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The funger queen herself Recently got into the games so gonna try make some other fanart :)

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Another peaceful day :)

Just stopped preparing for tomorrow's interview. I kind of feel like it's enough preparation work (actually I'm just lazy!) done for tomorrow so now I should just have my fingers crossed!

A cheer for myself!

The bottom right hand corner of my screen says '10.22 27/1/2015'. Oh wow, it's nearly the end of January, how weird is that. I feel like I have done so much and gone through a lot of ups and downs (mostly ups - getting invitations for interviews from uni, realising how supportive my parents and friends are (special thanks to Elaine who helped me with my interview preparation tonight <3). I am genuinely pleased about how much I have been able to achieve, like seriously well done me :3

This afternoon, I had a practice interview with Miss Marshall, the biology head. I used to think that Miss Marshall is one of the scariest people I have ever met. Through the interview practice, I actually realised how nice, helpful and friendly she could be :) I guess it's always good (and never too late) to realise that your teacher is actually nice... although we are leaving Benenden in a couple of months' time... :P Oh well.

Feel!

I had quite an interesting conversation with Mr Wong today, on the topic of what makes us feel nice and refreshed. It's really weird to realise that I am not paying enough attention to this sort of things right now because of being too focused on work and the others. I mentioned that the fresh breeze of autumn, beautiful flowers, and even stars, used to give me really nice, positive feelings. I guess the reason why I am not feeling as strongly right now is mainly because I am taking most things for granted right now and actually knowing the scientific explanation behind things isn't necessarily good - like your brain ends up explaining everything to you and laying everything out logically to you - it's like eating a packed lunch where everything is chosen and prepared for you. It can make things quite dull at times.

I honestly miss the times when stars would fascinate me. It's been so long since I last felt like that. When was it? Hmm probably when I was around 7... ahh so much happened when I was 7.

Sometimes I feel like my mood is becoming quite stable... I no longer care too much to the point where I would feel a little mental explosion in my head. And I feel happy and grateful really easily too. I guess that's because I'm growing up and becoming more mature? I don't know but pass me that doughnut on the table or else I would stare at you creepily forever. Did someone mention becoming more mature?

zZ and tomorrow!

Sleep is always really important to me. It feels so damn good - it's like when your crush asks you out on a date. (ha as if I knew what it feels like haha I'm really funny).

So in order to maintain my health, I guess it might be a nice idea for me to pop under my duvet and do some practice on writing the alphabet Z. My prep school teachers should be pleased to hear that as I absolutely hated copybooks back then.

And hmm for tomorrow... I don't know... am I prepared? Well that's not really important now is it? I guess I should just try my best and show them what I got in my pockets :D (shh don't tell them about the bagels...) Wish myself luck and have fun eating at Le Pain Quotidien and Tokyo DIner (or Wasabi? yea anything like that would do :D)!! 

Ahh and before I go - yes medical fact of the day:

I just read on BBC health that over-the-counter drugs which contain anticholinergic* substances can increase one's risk of getting dementia. (*Acetylcholine is a type of neurotransmitter). Detailed explanations of the underlying reasons are still to be discovered. 

(More info - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-30988643)

Goodnight everyone and I'll update you on my interview in tomorrow's post :D

Moody Potato

xoxo

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Insecure yet happy :3

Hey there, welcome to my blog :D

So after all these year, I decided that it would be quite nice to start a blog so that I can keep a record of stuff that has happened to myself (in case I forget about everything after passing the young age of 90).

It's all about medicine!

These days have been so good - I have been spending quite a bit of time on reading medical articles, like articles on organ donation, cancers (diagnosis, treatment, symptoms and causes), homeopathy, penetrating keratoplasty and etc. Yep a lot of fun stuff - just like a quick dose of glucose.

Sometimes I am pitied for having to read up and do so many extra tests and exams for medicine, but to be honest I really enjoy doing all that. I find it really fun to challenge myself and excel in the process. I know this sounds quite cliche (like what you would say at an interview! :P) but that's my genuine feeling and it's great ^_^

To be honest, if you asked me two years ago why I am choosing medicine as the course to study at uni, I would probably tell you that it's because I don't really know what I want to do in the future but I got good grades so why not. But now, I can finally say to the others that it's because of my real interest in medical science. Trust me, it's really interesting, and I'll be telling you why in my upcoming posts... hmm actually maybe in this one as well :D

Interview!

Actually I am feeling really excited for my interview on Wednesday right now, as to me it's not just an interview. It's a heck of a fun trip to London. I have now learnt how to treat myself well and here's what I'm going to do - I'll leave school pretty early, get a train to Waterloo East and tube to Canary Wharf, have lunch at LPQ (which I think is one of the loveliest restaurants in the world and it's perfect for work as well :D), go for my interview and end my trip by going to Chinatown for a quick meal before heading back! Sounds fun right, I know! ^_^

Friends and self-value!

Okay I'm kind of worried that I would put everything in this post and have nothing to say in my next one but... oh well who cares :3

I had never imagined that my friends would play an important role in my role and how I value myself and all that kind of shitzel. I hate thinking about how much I mean to the others and how important I am, as I had always been an extremely negative person who has like what... -99.98% self-confidence? I tried to blame that on hormones but I realised that they're in me. In those genes. GENES. F U GENES. #middlefingersalute nah just joking. Actually it's not entirely genetic, it down to environmental factors too. I realised that it's really important to have real friends who you can actually communicate with. They might not necessarily have common interests as you, but they should be happy for you when you mention to them about being able to find something that truly interests you. And feel free to call me needy, but I really like it when friends remember me even when I am not with them. It's really sweet. :-) 

I kind of think that I have found some good friends and I am really grateful and happy to have them, as the last time when I had a great friend was back when I was around 7, when we were still innocent and treasure each other a lot. The friends that I have now matter a lot to me - they are like my food for my soul (okay this is creepy.. sorry) and I genuinely cannot live without them :) Thank you people, especially those who have to listen to me talking about how fascinating certain random medical facts are :P 

This is getting a little long and maybe quite boring, so I'm going to end this post by sharing with you one of the interesting things I have recently learnt about~

Sneaky little bitches - alkylating agents

Okay so don't freak out yet, they aren't as complicated to understand as they might sound.

Alkylating agents are basically cytotoxic (cell killing) drugs that can bind to DNA strands of cancerous cells with their alkyl groups. When the DNA strands try to separate for the production of protein and cell proliferation, they break instead as alkylating agents are so strongly attached to them and therefore lead to apoptosis (programmed cell death).

Hmm very sneaky. Very very sneaky. But well done.

And again, feel free to pop me an email about anything at all! :-) I would be starting a newsletter thing - it would be about life hacks, medical and scientific fun facts, recipes (nom nom nom food yus) and maybe some stuff about myself... If you're interested in subscribing (or just brave enough) to the newsletter, leave a comment or drop me an email! :D My email address is [email protected] :)

Moody Potato

xoxo