Nothing is perfect. Even myself. Especially myself. What’s even perfection? I am not going to redo your philosophy class but I don’t believe in perfection. I want to believe in myself and find ways to prioritize my mental health and make myself a priority. Something I have learned is that you cannot attach your happiness or worthiness to someone else because most times people will let you down. I think it is important to live for yourself and not exist only to seek something or someone that is supposed to make you feel fulfilled. Easy to say I know because especially for a woman, we are taught at a young age that getting married should be the ultimate goal but is it though? Why do we all have this pressing inner need to be in a relationship? People in relationship don’t look necessarily happier, perfect or less lonely.
I am trying to learn how to change that mental state. I want to appreciate being with myself more. It is what I strive for. The difficulty lies in the fact that I often feel lonely and that’s very overwhelming particularly in that day of age when you can connect with thousands by a click of your mouse. We must love ourselves first to believe that we are enough.
I realize not too long ago that I don't need nor want a relationship. I was about to make efforts and accept to let go of my freedom and independence FOR A GUY but I am not ready. I need to continue to learn and accept who I am before throwing myself to the first guy who shows a little bit of interest towards me even if he is good-looking.
Let’s enjoy being alone. Let’s accept the feeling of loneliness. It is all right. This is the perfect opportunity to focus on stuff that I always wanted to do (alone or not) and just do it. I don't need ANY ONE and honestly... that feels good.