Liar
Summary: One too many nights in between the sheets with Rafe and JJ, the second time he had to save you and a kiss or two leaves you even more confused about your feelings for the handsome blonde boy that just so happens to be your boyfriend’s partner.
mob!jj x reader x mob!rafe fluff and angst (Takes place before Worth It and Consequences. I’ll link those here when I’m finished with them.) PSA: This is my work and you do not have my permission nor do you have the right to claim it as your own. With that being said, reblogs are always appreciated. :)
WARNINGS: unconsensual touching; attempted kidnapping; mentions drugs
With JJ around a lot more these days, you had more opportunities to go out. If you needed to go to the grocery store or run some errands and Rafe wasn’t around sometimes JJ was free, so you often used that to your advantage. You were unbelievably grateful when Rafe came up with the idea one afternoon when he needed to meet with his dad. He frowned when you told him you ran out of your mood stabilizers, but immediately suggested you take JJ instead. Ever since then, when Rafe wasn’t your body guard in public, JJ was.
Today was no different. You had a few things to do and you recruited JJ to tag along. He was more than happy to oblige and didn’t even complain when you dragged him into one of your “girly stores” as the boys liked to call them.
Unbeknownst to the two of you, a man had been following you all day. He was an enemy of Rafe’s. Asher Ridic. The son of Ward’s greatest rival, Damon Ridic. Next to the Cameron’s, the Ridic empire was one of the strongest in the crime industry. The father son duo was known to be as ruthless if not more than Rafe and Ward. With that being said, they always seemed to be more reckless and, often times, quite predictable, leaving the Cameron’s with the upper hand. Today, however, wasn’t one of those days.
Asher followed you and JJ all day. Store to store, somehow blending in enough to not seem suspicious. It took all day, but he was committed. Ever since his dad caught sight of you and Rafe together, you had been their ideal target, but they never seemed to get you alone and anytime they tried to follow you guys home, they somehow always got lost. Needless to say…he wasn’t gonna lose you this time.
Eventually, you and JJ stopped to get something to eat. By the time you were done, JJ was already on his second refill, but swore he didn’t have to go to the bathroom, so you continued on to complete your other errands. You were getting ready to tell JJ this was the last store, but he piped up before you had the chance.
“Are we almost done Angel? I’m getting tired. You wore me out last night.”, he said, winking at you before adding, “Plus…I kind of have to pee now.”, he finished, laughing when you giggled, shyly, and shook your head.
“I told you to go before we left Burger King.”, you said, shoving his shoulder lightly with your own. JJ stared at you for a moment. Eyes filled with love and adoration. You never caught on, which gave him a few extra seconds to study your face before he chuckled out a reply.
“That was before I finished my second sweet tea.”, he said, heart fluttering at the sound of your laugh hitting his ears again. Oh how he loved that laugh…
“Well then it’s your lucky day. We’re heading into our last store and I know there’s a bathroom in here.”, you said, opening the door to your favorite antique shop. When you walked in, you pointed JJ in the direction of the bathroom and he made you promise to stay right in front of the door to wait for him, but it was your favorite store and something immediately caught your eye. You looked at the bathroom door before making your way over to the cute knick knacks sitting a few feet away. Besides, the shelf was only a couple steps from the men’s bathroom and JJ said he’d only be a minute.
Needless to say, after you made it to the dainty, little trinkets some more peaked your interest a few more feet away and somehow you eventually ended up on the opposite end of the shop…conveniently, where Asher was waiting to make his move. He didn’t have time to waste, so he quickly made his way over to you and pretended like he was asking you a question about the store.
“Miss, do you know where I can find some old mason jars in here? I collect them.”, he said, smiling in your face as if he wasn’t getting ready to pull a knife on you. The sudden noise startled you and made you realize how far away you were from the bathroom. You turned around to face the stranger and nervously smiled back.
“Uh, yeah. I think they’re over here.”, you said, pointing behind him to a shelf closer to the door. You started walking towards it, but then you felt something on your back and the man was suddenly whispering in your ear.
