@mnemoniics said → "i mean to learn what it's like to be free." ( louis to mycroft ) ( src. // accepting )
Not for the first time, Louis James Moriarty surprises him. Mycroft does not consider himself an easy man to surprise— not by any means. Indeed, it has long been the source of his disillusionment with social interaction. Is anything worth conversing about when he can glean the answer himself without nearly as much ado?
Yet, this man— the current ‘M’, as Mycroft declared him in the aftermath— has never fallen into the painfully predictable lines. Since the moment they met, though no introduction was made by the youngest of the three Moriarty brothers, Louis has stood out like a beacon in Mycroft’s mind. It was plain to see, even then, that there was much more to him than the shadows in which he stood, yet what that ‘more’ was lay obscured from even Mycroft’s scrutiny. It was more than likely that even Louis himself did not know the extent of his own potential. It was…intriguing. And even now, he still retains that intrigue in a way other people so seldom do.
Mycroft is not an emotionally driven person— at least, he has trained himself to avoid such things when possible. He does not offer Louis the head position of MI6 out of courtesy. It has nothing to do with the fact that they both now shoulder the sins of their family lines, nor the fact that both of their greatest wishes have fallen like stones into the Thames. (Unwilling as he is to think on that in any circumstance other than the cold isolation of his own home, with nowhere left to put those thoughts but at the forefront of his mind.)
Mycroft offered him this place because he believes in the unknown he has glimpsed lurking in this man. He believes that Louis will not let it go to waste— a belief that has not, thus far, been disappointed. There is a determination in the man, despite his inexperience in the spotlight, and in spite of everything, Mycroft is looking forward to seeing where that determination will lead.
It’s today, as the recent debriefing comes to a close that Mycroft surprises himself. Instead of the usual ‘Well done, M. You are free to take your leave.’, he reaches for further conversation. He asks a question that he doesn’t already know the answer to.
What is it that you mean to do in this life, if I may ask?
There is nothing more unexpected to him than Louis’ answer.
I mean to learn what it's like to be free.
When he considers it from the perspective of all he has seen of Louis, the declaration suits him— yet it was an unfathomable response to Mycroft all the same. After all, he had never associated the life he lives— the life he is inviting Louis to live— with freedom. No matter the eventual benefits that came along with every scrap of power common-born Mycroft Holmes was able to sink his claws into until he held it all, it was always a cage— a chain he had fashioned to suit himself, rather than the life he would have chosen, had he been granted any other option.
Even now, he is not free. He never truly will be.
However, it is thanks to that first proper meeting with the Moriarty brothers all that time ago that he was ever even given a taste. For the first time, a choice had been presented to him— a choice only he could make. In that moment, he decided what he would do— on no one’s decree but his own.
Perhaps that is what this is to Louis, now. Perhaps here, he sees a way forward into the beginnings of a change— one that lies entirely in his hands. Perhaps he does not yet know what it will look like, but perhaps the ‘freedom’ is in the finding out.
“I see…” For the first time since the fall, Mycroft’s voice lacks the subtle despondency that often (more and more often these days) takes root within it. There is a life that sparks into being, understated and sharply controlled as it may be, in the deep notes that give shape to his interest. He sits straighter behind his desk, hands folding on its surface, as his eyes sweep over Louis’ face— not searching, not scrutinizing, but something… else. Wondering, perhaps— as unfamiliar as it feels, it must be.
The clock ticks over the hour silently in the corner of Mycroft’s office, its chime having long been disabled to preserve the sanctity of his own peace, and with a soft exhale, the embodiment of the government rises to his feet to begin gathering his things. It’s late— it is always late by the time he takes his leave, and there is no doubt in his mind that he’ll be working on something at the manor for many more hours to come.
And yet his eyes linger, unbidden, on where Louis stands, and still he doesn’t dismiss him.
“…Such a thing would suit you.” He states instead, matter-of-factly, as if any words of conversation from him are not exceedingly rare— let alone those of such a personal nature. “I must confess that I look forward to seeing what answers you are able to find. I would… not be opposed to further discussion with you.”












