good things
Candles
Streams
Raindrops sparkling on a spiderweb
Dancing

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good things
Candles
Streams
Raindrops sparkling on a spiderweb
Dancing
TW/CW for depression ahead
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I’m posting this as a reminder to myself. I have anhedonia. About 3 years or so, I lost an 8 year friendship because of my bpd/choices/actions. I was disgusting, hateful, and in my mind downright evil. I got to the point where I didn’t see any reason to keep going. I genuinely thought about dying daily. Because what was the point after all the bad things I did. I eventually threw myself into BG3 and met quite a few of its yume/self shippers. They were so lovely and kind. I found a tiny spark of joy that I’ve been holding onto ever since. Gortash did something I can’t explain, but seeing people who loved him and Durge made me think I was still capable of being loved too. I was capable of being better. Maybe I didn’t deserve to be punished for the rest of my life.
When my depression gets bad, I spiral and feel like there’s literally no reason to live. I want to be able to remind myself it’s only temporary. Things can get better. It’s okay to find love through the little things. Even if it’s just fiction.
Good thing #483: I sent a letter to my friend today!
Good thing #482: I went to a food court with my partner's family and got shaved ice!
Good things that happened today:
Got to pet a little dog.
Saw the J short Glitch made. Honestly, the only time I've ever really cared about J as a character. Where was THIS girl hiding?
Felt good pooping...I don't know, the day mostly sucked and I'm tired, so I'm going to say the time I felt CLEANSED when pooping counts.
Good things about me:
I'm a good friend.
I'm a good writer.
I'm a good artist.
I'm a good son.
I'm a good brother.
17/07/26
Happy to have the summer weather is back to normal. I mean, usually I melt at 27 degrees but today’s weather made me what to walk a lot as it was so nice!
Accompanied my friend looking for wedding outfit - loving it! I love being stylist 🙂 and she « paid » by inviting me for basque cheesecake - coffee - gyoza bar! So goooood. Thank you !
I checked my basement for shoes and other stuffs and turns out I still have some shoes that I thought gone and I found a shawl given by my bestie when I left jakarta for Paris- it’s time to wear it for the wedding tomorrow !!!!!
Good things
Flowers
Golden light
Streams
Sparkles
Waves crashing on the shore
Falling leaves
Dancing with people
Twirly skirts
Painting
Roses
Beaches
Wildflowers
Doing puzzles
Thunderstorms
The way light shines on water
Fire
Dancing
Badminton
Singing with others
Sunlight shining through the tree canopy