#moondork

[innermoondork]

to celebrate Pride month, I did my first (and second, and third) shoulder mount today at pole class babyyyyyyy

[innermoondork]

having a partner is great but sometimes they fall asleep on your shoulder and you can't move and it's so so painful even tho it's so so cute :(

[innermoondork]

*stops taking antidepressants*

I wonder why I feel so depressed all of a sudden

[innermoondork]

stomach problems have gotten really bad, like "can't sleep for half of the night bc of pain" bad, for multiple nights in a row, which makes it pretty darn difficult to do the living I need to do during the day to pay my bills and, you know, enjoy being alive. I don't really know what to do at this stage. anyway.

[innermoondork]

today no one showed up to pole class so my teacher was like 'ok we're doing a private class :)'

and it was so. awesome. my pole teacher is a world-class artist and people pay crazy amounts of money to get the chance of doing a single workshop with her. and we just spent an hour chatting while she taught me how to do an inside. I am so frickin lucky.

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I know realistically 2025 has been pretty kind to me and I had great moments, but right now it all feels so hopeless. it's just going to be the same bullshit but I'll be older. happy new year everybody

[innermoondork]

feeling incredibly smug that my pole dance instructor came to talk to me at the end of class to tell me I should try the next level because she thinks it would be more my speed. this has NEVER happened to my btw, I have always sucked at sports. but I love pole a lot :)

[innermoondork]

at a teambuilding for work. I aggressively do not want to be here.