I literally slept all day yesterday. Like got out of bed once, to go to the bathroom and take my meds and check in with L. That’s all.
So now it’s 1:15 am and I’m awake and missing Lund something fierce. Not just Lund, but Skåne and Sweden and all the possibilities of adventures there.
I think it’s because Malmö Opera posted videos of Jenny Holmgren and Caroline Gustafsson singing It Must Have Been Love from Joyride, and it made me miss Malmö and seeing them both at the Starlight concert. And I just miss it.
I miss the buses, I miss walking around the town, I miss the food and Pocki and playing games and listening to new music and just being somewhere other than the US. Maybe that’s the core of it: I just want to be away from the US.
I know Sweden isn’t perfect. I know the far-right is rising there too, I know their immigration stance isn’t the best, that they’ve really cracked down on the immigration process and applying for citizenship. I know that there’s issues, just like there’s always issues places. But it’s not the US. It’s not so openly corrupt.
I wish I could move to Sweden. I wish it could be simple and easy and I could just be there now. I know that it can’t happen, for various reasons. But fuck I wish it was possible.