“You move and this knife is going straight in your gut. Got it?”, he said, leading you to the door as you nodded in agreement, silently cursing yourself for wandering away from the bathroom door. Rafe had always warned you that something like this might happen. That’s why he never let you leave the house alone or out of his sight for even a few moments. He had done everything he could to prevent this from happening and you knew he’d blame JJ, but this one…was on you.
Once you were out of the shop, he led you down an alleyway on the side of the building. He pushed you into the wall behind a dumpster, so that nobody would see the two of you and held the knife to your throat.
“You make a sound and your dead. Understand?”, Asher asked, to which you slowly nodded. “Good girl.”, he finished, with a strange smile on his face. Usually, you would’ve loved being called a good girl, but it felt wrong coming from his lips and not JJ or Rafe’s. More than wrong. It felt disgusting.
“I get why Rafe likes you so much. You’re a pretty little thing aren’t ya? I just might keep you for myself.”, he said, bringing the knife up to lightly slide it down your cheek. Another thing that would turn you on…if Rafe was the one holding it. You shook your head “no”, a tear slipping from your eye and whispered a reply.
“Please-“, you started, but were cut off by his knife being pressed back to your throat.
“Now, I thought you understood the directions. I’m talking, you’re listening.”, he said, digging the knife harder into your throat. You swore if you were to breathe, it would’ve drawn blood.
“Where’s that boyfriend of yours hmm? I seen his little side kick with you, but no Rafe. What kind of guy does that? Maybe if he really cared he’d make sure you were safe himself.”, he spat out, trying to get into your head, but it wasn’t going to work. His words had little to no effect on you. You knew how Rafe felt about you and some random thug wasn’t going to make you doubt that. It didn’t stop you from being scared of what this maniac was capable of, though.
“Now, how about I take you out of this alley, you tell me everything I want to know, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll let you live and take real good care of you. How’s that sound sweetheart?”, he asked, with a nasty and suggestive smile, but before he could continue, a different, more familiar voice interrupted him.
“Yeah I don’t think that’s gonna happen dipfuck.”, JJ said from beside the two of you. Asher quickly pulled you to the middle of the alley to face JJ with the knife on your throat. All the while JJ, just as quickly, grabbed his gun and pointed it at him. You would’ve been scared that he would accidentally shoot you if you didn’t know any better, but JJ was a perfect shot and when you seen his gun, all you felt was relief. Leave it to J to bring a gun to a knife fight…I will forever be grateful for that handsome lunatic.
Asher let out an eerie laugh and pressed the knife a little harder into your throat making JJ grit his teeth.
“You move and she’s dead Maybank. Choose wisely.”, he said, holding you tight against his chest while keeping the knife steady and firm.
“Alright, well you so much as hurt a hair on her head and YOU’RE dead. How’s that sound?”, JJ said, keeping the gun pointed directly at him. Asher just laughed again and started swaying the two of you side to side. He leaned over and kissed your cheek, which made you grimace and JJ clench his jaw.
“Honestly, I think I’m just gonna take her with me. You know what they say, finders keepers losers, well…lose.”, he said, snickering when JJ rolled his eyes.
“Good luck with that.”, he said, steadying his gun, making Asher tighten the knife. You knew there would be a mark from that one, but you also knew that he would pay for it later.
“Oh yeah, I’m so scared Maybank. I think you and I both know who has the upper hand here.”, he said, bringing his free hand up to grip your hair and yank it back. With your face tilted towards the sky, he traced your jaw with the knife and brought it to your collarbone. Unbeknownst to him though, Asher had made a mistake.
