couldn't sleep so i tried developing character backstories because usually the crap i come up with is boring enough for me to fall asleep. but then i started crying so i typed out what i had on my phone but it's really lame and crappy and i just hell i dont even know the names of the characters im developing and it's not important but at the same time that means i have free reign to do as much as i want and here i am 2 hours later because i can't sleep. love/hate relationship with my writing. it's a good outlet when i need to just play god, but it all comes out horribly incoherent and a mess and is 99% lame. but i guess that's not too bad. i just don't have the skills to execute the plots i make with as much confidence as i'd like. one day, maybe.