trigger warning: eating disorders
harsh moon-jupiter aspects (square, opposition, especially conjunction) can indicate, at its most extreme manifestation, an eating disorder. moon touching jupiter can mean that our eating habits are keyed to our emotional state – you can easily feel physically nauseated when you’re in a bad mental state because, when you’re sad, it’s like your body closes itself from its own basic needs; at the same time, whenever you feel empty or bored, you resort to over-eating.
this can also indicate a mother (or any authority figure in your childhood, gender is a dumb concept anyway) who was very particular about the food you ate. perhaps whenever you wouldn’t eat they’d explode in a fit of anger, or they were very criticizing of your body so they forced you into diets, eating “properly” so you could fit the image that they wanted you to. you might’ve been forced to eat more than you needed. this could be especially frustrating if the person didn’t provide you with emotional support, instilling confusion as to why they care so much about your eating habits if they don’t care about giving you affection, or any other emotional need that isn’t being met. through those experiences, the native develops a complicated relationship with food; when the mother figure leaves the native’s life, they could resort to stop eating whenever they felt like “revolting”, or binge eat until they almost threw up just to be somehow in control of their pain. they could also develop a very distorted view of their appearance, thus causing an eating disorder.
another indicator for developing an eating disorder is saturn in taurus – saturn places restrictions wherever he goes and this could indicate someone who obsessively focuses on their appearance and creates a sense of uncomfort in one’s own body or home, and a difficult relationship with food earlier in life.
another indicator that i’ve found is jupiter in the 1st house. the 1st house deals with our sense of identity and, especially if it conjuncts the ascendant, our appearance – and placing jupiter here... i’ve observed it on people who are dependent on others’ validation in the younger years due to a lack of emotional support in the household (oftentimes, divorced parents), and turn to their friends for that. their bodies can have developed very early in life, making them prone to being made fun of in school for their weight or even bullied and overly sexualized. and because they placed their friends’ opinions so highly, it can cause them to believe there truly is something wrong with their appearance and they need to “fix” it, instilling in them a fear that they’re not good enough and a battle with themselves, their appearance, and food.
now, this is more of a personal observation, but a lot of people with a heavy 6th house especially if it includes sun/moon/venus have struggled with an eating disorder. these people are self-aware to a painful extent and they extremely perfectionist especially with themselves – whenever they see a “flaw”, they do anything in their power to destroy it. the 6th house rules our daily routine, and when the native feels like they have no control over where their life is heading (and their biggest fear is losing control), they may try to exert control over what they’re eating, paying a lot of mind to calorie intake and trying all sorts of diets. they also tend to compare themselves a lot to other people; when they idealize someone who they look up to, ask themselves “why can’t i be like them?” and then start punishing themselves for not being perfect, and this can manifest itself in all sorts of ways, not just controlling their eating; it can come in the form of an insistent nagging voice in the back of their minds whose sole purpose seems to be to keep them from feeling themselves too much. they’re also very sensitive to criticism, so when someone makes a comment on their physical appearance, it sticks with them, especially in their younger years.
@rattaemin’s big brain helped me with these last two – another indicator can be saturn in the 1st house. like i said before, wherever saturn goes, it places restrictions, and the native feels their ability to express themselves inhibited. they’re hard on themselves, and all their insecurities and fears make it hard for them to see their worth clearly, and all the weight they put on their shoulders to look better, be better, fit in better with everyone else. they tend to have a distorted view of themselves especially in their younger years and it can be difficult for them understand their needs, ambitions and personality, making them strive for control in any way they can. it’s likely that they suffered bullying or had parents who were extremely hard on them, nitpicking at things they weren’t even aware of in themselves.
5th house stelliums can also indicate this, especially if the sun/moon/venus are present there. these people can be very dependent on others’ validation, most of them seem very confident but have a lot of insecurities deep down and cover that up with a big ego, so when they’re criticized for their appearance, it hurts them deep. they are extremely competitive and this competitiveness can extend into their appearance, almost “i have to be the must fuckable person in this grocery story or else” vibes, lmfao. because of this silent competition they have with others, they’re hard on themselves and develop a need to become “better” looking at all costs. it’s also very easy for them to get addicted to stuff – food, dieting, working out, coffee, substances, sex, social media.
in all of these cases, a journey that the native will have to face is developing a healthy relationship with food. i’ve also found that these placements, esp moon-jupiter, often make for vegetarians or vegans; they want their morals to align with every aspect of their life so they not only turn vegetarians but are very picky about using susteinable brand for clothing, makeup, all of that. once they get to that stage, food could start being treated as a priority, emotionally comforting.
