#miropersonalposts

[windupsanson]

I want to do the events but so scared to login. Bad memories mixed with my favorite things sucks.

[windupsanson]

I’m still grieving so much for losing someone who I had so much hope and respect and wished we were friends.

[windupsanson]

Wonder if I am brave enough to return here.

[windupsanson]

I’m afraid to reply to old dms, or any messages.

One of the reasons I don’t have the courage to reply to old dms. I never get past 6 dms, that person was the only one.

Do those people even remember me? Will they even care?

If by miracle they do it’s always the same thing, I go with hope for a conversation to reply, three dms later they get bored or something and say something like talk to you later and never again. If they replied to posts or liked not even that anymore when I was active.

Maybe keep the illusion.

[windupsanson]

Lost the only person who I was not invisible too, they replied to me, who didn’t dismissed me after a few dms, who showed they liked my stuff, who truly talked to me.

I won’t get that back.

That was all I wanted.

I will have to leave that part of the fandom too, not that anyone cares, everyone ignored me.

I wonder if I had any reason to come back but no.

I wonder if I have any hope with people but no.

[windupsanson]

I think I lost something important. It sounds so forced and one sided.

I have never been important enough for anyone to make efforts to not loose me.

I think everyone is better once I leave, they are free.

[windupsanson]

I’m not exactly alive but here…

I can’t handle the bad associated with this site

It used to bring me joy