When he had shuffled you to the side, he left JJ with a clear shot of his arm. As soon as the knife was far enough away from your throat, JJ shot him twice. Once in the shoulder and once a little lower on his bicep. The knife instantly dropped from his hand and you quickly ran over to JJ, tucking yourself behind him and clinging to his shirt. He stepped back towards you, but never took his eyes off Asher. He was wounded, clutching his arm in pain, knife long forgotten about, but JJ wasn’t convinced that he wasn’t a threat anymore and he couldn’t take any chances…not with you. He grabbed your hand and lightly pulled you behind himself. Once he was to Asher’s body, JJ kicked the knife away, leaned down and put the gun to his head.
“If you ever touch her again, I’ll cut off your limbs and feed them to you one by one. Choose wisely.”, he said, mocking Asher’s previous words before straightening himself out once more and turning around to usher you to the car. Before the two of you could make it out of the alleyway, Asher laughed and made a comment back to JJ.
“Damn Maybank. Gone soft for Rafe’s girl. If I didn’t know any better, I’d say she’s slutting herself out for the both of y-.”, but he didn’t get to finish his sentence because as soon as he heard the word “slut”, JJ seen red, stomped over to him and kicked him as hard as he could in the rib cage, no doubt breaking some bones. Asher groaned loudly and JJ leaned down to speak to him again.
“Watch your fucking mouth, cunt.”, he said, before clocking Asher across the face with the butt of his gun. That was enough to knock him unconscious, but JJ couldn’t stop there. He propped Asher up against the side of the building and started wailing on him. His head swung side to side with each punch JJ landed to his face. You watched in surprise and shock as Ashers face slowly became bloodied and bruised. It was only for a second or two, but you couldn’t bring yourself to move. Or talk. Or do anything. You quickly snapped out of it once you heard voices from the street. If anyone found you right now JJ would go to jail and that would be a bigger problem than it was worth, so you made your way over to him and tried to start reasoning with him.
“Um…J? I think we should go.”, you said, not too loud, but surely not a whisper. However, JJ didn’t hear you. He could barely even see, that’s how angry he was. His vision was black and his ears were ringing. This guy had just basically called you a slut. He wasn’t gonna let him get away with that. No one called his girl a slut…except him…and Rafe.
You gave JJ a few seconds to stop hitting Asher, but he never did, which made you antsy. People were bound to come down this alley eventually and you couldn’t risk anyone taking JJ away…especially for murder.
“J, come on we gotta go. It’s not worth it.”, you said a little louder, making your way over to him as you spoke. He still couldn’t hear you over the sound of Asher’s voice in his head. “She’s probably slutting herself out for the both of you.” Fucking prick.
Meanwhile, you were in full panic mode. JJ clearly wasn’t worried about getting caught right now, but that was the only thing on your mind. You couldn’t care less about Asher’s bitch ass. If you weren’t in public, you would’ve just let him beat that asshole to a pulp, but you were in public and you couldn’t risk JJ doing time for this. You wouldn’t be able to handle it.
“JJ stop!”, you yelled. “We need to fucking go…now!”, you said, a little quieter, but just as stern. That did the trick. JJ quickly snapped his head to look at you. You softened your gaze at the sight of his flushed face and blown out baby blues. He was so worked up all because some nobody called you a slut and you were flattered to say the least, but mostly shocked. Sure, you knew JJ cared for you, but you didn’t expect him to almost kill somebody for you. In its own sick, twisted way…it was really sweet…and kind of hot…
He pushed Asher against the dumpster, so that he would be hidden a bit better and made his way over to you. You couldn’t help but notice that he didn’t come too close and sort of looked like a kicked puppy, but you didn’t mention it.
He didn’t say anything on the way back to the car, just made sure that you were slightly in front of him the whole time so that he could ensure your safety. Once you were there, he opened your door for you and you quietly thanked him, surprised when he didn’t respond.
When JJ got in the driver’s seat, tension filled the air. You couldn’t quite describe it, but all you knew was he was being weird and it was making you uneasy. Determined to get to the bottom of it, you came up with an idea that you knew would work.
“J? What’s wrong? Are you mad at me?”, you asked, knowing the answer, but playing along with your plan. He quickly looked over at you for a second in shock, before fixing his gaze back to the road.
