Some gold-handed editor on tt (shalmi) made a Hollanov edit to Monetochka - Sеlfharm song and it's. it's perfect. it broke me and healed me at the same time.
I NEED YOU, global fans, to read the translation of Russian lyrics and how damn deeply it fits Ilya Rozanov character and his love for Shane - and then watch the edit for extra emotional damage 💔 (Spoilers for The Long Game book though!!)
[Ilya part] I smell like sеlfharm, I smell like a really bad plan I smell like childhood trauma and tantrums till the morning Like an awkward pause, an unventilated room I smell like distrust towards psychotherapists, and My smell is 100% cortisol I hide my feelings behind a clown mask. Lol. I smell of jealousy and hatred, but Don't be afraid, I'll punish myself later [Mixed part] I smell like being afraid to look you in the eyes Like years of searching for words but never saying them I smell like exposed wire, panic for no reason (loon lol) Like a depressed city [Shane part] And you smell like calmness, like silence in the head You are like ten hours of uninterrupted sleep You are Thursday, you are 16:00 You are chamomile tea and peacefulness
English translation from here
P.S. it's not in the edit, but the rest of the song chorus is:
I always cry, but you smell like that No Tears shampoo Like care, like home, like an ability to love seriously and for a long time, To love endlessly
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