muse questions: 1, 11, 14, and 17!
chloe dammit you made me go on a rant and this became so goddamn long wow
What makes you the most emotional about your muse?
everything lmao i am one ball of varying emotions about kamyu pffht. But i guess this ask means emotional in the ‘aching’ way (?)
Well, mostly, and I’m suuuure this is clear by how non-subtly i keep reblogging quotes that relate to her, his devotion & loyalty for his queen. Like. Listen.Camus loves his queen & country more than his own life. He ALWAYS puts her first, ALWAYS. He says this at the end of his all star route, too, that Haruka must understand that she’ll be the SECOND most important to him, not the first. (this is why after secret is bullshit when camus leaves his queen lmao)Camus is conceited and arrogant and really loathes almost everything not related to silk palace, and that’s because he always always ALWAYS compares things to silk palace/the queen, and nothing will ever come close to them – he’s always aware of how things are different from his country and because his loyalty & devotion is an INTEGRAL PART OF HIS PERSONALITY, he puts his country on a pedestal, meaning everything foreign is LESS: less beautiful, less organised, less charming, less intelligent, etc etc. Yes, Camus is a dick to everyone and is incredibly proud BECAUSE HE IS PROUD TO SERVE SOMEONE LIKE THE QUEEN. He’s the perfect knight, count, the perfect spy, knight, protector – anything, because he was raised to be one and he is almost boasting to others 'look what a great man i am, someone like me serves someone EVEN MORE magnificent than i’, etc; i’m not going to say he’s not an arrogant twat otherwise, but this arrogance is ALSO a way of serving his queen, it’s to make her look even more regal than she already is. Do you know why it’s so difficult for him to care about anything? This ^^^^!!! this ^^^all!!! Camus was BRED (yes you heard that right) to serve the queen! His very BIRTH was a political ploy to unite two houses! He was raised to serve her! His purpose in life is to serve her and he FIRMLY BELIEVES – no he MADE this a truth!!! No one can easily make him think otherwise, no one. One of my tags for him is 'o heartless man’ and you know what, he is. But it’s not because he doesn’t have one, it’s because he has already reserved his entire heart: all of his affection, friendship, love, devotion, he has reserved all of this for one person –who embodies one nation – alone, and he is set on keeping it that way.
So. What makes me emotional is how Camus will give his life for his queen and country. WITHOUT HESITATION. That’s something that makes me very (clenches fist) about him asjgdsjf. AND something that many people forget. There’s so much good angst to be had with Camus about this topic too, pfheh. Well. One day.
What do you hate about your muse?
Pfhah. Hate… such a strong word… I don’t think I hate anything about him because he’s my son. Even though he’s a nasty man… it’s impossible for me to say I hate anything about him. That only counts bc he’s fictional & my muse, though. If I were to meet him irl i’d hate his guts. He’s too strict. He’s rude. He’s conceited. I’d be scared of him and avoid him, probably, and talk shit behind his back. His princely guise would probably charm me but when i’d find out it’s all fake i’d be mortified and AGAIN avoid him like the plague lololol. But that’s a what if. It’s not the case. I love my son as I would any other son. He can do no wrong – or, he can, and i’ll scold him for it, but he’s still allowed to come home.
How would you describe your muse to someone about to meet them, in person, for the first time?
'camus is a dick ok he hates all of us –look you’re going to think he’s hot and princely but dont fall for it he’s a fake ass hoe ok. don’t. just don– dammit.’
Why do you think you connect to your muse?
Why indeed. And, do I even? I can’t say me and camus are exceptionally alike in character. He’s hard-working, serious, driven, courageous, bitter & of course a total bitch. I only share two of those six traits I’ve listed with him, and they’re probably the only ones of all the traits I can use to describe him. I can’t really say I connect with camus because he’s bitter like me, or a total bitch like me. I can’t say it’s because I admire him, either – not that I don’t admire him, I genuinely think he’s an incredibly admirable individual and he might have a nasty personality and is super demanding, but he never demands anything but perfection from himself, so… at least he’s not a hypocrite in THAT aspect. But I don’t admire him 'wow I wish I were like him’ way.
So, huh, what is it, then?I remember Russ teasing me a lot with his character when he only recently was introduced. I didn’t like him at all. Or maybe I did but I was too tsun to admit it, haha. I only really started liking him when I finished his route. It’s not really about connection, I think, but more that his route really appealed to me, and that unwavering loyalty of his (see above) – which explains a LOT about his behaviour – just really touched me. I cried during his route, lmao, when he was talking about how much he loves his queen. The fact that he’s a character who is so focused on professionalism, cold to everyone, keeping his distance… the fact that, in spite of what he appears, he has so much devotion and affection for his queen (and not even in a romantical way) and country, but is unable (& unwilling) to show the same type of affection for other characters? I adore it. Maybe I connect with his intense loneliness and isolation, and understand how that can make him so bitter. Maybe. Who knows? I honestly have no clear explanation for it.
In the end, the fact that he has an understandable reason for acting the way he does definitely did make it easier for me to connect with him. He’s a dick, yes, but I can see why. And I play him possibly like a huger dick than the canon wants us to believe he is (because utapri prefers to be sparkly and genki), but that doesn’t mean i think he’s a terrible person. Far from it. I mean I always shame him (he deserves it) in my tags, but really he’s capable of being a 12/10 great man. When he wants to. I believe in him <3 be it in the role of a villain and hero and something in-between. He’s so versatile! He can be anything~. You keep doing you, kamyu (smooches him and runs).
