Just Stay Alive (series)
Title: Just Stay Alive (series)
Author: Dira Sudis (dsudis) @dsudis
Link: http://archiveofourown.org/series/99032 (AO3)
Ship: Bucky/Sam, Steve/Sam, Sam/Steve, Bucky/Steve, Bucky/Sam/Steve
Rating: Explicit
Major Tags: Polyamory, Threesome, Dissociation, Amnesia, PTSD, Bucky Barnes has Issues, First Kiss, Cuddling & Snuggling
Summary:
Pt 1: He could learn to be Sam’s friend, even if he hadn’t figured out yet how to be Steve’s.
Pt. 2: Today, on this morning, while Sam stood here in his PJs, his boyfriend Captain America was in his kitchen eating yogurt, and Sam had to figure out how to tell him that he’d kind of arguably cheated on him with the Winter Soldier who was also, incidentally, Bucky Barnes, the other half of the thus-far-tragic love story of Steve Rogers’ epic life.
Pt. 3: “I’ll keep watch,” Bucky said, and Steve jumped. Sam could only manage a twitch, but he meant it with every fiber of his where the hell did you come from being. Bucky was just there somehow, standing in the slice of shadow to one side of the room’s window. “Sleep, both of you,” Bucky repeated. “I’ve got this watch.”
Review’s name: chicklette
Review: So, here I am, a lost little chicklette fresh into the MCU, and I stumble onto this fic. This fucking fic.
This fic, where I read the tags and said, oh, yeah. Oh yeah, of course Sam is part of the love affair that is Steve and Bucky and Sam. Of course. Duh!
This series begins sometime after the Triskelion falls. Bucky is trying to figure out who he is, who Bucky is so that he can get back to Steve, because Steve is still his mission. Only the mission now is assist and protect, and so Bucky sets out trying to do that.
And so he begins first by creeping on Sam and Steve, trying to figure out who they are to one another so that he can figure out who he might be to them. The story is told with perspective from Sam and Bucky, and it is heartbreaking, heart aching, and, by the time it’s over, just beautiful.
It’s told in three parts, and each leads beautifully into the next, and you keep reading and reading, and next thing you know, boom! You’ve spent another whole day wrapped up in a beautiful, beautiful fic.
Sometimes I’m almost mad that this is one of the first fics I read in this fandom. I immediately sought out all manner of OT3fic, and found startling little available. What’s worse, is that damn few OT3 fics render each of these men as beautifully as dsudis does with this tale. It’s an absolutely beautiful story, from beginning to end, and all of it feels very much in character to me.
IDK, man, go read it. It’s just stunning.