“Of course not. I thought you were mad at me.”, he said, confused at your question.
“Why would I be mad at you?”, you asked, wondering what was going on in his head. He’d just saved your life and you weren’t quite understanding how you could possibly be mad about that. JJ just shrugged at your question and quickly deflected it.
“You first.”, he said, not wanting to feel so vulnerable. You sighed and looked out the window.
“I mean, you asked me to stay by the bathroom and I wandered off. This one’s on me.”, you said, surprised when JJ let out a soft chuckle.
“Yeah, but that’s not your fault. He was probably following us for awhile and how were you supposed to know that some scumbag was stalking us all day? If anything, this one’s on me. I should’ve paid more attention.”, he said, gripping the wheel a little tighter at the thought of his carelessness.
“Is that why you thought I was mad at you? JJ you’re my personal body guard everywhere we go and I am so thankful for that. You had to pee. God forbid. Besides you saved me…again.”, you said, referring to how you and JJ met, earning a small chuckle from him that, in turn, made you smile. When you turned to look out the window again, you noticed that you were almost home, but you weren’t ready to go quite yet, so you quickly spoke up. “Hey can we stop somewhere before we go home? I’m not ready to be all cooped up again.”, you asked, looking over to him with hopeful eyes as if you didn’t already know his answer.
“Yeah yeah, sure, whatever you want.”, he said, smiling over at you when you clapped lightly in excitement. You gave him directions to a lake about 5 minutes away from the house you shared with Rafe and got out as soon as the car was in park. You rushed over to JJ’s side of the car and sent him a shy smile through the window. He shook his head and chuckled at you, before taking the keys out of the ignition.
As soon as the door was open, you were dragging him down a path by his hand, never taking time to notice the blush that crept on his face when your skin met his.
The path was steep and JJ could tell you were leading him up a hill, but when the two of you got to the top, he was shocked. From the top of the incline, you two had a perfect view of the entire lake. The sun was glistening through the trees and hitting the water, making the scene look even more ethereal. He was absolutely amazed at the sight before him, but when JJ looked over to ask you how you had found this place, his heart skipped a few beats. You were just standing there with a tender smile on your face, appreciating the beautiful scenery before you, but the only beauty he could appreciate was yours. You were perfect to him. The way your eyes sparkled as you drank in your surroundings. The way your hair was slightly messy from the wind. The way your face lit up the longer you two stood there. Damn…I knew I was into her, but I didn’t think I was in love.
When you finally looked over to him, he forgot what he wanted to say. He just couldn’t stop staring at you. He was sure he’d never seen something or someone so beautiful before. Between the view and the way you glowed at the sight of it, JJ found himself completely entranced by you. Unbeknownst to him though, his intense gaze quickly started making you nervous.
“What?”, you asked, trying to gauge the look in his eyes. JJ just smiled and shook his head, looking away from you to soak in the scenery once more. His reaction made you close the gap between the two of you and lightly shove him with a scoff.
“Whattt?”, you asked again with a little pout, but smiling when he stumbled back a bit. JJ moved closer to you until he was directly in front of you. If he had stepped any closer your chests would’ve been touching, but you wouldn’t of cared. You liked being close to JJ. It wasn’t until he moved his hand to tuck a piece of stray hair behind your ear that you got nervous again and his next words didn’t help.
“You just look stunning. Especially here, ya know? You’re practically sparkling sweetheart and it’s fucking mesmerizing.”, he said, moving his hand from your hair to caress your cheek. You felt your face heat up at his words and your heart beat a little faster when he leaned closer to you.
“Wh-What are y-you doing J?”, you muttered out. Your brain was screaming at you to push him away, tell him that your relationship was purely a sexual one, but your heart wouldn’t let you tell that lie.
