i'd love to hear director's commentary on death in spring, especially on akechi's mother and his relationship w/ her. it's a fav of mine!
death in spring
cw mention of akechi’s mother’s suicide
🥺🥺 im glad u like it...... i honestly kind of wrote it without expecting many people to read this one either so im honored u would say that ;A;
this is that fic where i went on tumblr/twitter and i was like “i want to write fluffy shuake!! send me some prompts!!!” and i got like 10 different fluffy prompts and one from impropercorvus that just said “grief” and i, the person who asked for fluff prompts in the first place, immediately said “im gonna do that one” and ignored all the fluffy prompts in favor of doing the one about grief
this is another one of those where i wrote the ending before i wrote the beginning... specifically i wrote most of the end conversation first, then wrote the beginning, and then rewrote the conversation based on the beginning SKSJKS what a mess
about akechi’s mother......... i was drawing pseudo inspiration from the prince--maybe not anything specific, but just a general idea that i’ve always thought that maybe she was a flawed individual who was not always loving and caring and did not even always want goro and maybe even resented him a good amount of the time, but she was trying her very hardest in her own way to be someone who was loving and caring and wanted goro around. i think she was definitely trying to be a good mother in the ways she knew how.
“trying your best” is a lot easier of a sentiment to accept when someone carried you to term, struggled to care for you for a decade, and then died so that you could live, and is now no longer around to be a flawed human being. in the same way that goro’s mother wanted to be a good mother, i think goro also wanted her to be a good mother, and it’s easy to embrace the idea that just wanting to be a good mother can be enough when she’s no longer around.
she’s not around to judge him, or reject him for his decisions, or tell him he’s not allowed to marry akira, or have any opinions on anything he does, really. her love is always unconditional if she’s dead. (love would be incredibly complicated, in fact, if she were alive, in the same way that akira and goro’s interactions are somewhat offkey and strained in that fic by virtue of akira being a living real person.) if both goro and his mother wanted her to be a better mother, her being dead enables goro to always assume she would do the kind thing, because he loves her and he wants to believe she would always do the kind thing.
that’s not to say that that’s how you have to or should interpret the fic, but it was definitely what i was thinking about when i write goro’s relationship with his mother.
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