Sep 10, 2025
things i wanna get for my fall wardrobe this year. do you understand do you see the vision
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things i wanna get for my fall wardrobe this year. do you understand do you see the vision
shot count ive had 5 and have 6+7 poured
i just went through all my clothes bc im moving in with my gf and it reminded me of all the cute summer clothes that i can't wear unless i lose weight so we're locking tf in again <3 and im doing the whole shabang, like im doing before and after pics and everything. gonna weigh myself at the gym tomorrow and work out every day frfrfr
anyway tw:my body under the cut (pics of me currently and also me at my lw for motivation)
how ive been getting my protein and fiber recently. i discovered that i actually hate chia seeds but they're like the easiest way to get low cal fiber so i mix them into a small part of my cottage cheese and force myself to eat it before i can have the untainted cottage cheese 😭😭😭
might bp some chips and dip later idk
oh also on the ed side of things rn im eating like someone who isn't disordered but i haven't given up on losing weight, now that i have Big Girl Money from my very good job im gonna start doing a ton of boxing classes and get so toned and so hot. im becoming what i hate (gym bro who clearly has an ed but nobody cares bc they have muscles and aren't bone thin)
sooooo uh update time ig for anyone who's still here bc it's been awhile 😭😭 ive been busy ok
i lost my job in september and couldn't find a new one bc the job market is shit rn, my gf cheated on me by kissing a friend while visiting her hometown for christmas, i decided not to break up with her about it but said she was on thin ice, and then the ice turned out to be thicker than i thought bc i kept accepting her being kinda mean to me (she has bpd and was trying to push me away type beat), then we moved into her mom's basement (half of which is currently being renovated and will be a full apartment that we can live in soon) in the hopes that the job market would be better here and i could actually find a job, i became friends with the girl my gf cheated on me with bc she's actually chill and Didn't Know, she got me a rly good job at her workplace which i really like and am doing really well at and im making a bunch of friends there, since we moved my relationship with my gf has improved sososo much which i can get into separately tbh bc i think there's a lot to why it got better so fast, and i have employer paid healthcare so i can get back on my meds soon so im actually really happy and satisfied with my life rn?
still an alcoholic though (my current work hours are helping me drink less though) so im day drinking on my day off rn
ive been meaning to talk to my gf about something she said that rly bothered me but i keep putting it off bc the stress of not knowing how that conversation will go is making me constantly nauseous which means im eating less 😭😭 never let anyone tell you an ed won't affect the rest of your life