“Not anything you don’t want me to do Angel.”, he whispered back, slowly getting closer to your face as his eyes flicked between your own and your lips. “Tell me to stop.”, he said, challenging you in a flirty manner, but your head was too foggy to say much of anything. Once JJ’s nose was touching yours you closed your eyes and let out a sigh. The feeling of his breath on your lips almost made you lean in, but guilt started creeping it’s way inside of you, so you pressed your hands against his chest. You didn’t put in any effort to push him away, but it made him stop moving closer. He instantly dropped his spare hand to rest on your waist as he lightly rubbed circles into the skin of your cheek.
“Just tell me to stop.”, JJ huffed out, wanting more than anything to just close the distance between your lips, but he also wanted to respect you.
When you didn’t say anything and you didn’t push him away, JJ moved slightly closer to you making his lips brush across yours ever so lightly that it made your breath hitch in your throat. He gave you a few more seconds to let you turn him down before softly kissing you. You instantly moved your hands to his hair and he dropped his other hand down to hold your waist. The two of you were already familiar with each other, having kissed dozens of times, but this was different. You couldn’t put your finger on it for a second, too wrapped up in the man in front of you to think of anything else, but then it dawned on you. This was the first time that you had ever kissed JJ outside of the bedroom. The first time that you had ever kissed him without the promise of sex afterwards. It was still passionate, but it was special in a way that you couldn’t even describe. I could kiss him this way for hours, you thought, until Rafe popped into your head. He had always made it clear that the relationship between you and JJ was strictly a sexual one, but only when he was around. When you and JJ were alone, you were supposed to act like you were “just friends”. As if you hadn’t seen each other naked or done…other things a billion times.
“JJ’s not your boyfriend. No sense acting like he is. You’re mine.”, Rafe had said, before proving it to you by fucking you on the kitchen counter…and then again on the couch…and then again in front of your bedroom mirror. Needless to say, you were made completely aware of the fact that you and JJ were just supposed to be “friends with benefits”, yet here you were, breaking Rafe’s rules. As the feeling of guilt slowly crept over you, you found yourself pulling away from JJ just enough to speak to him without making your lips touch again. You kept your eyes closed and your forehead against his, voice coming out barely above a whisper.
“JJ, we can’t.”, you breathed out into the thick air that sat between the two of you. It wasn’t what you wanted, but you weren’t used to getting what you wanted anyway and it was pretty much a catch 22 in the first place. If you continued breaking the rules with JJ, you would feel like you’re betraying Rafe, but on the other hand, part of you longed to defy Rafe’s wishes, just sit in JJ’s arms for hours and get to know him better. It felt wrong to you, being in love with two men, but in some weird way, it also felt right.
“Why? I know you want me and I want you…so bad.”, he whispered back, stepping the slightest bit closer to you, so that your lips were barely touching once again. You leaned into him more and almost kissed him, but you tilted your head down so that your noses were still touching, but your lips were not.
“You know why.”, you said, softly kissing his cheek, but that just upset him, making JJ pull away from you completely. Your eyes immediately shot open to see him running his fingers through his hair and lightly shaking his head, before snapping at you.
“See that’s what I’m talking about. You’re not just lying to me and Rafe, you’re lying to yourself too.” …Ouch
“J, plea-.”, you started, but JJ quickly cut you off.
“No. Okay. Just no, Y/N. I’ve tried to understand, you know, I get it. You love Rafe. But I know what rests beneath those lies that you tell yourself to help you sleep at night. I know that you love me too. I can see it in your eyes. You might have Rafe fooled and maybe even yourself, but not me.”, he said, before turning around and walking back to the car.
You stood in shock for a few moments, dazed by the rollercoaster of emotions that you had to endure for the entire day, but you didn’t want to lose JJ so you let your feet carry you back down the path. All that you could think of on the way down was what he had said to you and it wasn’t until you reached the car that you realized something strange.
Almost getting kidnapped wasn’t nearly as scary as the thought of losing JJ over a few baseless lies. What the actual fuck is wrong with me?
Sidenote: ending sucks as always BUT I have lots of fics coming to make up for that it just might take me a little while to finish them, but they’re on the way. that includes the requests I’ve gotten <3
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