It's been a while since I've written on my blog here, but it does not limit my ability to love you. Anyway, I should not deny the fact that I always missed you, I just wanted to see you when I stoop down to my lowest, just to hold me and tell me that everything's going to be fine, with that big fat laugh of yours. Well, It's been surprising that you randomly come to meet me and Mama, it makes us feel we are not alone even in the midst of all the chaos going on around us, you are truly a big comfort for us.
It's the monsoon season now, and I'm pretty sure every rain that kisses the earth is gonna remind me of you. If I haven't forgotten, after I met you when you were here, it would rain. And from that time onwards, I used to see rain as a sign of our love. I wish I could spend some time with you in this monsoon too. I feel calm and happy, realizing the fact that even if you are far from me physically you're closer to me in heart.
As I scrolled through our old chats, I remember you asking me to be a catechism teacher. You always wanted me to be someone in life and Jesus has blessed me with a person who really encourages me. And YES! I did join the catechism department, as the choir in charge and substitute teacher. My luck factor indeed.
I want to make a lot of memories with you, but I don't know whether it will be possible any day, but it's not wrong to dream na. I even forgot about my dad at times, because I found all that love and warmth just from you. Every teeny tiny step I took ahead, I always discussed with Mama and the next person I'd ask would be you. You have taken almost every roles in my life.
Each time you carried me, each time you hugged me tight, and every time you made me feel loved, I realized how blessed and lucky I am to have you with me. There is a lot to write... I guess this is enough for now... Be my first and last love forever......!