talked a bunch with my bestie today on our headcanons in jj and other things and as always it got my head spinning because i want to talk about so many things but keep stopping myself out of embarrassment by now I already finished mitsuki's and fumi's routes and going through soshiro's slowly and still didnt manage to write my thoughts about it. even though i want to. but i hope to still do that later ^^ i love them so much and both routes were a delight to go through today is about my mitsufumi brainrot tho. a bit of a rant just to get some thoughts in order. for a while it still felt weird that i locked in so much on them when my priorities were so different before but it was also inevitable as they check all the boxes for me huh i still adore every combination of mitsu fumi kai trio of course but. those to got to me in ways i never expected it was a silly little idea for a while when i was going through mitsu's route but everything from winter to the finale convinced me all the way through the way mitsuki cherishes his senpais is obvious and always present. how much he sees in them and admires them and wants all the best for them. for fumi to be free. for kai to see his own worth. for them both to still shine brightly as partners. it's all in plain sight in the winter. and they care for him so much in return, knowing how kind mitsuki actually is and how he cares for people and how he can do and be so much more and always believe in him it's the way mitsuki saw the literal worst of fumi's behavior, watching it closer then most. and also saw him struggling. got close enough to see who fumi really is and grew to love him so much.
and how fumi in turn saw mitsuki too. from his place, seemingly far above everyone else at the time
this is the moment that solidified them for me btw
it's about how they watched each other like that and got to see more and more of each other as people. with deep respect and admiration (which mitsuki didn't even know about. for him fumi is the brightest star and also a person he wanted to support and later set free. but didnt have the courage to. didn't think he could)
it's how mitsuki, despite knowing how good fumi, still doesn't take it for granted and cares about him as a human being. you know, something fumi always wanted. to be treated like this. he is just a person who works really hard in hopes to make people he loves happy. to be told he did a good job. i also love how mitsuki's whole thing is about trust and boundaries. how he was denied those boundaries in his family and had to close himself off. and then went even deeper because human connections are always difficult and he cares to much. hide and try to seem like he doesn't care is always easier. and it never worked on fumi though. and in return, fumi is one of the most honest and open people mitsuki could meet. he's the one you can always trust and rely on, by the time he is a third year and finally got to look at people around him properly. appreciate them. care for them. he always has that undeniable trust in mitsuki even when mitsuki himself doesnt believe it. and he knows how warm and caring of a person he is and respects his boundaries always but also doesn't want him to close off too much. and mitsuki lets him in. of course he does. both of them just see so much more in each other then most people do and are so determent to make things better for each other. to protect and cherish that light they admire so much.
“i will do my best to support you so please be free and go all out” and “because you are here, i can be confident and free” do i maybe talk about the same thing over and over? maybe. but oh well. i want to say so much more about them but i am a bit sleepy and pretty much putting this together on a whim. i also think their proper romance blossoms after mitsuki graduates... after a year of hard work and a lot of thoughts and missing each other too much. and realising that the presence of the other person was always so nice and refreshing and made everything easier. missing this and being worried and finding time to meet and still help each other or just get away from the noise and hard things together. knowing they will be understood and getting to stand more and more on even ground with each other (because mitsuki is more confident now and it shows) the process of falling for each other might have been subtle because of a lot of things but when they finally get the chance to properly be together again it all falls perfectly into place. as if they were meant to be after all