just asking what were your thoughts on the latest mmfd episode?
Hiya, sorry I took long to answer I saw this as I was heading to bed and I hate answering asks from mobile. locked-in-forever this is super long so I’m gonna put it into a read more! ;)
Hmmm the first thing that thought was I can handle this one much better than the first episode, and I’ve been able to re-watch it 2 more times (except that ending)
I still think the writing could’ve been better, so much better, heck there’s thousand of fics by our beautiful community that are so much better than this story-line. and I still don’t get why the drama is more important to them than the fandom? and what we wanted to see (although in a messed up way they did give us most of the things we wanted to see like Rinn in a relationship -even tho it was like for 0.4 seconds, An obvious flawed Finn - even tho he has never been perfect we just saw him through Rae’s eyes and well maybe now we’re seeing the real one but yeah- amongst other things we as a fandom wanted.) but going back to this episode. I’m still not sure what to think exactly of it as a whole? it was more acceptable? you could say but specifically as to what I think it’s more of what I’ve said that I wish other ppl had written it... cos in a way it’s something we’ve seen before a mix of S1 and S2 drama including the Katie bit she’s become (although probs on last ep she’ll become a hero) what Chloe became when she was into Finn. :\ and it’s so over used? and really why do they make us hate on girls all the fucking time? it’s annoying. (also I think it’s sat better with us as a whole, even tho it was still a messed up one cos Bidwell wrote it.. - or that’s what the wikipedia page of the episodes say)
I also can tell you I’m a bit disappointed in Finn cos at the beginning of the ep when he’s in hospital she pulled her hand away from him and then pulled the top layer and that to me is a clear sign that she’s hiding something more than just “I don’t want you to touch me” (which it was both in this case) and seriously if he had pushed a little bit jut a little bit to talk and can you show me your hand? (which btw the gang could’ve told him too cos the accident was caused cos Chlo noticed the hand) 99.9% of the drama of this episode could and would’ve been non existent... I’m also really disappointed in the gang. They brushed up the accident and not once anyone asked her about her hand and instead Mr. Chopper decided to make fun of her... c’mon ppl the’ve been friends for a while now they know she has issues and that she’s probably guilt tripping herself cos her BEST MATE is in hospital and 1. No one seems to be worried about Chloe being out in coma-like status and 2. No one is worried about RAE? um what????????
Katie katie katie... I still think she was a pointless addition to the show. because we know Rae has trust issues she barely talks to her mum, to her friends, to HER boyfriend (who you would think she would talk since they’re supposed to be attached at the hip) and she masks the truth with Kester yet.... *chorus of angels* Katie appears and it’s just so easy to talk to her? nope I don’t get it.. why couldn’t she trust her best mate??? but no... let’s trust this new girl that it’s so fucking shady too... I’m still finding it very odd the scene in the car where she didn’t even answer Rae’s question but just answered with “he didn’t talk to me, no one did” and the one from ep1 where she asks who’s Rae’s boyfriend... I still don’t get why she needed to ask her that when you’re trying to help someone you brush that off and just help the person you don’t need to know who she is dating to help her... not at all. (and then she kinda sounded surprised to so fucking shady ugh I can’t)
Finn... Finn I get he’s flawed and to some extent I like that he’s being flawed no human being ever is perfect and he never was we were just seeing her distorted version of him... but I’m seeing more that he’s pushing her away than being flawed, in a way and in my opinion he knew what he was getting himself into when he and Rae got back together in the end of s2 he KNOWS she lies sometimes and masks the truth but here he’s so surprised she didn’t tell him? when, fuck! She herself doesn’t know what she wants at the moment? she is not sure if she wants to go or stay here where she has her friends and support system and Kester.... Also I totally get that the “you sound mental” bit was a slip of the tongue I know that but, man YOU KNOW she’s always been afraid to seem mental she’s always has had confidence issues with this cos she’s afraid people won’t accept her for who she is cos she has mental health problems and you make this slip of the tongue? like I said I can get it’s a slip of the tongue but I can’t forgive him for that. he seems so careless... hell it’s not even flawed it’s just careless pushing her away.
Kester I’m over my theory that he’s dead even tho Sharon enjoyed it xD but I’m back to thinking something’s happening to him...
Karim and Linda ugh I love them to bits and pieces and Baby Jazz (as Sharon officially named her) ugh so fucking cute I can’t with them! <3
Chloe! ugh I love this girl so much she was such a blessing on this episode cos seriously it’s what helped Rae the most that bit of reassurance that she got that no one else could give her cos it’s truly difficult to feel ok when something happened cos your friend noticed you had your hand hurt and she’s afraid you’re going back on a relapse and then you crash and she’s not ok OFC she’s worried... it wasn’t Rae’s fault but she saw it that way and I’m so glad she managed to talk to Chlo and they got each other’s back and ugh that scene was so so so powerful and beautiful I just loved it and makes me so happy! (also I’m glad she stood up to her mom cos seriously that woman not letting Rae see Chlo how dare she! ugh *facepalm*)
and Lastly why still this season/episode don’t fully sit well with me it’s Rae... Rae has been broken and patched up, broken to even more tinny pieces and patched up again and now we’re getting the same? at the end of s2 she’s supposed to have seen the light and broken that wall that stopped her from changing and seeing things differently, I’m not saying I wanted a perfectly healthy Rae cos mental health is a fighting battle DAILY you don’t get healed from one day to another (pr cos you got a boyfriend) you’re a warrior that each day you wake up to fight the battle, and some days you can’t and you are down but then you’re on your feet again cos you’re strong and there’s no one stronger than you cos no one is in your shoes so each battle it’s personal and no one is as strong as you are. 18 months have passed, it’s true we haven’t seen her struggles but up to the first episode she says she hasn’t self harmed, and that’s so so so so good and then all seems to be going fine, I’m sure with some attacks here and there in those 18 months but like I said this is a battle that has it’s ups and downs, and then we get the season and she’s just pushed down down down down and once more broken... is this really necessary?
I’m not even caring about Finn at this point (not that I wouldn’t want them to be together but I want first and foremost for HER to be BETTER and be OK and HAPPY! for ONCE!) I’m caring that I’m seeing this girl that I love, that has shown me SO much, that has made me realize things of myself that I had never seen... is forever stuck in this place where we’re supposed to have seen so much growth cos we did a time jump so we’re here expecting to see how much better she’s doing how she’s managing her life. but we’re back to the same old ways where she doesn’t even know how to soothe herself. when you go to therapy you learn all these things on how to deal with stuff and you sometimes don’t manage to but once again it’s a battle and you learn how to fight it.
So all in all I can deal better with the episode. did I loved it to pieces? no... did I enjoy some bits of it? yes, did I HATE some bits of it? definitely, and did last scene killed me? yes it did and I can’t watch it cos when she hurts it hurts me very deep into my soul...
so... that’s it... idk if this is exactly what you were asking for or expecting but I’m not as good with words as my other fellow emus and I do babble a whole lot... hahaha
xx’s
-Nikki