part of the same blur, right? Just out of focus enough. It’s the illusion of choice. Half of us can’t even pick our own our cable, gas, electric. The water we drink, our health insurance. Even if we did, would it matter? You know, if our only option is Blue Cross or Blue Shield, what the fuck is the difference? In fact, aren’t they the same? No, man, our choices are prepaid for us, long time ago.
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Pandora Box
I already thought that it will never come again
I shut it down and give it up
I make sure to lock and never to open it once more
I tried and tried my best that so it will never come to me
So i keep my word and never to break a promise to myself
But the day has come to haunt me
It unlock and happen to lose my control
It slips very quick that i don't notice
Its waving with a bright light dashing through my vision
It makes me blind and makes me weak
I never want to have this but there's the key
Slowly unlocking it all
Slowly opening my box, oh my pandora box!
(c) Maria Lubelyn