#miwirants

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I’m graduating college tmr and I’m still up think abt byler! I love my life

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Just watched ‘the half of it’ and holy cyrano trope, I’m crying about what potential byler could’ve had. It’s been 5 months and I still haven’t processed it one bit

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having confusing thoughts rn! henderhop or lesbian el???? Why is my life so harddd

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My cousin is watching IT chapter 2 in our hotel room and I’m trying to distract myself by scrolling through tik tok because I cannot go through the emotional damage I’ve just found the strength to get over for the past 5 years

And here is Conan gray singing ‘cut that always bleeds’ on my fyp just to remind me of my tragic sweethearts

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I’m so confused rn!!! Should I just use my normal acc for edits or should I make a new one!!!! UGHHHH IM SO CONFUSEDDD!!! SOMEONE HELP ME

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Heyy guys, what else can I do for my stranger things shelf. Pls help- 😭

(smthing i can diy. I don’t have money)

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personal rant (very personal)

idk how to feel regarding relationships. Like I love reading lovey-dovey gay fics and stories like that but I cannot imagine myself doing those things. And it’s not just being in a relationship but also the s*x bit. A bit personal but I cannot imagine doing that with anyone. It makes me uncomfortable and not just that but also a bit upset. I want to do it but I cannot seem to imagine how to do it with another person.

I want a partner but I don’t know how to keep up with a relationship. Even with my ex boyfriend - he was an absolute sweetheart tbh. He always bought me things from our school cafe, he drew things for me, bought me flowers for my grad and called me every time I wanted. But I just couldn’t reciprocate those feelings back to him. I liked it when it was showered at me but I couldn’t do the same even if I wanted to. There was just something wrong.

I don’t know how to be with another person. I don’t know how to be vulnerable with another person. Even with my parents I can’t just tell them ‘ily’ or things like that. Even after info dumping to my friends irl I can’t look at them the same and I immediately get distant. I want someone to comfort me and hug me but I cannot handle physical affection.

I want to get married some day, I wanna have kids but I cannot imagine doing it with another person. Like I just can’t wrap my head around it.

I really don’t know if this is just some teenage thing but I really can’t shake it off.

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I have to give my cat pills so tht his infection gets better. Wish me luck.